Sousuke/Saki AU (Go-onger): To Begin Again

It was hard to stay with someone whom she knew would be gone in her life forever. Or at least, that was the feeling that Saki kept on having over the past weeks since she last went to that library and cried.

She didn't intend to cry there. But it was strange that she couldn't help herself. All she wanted was to release... something burdening in her chest. The same feeling that had haunted her for three years.

But now that she finally knew what it was, she felt a bit foolish for letting it continue.

So I'm 31... And Had Just Reached Another Journaling Milestone

Hi, everyone. Welcome to my blog.

Okay, this turned out to be weird with that introduction. Why am I writing this as if I'm imagining myself saying this in a video or something. Or maybe that's just me.

In any case, as you can see by the picture I included here, it is my 900th day of daily journaling! And yes, this post was 3 days late, basing it on the date I placed on the picture. But it's better late than never, right? So here I am.

So I'm 31... And This Is The Real Me

When someone posts to their social media accounts, we all want it to be perfect. To show the best part of ourselves that we want to show to the world. To stand out for just a little bit more than the rest of us. So we make our posts.

We post our stories about how happy we are in every picture we send on the internet. We even take photos and put them up with hashtags and tags and everything else that makes us famous for who we are. Okay, maybe the word 'recognized' would be the most appropriate word for that.

Anyway, we show them that part of ourselves to the point that... we end up lying to ourselves that this should just be the 'us' that people know. That's when the lies come. The lies start spreading like wildfire through social media until they become something that people don't care about as much as they once thought. And because there aren't any people who really know us at first, there aren't very many people who are interested in our story at all. 

Nagi/Fuuka (Ninninger): When I Have You

"Remind me why I'm doing this again?" Fuuka asked while she and Nagi were heading to the river in the midst of the hot weather of that summer. But honestly, she could just groan at how insane the idea of accompanying him on this weird little trip around town was.

Not to mention--

"Because you love me."

She seriously had a strong urge to roll her eyes and punch this guy right here and there. "Ah, right." This had got to be a joke.

Then again, it wasn't as if Fuuka was forced to do this. It seemed that... Nagi knew she wasn't feeling well that day that he had to go out his way to pull her out of the room and let her enjoy the fresh air for once.

Lucky/Hammie (Kyuranger): Hoping You'd Allow Me

Hoping you would allow me to love you. I'm still be waiting and hoping... ~From the Filipino song "Bakit Ba Ikaw? (How Come It's You?)" by Michael Pangilinan

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If Hammie could just take a step back and perhaps start things all over again between them, she would've done that already. But for her, she knew that it was too late. It was crazy that none of the people around her had ever thought that she was hurting it.

Or was it because she was good at hiding it? Was she that good of keeping everything in her that... she was able to bear the pain even through all that chaos that had happened in her life lately?

Maybe. But perhaps Hammie was just talented at pushing everything away when needed, especially if it was about her own pain. Then again, it was a crazy thing for her to do, even if it was meant to stop the people she cared about from worrying too much for her sake.

So I'm 31... and I'm giving an update after a long while

It's a weird title, I know. But I've been planning to create a series of blog posts here with the starting title "So I'm 31..." somehow.

Happy New Year, everyone! How is it going? I hope you greeted the new year with big hope and lovely smiles. Well, we still don't know what the year holds for us. But even so, this is the time that we can do something to make a change to ourselves.

At least, that's what I did even before the year started. To be specific, I made a goal around the second week of December. That's why I couldn't post anything here.

That's one of the reasons, at least. The other reason is that I couldn't think of a good content to post here. It might be a lame excuse, but my mind is definitely somewhere else and I focused more on setting up my goal for this year and other things.

Let's break it down, shall we?

Naga/Hammie (Kyuranger): That's Why I Waited

It was crazy for Hammie to feel something as strange as heart beating fast because of someone once again. She thought she was over it. As it turned out, that wasn't the case at all.

Just as the case that she encountered at the moment upon putting her wish paper on the sacred tree in the central town. It was summer and she had only arrived in her hometown a few weeks ago. So she was aware of the summer tradition of that town -- and it was one that she loved. Before she lost a lot of things in her life.

Hammie left that town a long time ago, but only chose to return there when a dream that she knew wasn't an ordinary one had plagued her for quite some time. She hadn't come back here for more than a year already, but now it seemed like this dream would not go away. Not without her doing something about it.