journal entry #2011

Once again, I didn't get to write anything to continue Seitenger. I don't know why I couldn't even concentrate in writing for two days already. Honestly, that really felt disappointing to me. But let's see if I could write just a few more after this.

Majority of the day, I just watched videos on Youtube (mostly imagines) and/or would listen to music. I don't know if I'd consider that as being bored or just not in the mood to do what I need to do.

I actually slept around afternoon and I didn't even realize I did. I just woke up feeling sweaty and my youngest sister asking me to buy her the biscuit she wanted but they weren't available here. I don't even know why. But lately, I just keep finding myself sleeping in the afternoon before I could even stop myself. I was just watching/listening to something and the next thing I knew, I fell asleep.

This might be just a weird thought coming over me at the moment. But I really like to write more in my journal. Add more details the best I can so that I could find more things that I'd recall when I read these all back. You know why I thought about that? Among the things that would tend to linger in my imagination, there was one related to losing memories. And because of that, a certain fear in me also started to linger. I could end up losing my memories one day in some unexpected ways. And maybe — just maybe — those journal entries might help me recall them. This certain scene in my imagination would sometimes make me regret that I haven't started journaling earlier than 2019. Yes, I did journal when I was in high school. But whenever people would read its contents, I would throw it away right after. I wish I never did that. Then perhaps I still have a keepsake of my older memories earlier than 2019.