journal entry #2214

Went out to pay my second sister's contributions for SSS, PhilHealth and Pag-IBIG. At least this time, the lines didn't take that long to move.

Went to the market after that to buy some vegetables needed for dinner.

My second sistet didn't go to work today, for some reason. Didn't ask why, though.

Still dealing with some more coughs and also runny nose. I think it'll take some more time before it actually dissipates completely.

Managed to rewrite some prompts while watching (or rather listening) to some videos I downloaded before.

Got to pay attention to posting some entries on my blog. Honestly, I think it's about time, you know. But I'd really like to add some other variants of blog entries other than journal entries and even episode reviews.

journal entry #2213

Went out to met up with Papa. He gave us SM gift cards worth ₱3000 (at least the one I received). I'm not sure about the ones that my first and second sisters had received, though. I think my youngest sister and I received the same amount.

Went to the market after that to buy pomelo for Mama and also melon and watermelon for my second sister.

Still dealing with coughs and runny nose, but not as much. I just have to continue taking medicine to finally dissipate the entire thing.

Just watched and rewatched episodes instead of continuing to rewrite prompts. Not sure if I'm bored or just don't want to do other things except sleeping.

Mama made brownies today. She started making them before we left the house for the meet up.

Finally got to add prompts to the photo edits i made two days ago. Still have to make some more to fill the other gaps. Or... maybe I shouldn't anymore and just proceed with what I have already?

I have a feeling that I'd be sleeping again before I know it after this. Gosh! I also had a feeling that once my head hits the pillow, I'd forget to use my braces again. Urgh!

journal entry #2212

Forgot to use my invisible braces again last night. You know, I notice that I kept forgetting to do the most important things in my daily routine lately. Japanese studies, mouth care... Not really sure what's going on for me not to do these things when I know I have to, you know.

My first sister and her son (my nephew) were here to visit. And also to get the things that came from Papa that they forgot to bring the last time (which was last week, by the way)

Still dealing with coughs and runny nose. But at least not as much as it was a few days ago. Of course, I still have to drink medicine to really make it subside.

Went out to head to the market to buy the things that Mama had asked me to buy. And yes, I walked again from home to town. Doing that somehow stops my cough from hitting me, even for just a while.

Continued rewriting prompts. At least I managed to rewrite a lot this time, unlike yesterday. See? This is another of those routines that I would end up forgetting these past few days.

Got to watch the 5th episode of "Moon River" little by little after downloading. Now I can't wait to watch the 6th one tomorrow.

Mama did the laundry today. As per usual, I was the one who had to hung them dry.

Mama made siopao and mami today and my first sister made another batch of ramen for my youngest sister since she wasn't here the first time my first sister made them for us.

[There's another entry after this about a story plot I thought about, but chose not to place it here as I haven't written it just yet.]

journal entry #2211

I just really felt tired and sleepy since I went out twice today.

Just rewatched episodes of the K-dramas I've watched before

Managed to rewrite a few prompts. But couldn't move further since my eyes kept drooping. Guess I can't really stop drowsiness once it hits.

Still have colds, but not as painful as it was a few days ago.

Ended up doing some more photo edits, but I still haven't added prompts in them. I guess I'll just have to add some more just to fill the gaps again. The real problem for me would be writing one-shots for each of them when I still have to deal with this slump. Kind of annoying, to be honest.

just my own small plan for now

...and this is something I thought about after a few days of mulling upon finding that out. Still pissed off about what happened, I'm not gonna lie.

This maybe just my own childish move about what happened with her. But... yeah. I don't really think I can continue watching that show after what they did to her. It may not bring so much effect to the show, I guess. The Japanese doesn't give a shit or a care about her or any other people doing the same thing I did, anyway. At least, that's what it looks like at the moment. They like to maintain a good image at the expense of other people they deemed useless.

With that, this might be something I'd call an irony, but I think I should just focus on finishing that Sentai story I'm still writing for about 5 or 6 years already. Of course, I could be wrong about the length of time that I've been writing this particular series. It could be longer or shorter. This might soothe that anger that still lingers in me for what they did.

I still love Sentai, without a doubt. A lot of the Japanese actors I ended up admiring started there. But I guess things even before that termination had already soured that love in some ways.

(episode comment) no. 1 sentai gozyuger episode 36

Well, that was a good end to that two parter episode. I mean, at least Genji found some resolution to his own wish, with Kinjiro/Joji as his compass to reach his own wish, I think. Of course, that's just my own interpretation of it. I could be wrong, of course. They cared for each other, even when they view each other as rivals for a long time. But I think that rivalry was more one-sided than anything, with this one leaning on Genji. It really is rare to find old characters playing/acting as rangers, though, and not just mentors or parental fugures or something similar. So this was something refreshing for me to watch.

So the next episode was focused on Kumade, huh? And also a new Bridan character. According to what I've read, this is Bouquet's sister. But I couldn't help wondering why she suddenly appeared, though.

(episode comment) no. 1 sentai gozyuger episode 35

A little late in posting this, only because I actually focused on watching paranormal shows these past few days. So we got another two-parter episode featuring a new ring warrior. Then again, it was always like that, right? As for this episode, I think we're already at the part where the members were rethinking about their initial wish when they decided to become Ring Warriors. At least, that's the implication of what Kinjiro was thinking at the end of the episode. I mean, that's what happened at the start of the episode with regard to Sumino's wish. Yes, she finally found her sister. But because the Shinkenger ring doesn't work now (as I already expected last episode), her goal shifted to that of finding a way to wake Oto up from her slumber. But why the rival, though? Why him? Just because both had wished for eternal youth?

I'm not really good at analyzing things like this for a show. Or maybe my attention and concentration span wasn't that long and strong at some other things, respectively. Right now, I think it's both. Sure, it's like a calmer episode that we needed after the ones about Rei and Bellum was settled — somehow. But of course, there could still be a deeper meaning to that shifting and rethinking of the Gozyugers' initial wishes. Let's see if the next episode will explain it to me at some point.

Dear Future Husband,

I know it's been a while since I wrote a letter to you like this here. I mean, I don't even know if you're reading this or not. But at the moment, I really don't care. I just want to let it out of me before I end up overthinking again. And from what I can remember, overthinking would only make me worry so much over things that I should never pay attention to. If that's cold of me to say (or in this case, write), then please forgive me. Like I said, I just need to let it out.

I hope you're not angry at me for doing that. Though I can't promise that this won't be the last, I will do my best to keep it to the minimum. If not, rare.

Sorry about that. My mind is a little messed up at the moment. I guess you could also say that I'm worried. Am I crazy? I know I can meet you in one way or another. I'm sure in my heart at some point that nothing will get in the way of us meeting and loving. But what am I worried about, to be honest? My heart has been pounding really strange for a while now and I don't know why. Would I meet you soon? Would I know it's you?

I don't know where this idea came from. But I can really feel that you're not from the country where I come from. Not from the place where I was born and raised. This strong feeling remains until now ever since I first thought about it back in high school. By the way, that's nearly two decades ago. I think I first thought about it back in third year high school. Why did I think of it that way, though? Was that something strange to think about?

I might be asking for something hard right now. But I hope you're a man who would never judge people just because of their race. I hope you're someone who wouldn't be easily swayed by the ways of the society and their way of thinking. You do know how sometimes their thoughts and rules were twisted. As I'd usually say it, society sucks. But that doesn't mean I should always stick to their rules.

I don't know how love would defy some of those twisted thinking and rules. But I think one of the ways we can deal with this was to remain true to each other. Remain true to what we believe in that doesn't involve hurting or defiling people. Remain true to our dreams of becoming the people we can be proud of.

I got dramatic again, huh? I'm sorry. But that's how my thoughts would usually go. I only release them while writing, so don't worry about me doing the same thing in person while we're talking. I'm not like that. 

Maybe when I become comfortable to tell you these things, I hope it wouldn't be too much for you to listen to. I know when to stop doing that, so don't worry. Of course, I also want you to be comfortable telling things to me. Things that you wouldn't sometimes mention to anyone else. I want us to be comfortable to each other that telling our thoughts and letting each other know how we feel would actually feel like home for both of us.

I love you and I love it when we actually feel like we're each other's home at the end of the tiring day. For now, I'll end this letter here. I do hope that next time, I would tell you some great things about my life. You can do that by reading my journal entries I'm placing in this blog. They are from my actual journal, after all, unless stated otherwise. Okay? So know that they are my actual daily happenings, even when most of them were mundane and boring.

Love you lots. Till the next letter I'd write for you. ❤️😊💕

Still waiting for you to finally come to my life,

Florence Joyce

(episode comment) no. 1 sentai gozyuger episode 34

I know this was about Rikuo and Rei fighting it to the finish. But somehow, I decided to use this photo instead for this episode comment, for some reason. But yes, kind of guessed it that Rikuo would decide to fight Rei alone and get killed because of it if it comes to that. Then again, he has very perceptive teammates, whether he admits it or not. Even for Sumino who still has hard feelings for him keeping the truth about the man who took Oto.

I'm actually glad that Rei wasn't killed off. Yes, he did a lot of atrocities just to find himself a cure (or to better put it out there, he was sacrificing humanity along with his desire to die). But in my opinion, dying is like an easy escape from punishment. Living can also become a form of punishment. That depends on how one views life, I guess.

And yes, Sumino did finally find Oto. But I also have a feeling that she won't be waking up anytime soon. If what the first appearance of the grown-up Oto had told me, she was awake because of the ring's power. Something must have messed up Oto's physiology for that abduction to make that happen to her. Then again, who knows. I could be wrong, though.

(episode comment) no. 1 sentai gozyuger episode 33

This episode was both intense and chaotic in a way. Maybe it was chaotic for me because of what Hoeru had to go through as a trial that the sword gave. I wonder why the sword chose him, though. Tega Sword did say that it chose Hoeru. I don't think it has anything to do with his lack of wishes or dreams, though. He has them, he just didn't know it or maybe haven't fully dived into them for him to realize it. But in the end, he made his choice, even if it means his parents forgetting that he and Kuon (or Hisamitsu, as he was previously called) were even their children. A world of chaos where he has to fight alongside the people he met in his lonely journey. It looked like there would still be hope, though.

I'm a fan of powered up swords or just swords that grants powers to their wielders, in general. And this one — the one called RyoTegaSword — was really fascinating for me. But I think this is the first time I've seen a sword that was used as (possibly) the ultimate power up for the team. I could be wrong, though, so free to correct me. I like Gozyu Wolf's new form after getting that sword, by the way.

Now the Calamity seems to be getting stronger. Yup, even to the point where Tega June actually had to deal with the enlarged Bellum. She was pissed, that's for sure. Even I was surprised. I really thought this episode would show Rei's end or something. I was wrong. It could be in the next episode since the last bit did show that Rikuo was — more than ever — resolved in stopping Rei. The preview somehow hints on that. But I don't know. Let's see what happens next week, then. 😊✌️

Honestly, it really feels good for me that I'm finally able to catch up with watching and at the same time, writing comments in each episodes of this series.