Merry Christmas, HARU! I know I can only greet you here and not in person. Then again, I'm pretty much shy to even make a move to try and talk to you. I might end up complaining about my day here again, so I'll be apologizing in advance.
Hey... Do you really think I should be selfish and self-centered at some point of my life? Sorry for asking something like that. That's actually what I said in my journal. But I know that it's something quite hard to do in reality. And yet I might consider doing that, even with all the complaints that I could ever do both to you and to my journal.
I made another dramatic paragraph in my journal with what I think about Christmas. About how it signifies the near end of another year, of me contemplating on what the year 2024 had given to me to make me change. Of course, I'm thankful for them. But it's the reasons I had that made me think about the steps I made to see even such small changes.
Here's what I wrote in the journal:
"Those changes meant I have taken small steps to reach something. Some of them, I did out of competition. Out of spite to myself. Out of regret that I could've done something about it sooner."
Quite negative of me, huh? If you've read my entries from September, then you'll see one of the changes I made for myself this year. I'd like to see more of changes to happen to me, as long as I make the right choice.
"I can take more steps. I can make more choices that could change things for me. I don't know what would those steps be. I don't know what choices would be laid out in front of me as time goes by. I don't know what those changes would entail for me. But I want to make them. I just have to finally decide to take those steps."
What are your thoughts about Christmas, HARU? Was it similar to mine, which is a bit dramatic and contemplative or something? Or was it on a positive note? I hope this Christmas was good to you. I wish you both good health and a beautiful life now that another year is about to end.
But enough with that. I want to tell you things that happened today.
We had gift-opening. But this year was a bit different for our family since only 3 of them were able to prepare gifts to give. I wasn't able to save enough for this year, so I didn't get to prepare anything. Sorry. Did you get anything this year, HARU? Did you like it? I hope you receive something good and amazing. I just wish that for you. Then again, I wonder what it's like to receive a gift from you. I can't help smiling just thinking about it. Of course, you should be giving gift sincerely. Okay? Don't force yourself if you don't want to.
As for me:
- I received cash from my 2nd sister. She also couldn't prepare anything because of the continuous company travels that she had to do over the past month.
- Two pants from my mom.
- A small backpack from my youngest sister
- A pillow, a sleepwear set (shirt and pants), a night dress and 3 shirts from my 1st sister.
It's still a lot, right? I'm thankful for them, don't worry. I'm more thankful for the time that they gave just to prepare them. You know what I realized all this time, HARU? Time is something that becomes too precious for anyone to give as it goes by. Time spent with someone can never be replaced by anything material. So, HARU, remember that the one of the best gifts you could give to someone is your time and attention.
Even when it's Christmas, I still ended up going to town. I guess you could say that it's something I already expected. You know another thing that I expected today? Scarce transportation heading to town. Well, that's a given. It's a holiday. 😁✌️ And so, as per usual, I ended up walking from home to town.
This Christmas is still a little busy for me, huh? What do you think, HARU? What about you? What were you doing this Christmas? I hope you're having a good time. And because of that, how I wish I could see you smile someday soon. But for now, here's to me hoping that this letter could do that in my stead.
Merry Christmas, once again! I think I should end my letter for you here. I still have to see if I can do something about writing a chapter for one of my ongoing stories ("The 7th Moon"). I intend to post it on Wattpad and maybe in my other Blogger account. You think I can write a chapter worth 1,000 words before I go to sleep tonight? I do hope so. Cheer for me, okay? I will cheer for you, as well.
Stay safe and live healthy. Thank you for reading this, HARU. I'll write again tomorrow. See you! 😊💕
Waiting here with love and appreciation,
Florence Joyce
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