Approved Manuscript # 1: Charming A Silent Heart

Title: Charming A Silent Heart (tentative title)
Date Approved: October 22, 2014

Actually, noong una kong mabasa ang e-mail sa akin about the feedback of this manuscript, hindi ko alam kung paano ko ide-describe ang nararamdaman ko. I was… neutral at the time. Oo, siguro. Napangiti ako. Pero deep inside, hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko kung ano ba ang dapat na maramdaman ko. It’s either I felt numb for waiting or I felt numb because I’m too happy and I can’t even release it. Basta, ang gulo.

The Shadow Of My Heart

For the past years, I've lived my life in pain

That I couldn't bear so easily and plain

And no matter how much I try to walk away

Memories of you and me are making my path gray

I wanted to have a life that's colorful and new

And fulfill a dream that's shining brightly and true

But how will I suppose to have the life I want

If a dark memory in my mind continues to haunt?

You're the only person that hurt me this much

And it lived in a place that I couldn't bear to watch

I wanted this pain inside of me to fade

That your so-called love for me before had made

The day you left me, everything about you created a shadow

That I can never break; that's why it always follows

And no matter how many years will pass by

Everything about you won't help me reach the sky

Your memories seem to have become a chain

That binds me in a world filled with so much pain

I know that wherever I go, you'll be the shadow of my heart

And I can never find a way to rip it completely apart

If Ever A Love Will Come True

Destiny, true love's kiss, and happy ever after

It's always these words when love matters

A chance is what I only want to have

If ever I have the courage to find my one true love

I've lived a life that's gloomy and cold

In my spacious world with no one to hold

It's dull and no surprises to have at all

My floor and walls are now beginning to fall

I knew I've walked for over a mile or two

But I can't really think of what else to do

Until a savior began to block my way

And have his smile brighten up my day

My world shines brightly when he showed up

And he's helping me reach the mountain top

A mountain full of obstacles and pain

That makes me live my life in vain

And I want to thank you for helping me out

Without a feeling of shame and even doubt

And if ever a miracle called love will come true

I'll make sure pain and suffering will never come to you

Close To Your Love

I've always seen and watched you from afar

Like watching and smiling at the shining star

It's been like this ever since I met you

And you never made my day so dull and blue

A smile and laughter can complete my day

It's like watching the lovely sunset by the bay

I can feel the warmth and see new dreams

Being born inside my heart, flowing like streams

But I think my dream might not become real

When many people want your heart for them to steal

I'll never have the chance to show my true feelings

No matter how much I try to become pleasing

No one around us can be a marionette of love

Or even play like Cupid with bow and arrows to have

And I really can't get a little close to you

Even if I have the courage to make it through

But I want to do everything I can with my skills

Because that would give my life a lot of thrills

And that includes making you notice me one bit

To get close to your love is a one sure hit

To The One I'm Waiting For

A gloomy path is what I'm walking for now

Doesn't even know which road will I go somehow

It's been like this ever since you've been gone

And I can't tell when will all of this be over and gone

My life has been like this for a long period of time

And I can't even hear the clocks that always chime

It's because I don't want to know anything anymore

About the life I'm having now that never happened before

But there is one particular thing that I only know

I never had a chance to notice time that runs so slow

Because my heart only desires for one thing

And that's meeting you again all through everything

No matter how long I wait or even how far

Even if I can't fade away my heart's scar

I will keep standing on the place where you left me

For you to be able to return again and gladly see

A smile of happiness will surely shine

In a place beneath the very green pine

This is to the person I've been waiting for

That I know I have loved like never before

Will Of The Sea

For a long time I'm living near the sea

How I wish someone would love me

A person who will be my protector

And somehow will also be my heart's creator

As the waves of the sea keep on tossing
While the boat of the fisherman began crossing

I hear its will that means something

And it could possibly makes me everything

I don't know if I could be the one

The one that will bring you the sun

To enlighten your gloomy, dark face

And will give you all of love's grace

I know the waves of the sea say something

Whatever it is, it could be anything

To hopefully make you love me for me

I hope that it's really the will of the sea

All I Can Remember

Inside my head, there's a nearly fading memory

Of all the past that once happened to me

It's fading slowly as years came rolling by

Like a little bird that is eager to fly

New memories keep on being created and born

While others had disappeared, being blotted and torn

And no matter how much I wanted to recall

My mind can't go up to where it's started to fall

I want to picture everything in my mind

Every memories and scenes that I could able to find

Happiness and sadness, including laughter and cries

It's always these emotions that no one buys

But as these memories slowly fade away

One keeps on standing out as I start my day

It's your face and smile and the way you treated me

That's what my mind more often wanted to see

It's my day with you, that's all I can remember

Starting January and extending till December

And if the wings of my memories had been blown away

My memories with you will surely cling on and stay

The Only Way To Love You

Loving secretly, loving weakly, loving strong
Even if all the things went terribly wrong
It's always like this when it comes to love
It's everyone in the world wanted to have

But one kind of love made someone suffer in pain
And torturing her fragile heart again and again
It's loving secretly which is a hard thing to do
And no one knows when this love will come true

Sunny day, rainy day, almost every day
I stay in a quiet place where I can pray
That somehow, you'll take a glance of me
And talk to me for a while to answer my plea

Grayish clouds and wind that harshly blows
It's the kind of world where my life flows
In your world, it's bright and always keeps on shining
Because of the people that keeps you climbing

But up to now, I'm still waiting in this cold place
Where many people can't even recognize my face
Hiding in your world where I can take a glance of you
It's the only way I know for me to love you so true

A Chapter Of My Life

My life is compared to an old, rotten book
That no one dared to take a look
I remained myself to be kept in the shelf hidden
Outside the world where people barely think what's forbidden

For as long as I can think and remember
My pages never showed its glow like an ember
The words and colors began to fade away
Until someone like you began to lighten up my day

Your gentle touch returned my faded colors
Restored the words and opened my closed doors
Your pen gently swayed on my old, creased paper
Like a graceful pirouette done by a ballet dancer

The day you came, you created a new chapter
Like the one from the novel of an inspired writer
Every words and details are carefully drawn
Like the dewy grasses of a backyard lawn

So when my life is over, and I'll be given a chance
Even if it's just a dream that'll easily prance
If there's a chapter in my book that I would see without strife
It's when the time you recreated the book of my life

Out Of The Blue

After a pain, a promise had been made
For the person you once loved, you'd wish to fade
But how was it going to happen
If the same feeling had never misshapen?

It's only a little time that had gone by
And somehow, I managed to stop my heart to cry
But as the sweet, gentle wind began to blow
A light of hidden love slowly started to glow

All because I saw a dashing, charming smile
That could surely attract even people in a mile
A person who showed up from out of the blue
That is ready to charm you so bright and true

I never thought I would actually meet
A person who I think is never sad for a bit
A jolly one who just keeps following the flow
Of a deep blue water that's running so slow

His smiles and dimples fade my dark clouds away
Whenever he keeps talking to me each coming day
A feeling sprouted from out of the blue
Hope it will lead to a love that's so true

A Memory Of December

During the time the cold wind starts blowing
I couldn't help my tears to stop from falling
It's not the happy memories that I remember
Only those that let my heart cry in December

I couldn't accept that you just left me alone
And I found myself staring at the telephone
Hoping that you would call me just once
And maybe you'll give me a second chance

I guess I'm in a deep state of depression
And it's easy to tell with my expression
Why do I have to suffer this way?
How could you let my fragile heart pay?

My tears are like the falling rain
Of pains and aches that are heavy to gain
I just couldn't let myself suffer
From a battle wherein you're tougher

So, every time I pick of a memory from December
I only choose now what are happy to remember
'Cause I'll never forget that still, I have friends
Who will accompany me till the battle ends

The Kiss Of New Year

Reunion, laughter, and joyful tears
Even groups who keep drinking beers
It's a scene everyone wants to look upon
From sunset of New Year's Eve till dawn

Also, New Year depicts new beginnings
New hopes, aspirations and yearnings
Everything's new for the two young hearts
That found each other after years of being apart

It's their destiny that binds them together
And their hearts that love one another
Happiness for them is like the beautiful seas
And they want no other for them to be pleased

As the New Year countdown started with no warning
They stared at each other with full of meaning
And because of the times that they had missed
The lovers welcomed the New Year with a kiss

For them, that kiss was one of a kind
Because love is surely not easy to find
It's only in your heart where you could be able to see
A love that holds the future's key

January's Story

It's the month that started the year
And vacation had been drawn near
A month that will start life again
And have my blessings be poured like rain

But the story I want to show
Is about a love that began to flow
A love that started by an accidental touching
And destiny that already did its matching

The field was cold because of the snow
And the time must have moved slow
But the two of them didn't mind the cold
Didn't even know what destiny has foretold

Both of them can't say a thing
Not a word until the phone rings
She realized it was already ten o'clock
And her friend was only waiting for her to knock

He smiled at her and just said this,
"I'm sorry," then he held her hand and had it kissed
She was shocked but she managed to smile
Because somehow, he made her moment worthwhile

My Greatest Regret

I know my love from before
Helped me open a new door
A door wherein my wishes were fulfilled
And a new life I'll be able to build

But time had passed, I don't know why
Why'd you have to make me cry?
I know I've risked everything for love
So why'd you let pain I shall have?

Choices for me to pick are already set
But I didn't know it'll be my greatest regret
To end our relationship was my last choice
Even though I know you were not one of my toys

I couldn't think of any other way
For me to get rid of this pain away
I know I've made the wrong decision
That's why I couldn't think of an acceptable reason

Is it jealousy? Is it pain?
Why am I standing in the rain?
I can't believe I let myself suffer for long
And I really have to bring it along

I just can't stand it anymore
And I couldn't take my heart to feel this sore
Now I feel the rain of aches that makes me wet
'Cause I know the decision I've made was my greatest regret

Will There Be A Second Chance?

Oh, pain, why can't you let me go?
Why'd you let my heart freeze in the snow?
He's a person I know I should forget
But how come I still feel the regret?

I don't know if there'll be a second time
When you already heard the clock's chime
Feelings of mine for you that I can't get rid
Despite the things that you just did

Each morning, I just want to mourn
Ever since this unbearable pain was born
I'm asking why can't you love me
The way that I really want to be

I can't say if there will be another chance
To let me be awake from this trance
For I couldn't take the pain anymore
That's slowly devouring my heart's core

I really want to let my feelings prance
Just to be able to have a second chance
'Cause when the day I'd have such a thing
It's when the day winter turned to spring