I'm so freaking tired and a hell lot sleepy. That's all I can complain about for today, to be honest. Then again, what's new? That's what I've been complaining most of the year this year. But like I said, I was able to do things slowly this year that I thought I'd never do at all and do over again.

We were almost done with the food preparation for the media noche later. At least, I was done with my part of the task. So all in all, we have fruits, macaroni salad, leche flan, ube biko, lechon belly, vegetable tempura, grilled bangus, bopis, chopseuy, lumpiang shanghai, crispy pata, pork barbeque and pancit bihon. That's actually a lot, now that I wrote it all down. Oh, yes. There's also the cake that TP's friend gave to us. I don't know why, though. But thank you. 😊 Wait, there's one more to that list. Fresh lumpia. I almost forgot. LOL!

So don't be surprised if I find myself tired and sleepy today before I could even welcome the New Year. And why do I have a feeling that I would be coming down with colds after all this? Yikes!

To be honest, I don't really know what else to write here. I know that it's the last day of the year and I would've had a thing or two to say about how 2024 had fared for me. But I don't think I have to do any recap or something about my year. The journals I would write on to already held my thoughts on each day of the year, even though majority of them were really repetitive. But those were my real days. And they were my real thoughts. I don't have any reason to lie about it or hide about my mundane days. Similar things could happen in 2025, but it doesn't matter. My days are my days. I don't have to lie about them. Maybe the one thing that I need to do as a change next year starting tomorrow is to be more honest and not hide and hold back on my journal entries.

With this entry, I'm finally saying goodbye to my 2024! 😊❤️

【silent vlog】another 3 days' worth

This is another 3 days worth of video clips (Dec. 27-29, 2024) that I just randomly filmed while going about with my life now that the year is about to end. I mean, it's crazy to think that the year just passed by fast for me. It's going to get busy again now that we have to prepare and buy the things we needed for the Media Noche this New Year's Eve. And for this silent vlog, I decided to talk about the one thing I chose to do with regard to my blog and my journal entries. Just so I have something to talk about and post daily. I still haven't given up on the idea of daily posting on my blog, you know. 😊✌️

【silent vlog】3 days' worth (merry christmas 😊🎄!)

This is 3 days worth of video clips (Dec. 24-26, 2024), since I still tried to film whatever random and short clips that I can even when busy. I should've edited it in each day to make the usual 30 seconds mini vlog. But the fatigue would really get to me. So I decided to compile them all. I hope you guys have a good Christmas. 😁🎄😊💕✌️

【silent vlog】just a dream of mine

This is actually two days worth, since I didn't get to post yesterday. I was so tired yesterday that I fell asleep before I knew it. Things would surely get busier starting tomorrow, so it would be a miracle if I managed to even post here by then. But it would surely be an achievement if I ever did, right? 3 more days before Christmas. 😁✌️🎄

In my opinion, the date felt... kind of ironic. I mean, this was supposed to be my parents' wedding anniversary. But ever since they separated for almost a decade (or probably more), this date became an ordinary day to our family. But why would I comment that way, you ask? We actually met up with Papa today, of course. Minus Angel, since she's in La Union together with her workmates for their Christmas party. So there was just me, Miko, Des, and her family. Kind of insane today because of all the traffic and the lack of taxis. Then again, it's weekend. That's to be expected.

Anyway, I received ₱2,000 worth of SM gift cards and another ₱2,000. Well, not just me. But also the rest of my sisters and the husbands. That's like ₱4,000 each. That's just... wow!

I went out again after that to go to the market and buy other ingredients needed for Christmas noche buena and also ingredients for Mama's orders. I mean, 23 is going to be chaotic and stressful. Let me survive that and my mom's nagging and bossy attitude. 😕

I only got to add lines to only one notebook — again. That's understandable, though. I mean, I was tired as hell. And I didn't even walk from house to town this time. This is getting crazy, you know. Why do I have a feeling that it would be worse once 23 arrives? Gosh! I really need all the energy and luck that I can have to survive this day.

【silent vlog】just wanting to write

I made it! Got to finish this and posting this before midnight. Holiday rush is still going on and it's tiring me out. But I got to write! After a long while. 😁✌️

【silent vlog】showing up again

I didn't get to film anything yesterday because of all this holiday fuss that was making me tired the whole time. I mean, I often find myself sleeping before I knew it. But missing a day was already bad enough for me. I was supposed to include a writing vlog here and make this silent vlog a little over a minute to make up for the ones I didn't get to film yesterday. Didn't happen. Yikes! But this was still longer than my usual short vlog. So... I guess it's still a win for me? 😁✌️

【silent vlog】more walking done

Yup. I broke the chain after 9 days. Sorry. But I was so tired that all I want to do was to sleep already. I don't feel bad, though. I was doing this as more of a favor for myself than anything. And because of that thought, I didn't feel as bad as I was expecting now that I missed a day of posting after making a self-declaration or something. The deal here was for me to do this consistently and regularly. And I think I did a good job. Now I just have to keep it up. 👍😁✌️

I went out to go to the market to buy some ingredients for tonight's dinner.

Here's one thing I noticed, though. I'm starting to feel so tired easily again. I don't know if it's solely my walking from home to town that made it happen or I was just stressed out of the fact that my mom was taking more orders than what she could handle again. And she even accepted orders for the 24th! I mean, seriously? Urgh! She's seriously not taking into accounts on the aftermath of those activities on her, is she? Yes, she was earning. But not truly worth it if it would make her be in pain again for who knows how many days. Okay, I know I shouldn't be feeling this way towards my mother. But she was hardheaded that she wouldn't even listen to any of us here. 😕

Anyway, I just continued adding lines to the writing notebooks and I got to finish two of them today. I guess I was just tired that I even took a nap (quite a long one, I might add) before I knew it. Sorry about that. I might actually end up sleeping before I could finish editing my short vlog for today. Hopefully, that doesn't happen.

Now I don't know what else to add here. I just felt so tired and sleepy that I just want to hit the pillows and doze off. 😝❤️

【silent vlog】scared of mundane

So I decided to have the clips taken while I was outside the house. Nothing about the inside of any building or the house. I don't know why I decided that, but I think it's good to do this from time to time.

【silent vlog】just start

I guess I'm making this a sort of a journal of my thoughts that included random clips of my daily life, huh? Well, I just realized that today. Kind of strange, isn't it?

【silent vlog】my reason for doing this

There are a few things I tried doing here while editing the video. And I will keep doing what I can to improve while keeping everything short and hopefully, something people can take inspiration from.

【silent vlog】papers and cooking

For the first time since I started doing this, I haven't put a clip of my face here. Not that it would change anything. But I was in a hurry to do this, to be honest. Maybe I'm just doing this so I won't break the chain.

【silent vlog】even when it's late

I nearly panicked when I realized that I haven't filmed any clips the whole morning. It was already lunch time when I realized that. Forgetful me strikes again. 😅😁

【silent vlog】each day is different

Changing the thumbnail on top of not actually adjusting the length of each clip to exactly 1 second... Yup, I've defied my own rule somehow. But things got a little chaotic here. Not to mention, the pain from dealing with red days is starting for me. So... this is what happened. 😅😁

【silent vlog】with late christmas decorating done

Maybe it's a good thing that I showcase even just a little difference in each of my short videos featuring my daily life. I mean, I know my daily life would mostly turn out the same as the other days. But my journal entries had proven to me that even in those similarly looking days, there would always (and I mean "always") be something different. It might be subtle for anyone to see. Yet there will be something there that will make each day unique to us.

【silent vlog】with something to say

So instead of counting the numbers of the days that I'm doing this, I'll just post the "title" of each short video. I saw my last silent vlog and I could actually go back to doing that. But I should plan it out first before anything else. That way, I won't have to feel lost and frustrated on what to post.

【silent vlog】back again!

This was basically inspired by the videos I saw here about one second a day. But I wanted to create a different version that still applies the same concept of taking 1 second long video clips and compiling them. I'm making this my way of vlogging in the meantime without having the need to speak too much (for now) while trying to navigate my way in taking videos and facing the camera at some point.