journal entry #189

It's the leap day, everyone! And it also means it's my grandfather's official birthday today. So today, my mom cooked foods that she wanted to offer for my deceased maternal grandfather. But if I'm going to be honest, it feels like I'm losing whatever connection I have left in me for that relative of mine. I don't know why, though.

And because of that, things got a little busy around here. It's tiring, but I had to face it. Now you can guess, most of us were tired because of that, so they slept quite early.

As for me, don't expect me to sleep early as past 7 PM. Unless I wasn't feeling well or something like that.

Okay, that's it. Now I'm sleepy.

Good night. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。

journal entry #188

Two days...

I haven't written in my journal in that long. I have to say that they were on purpose, though. Either for the reasons that I was tired or I had no idea what to write. Like my mind went blank.

Anyway, since I haven't written there in two days, I didn't get to mention that I finally finished reading of what is my first read for 2020. The title was "The House With A Clock In Its Walls". I won't consider "Mister Monday" as my first 2020 finished read since I started reading it at around 2019. Right now, the one I'm going to read next is from the Talismans series called "The Amulet Of Quilla".

So... I'll say good night here. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。

Banjou (KR Build)/Fuuka (Ninninger): Finding This Missing Piece

You know, I've been dreaming of finding this missing piece. And to this day, I'm searching harder than ever and I think I've found it... ~ Mata Kimi To (With You Again), JAY'ED ft. Ms. OOJA

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Without a doubt, the New World made a great deal of change in Banjou's life. Okay, maybe that was a bit of an exaggeration. But the New World wasn't just a place where the Skywall didn't exist at all. It also brought out a lot of people he was quite sure he had never met before, even in the Old World.

But the more he thought about it, the more he couldn't think of a reason why he had started meeting new people that he didn't get to do so before. One particular person that he was sure he didn't get to meet before was one Igasaki Fuuka. Even though she looked like an ordinary girl who had less to worry about at first glance. Banjou was proven wrong when Sento pointed out that there was something mysterious about her. Not only Sento's words, but also an event that became a definite proof of the mystery surrounding the said girl.

(poem) I Wanted To...

I wanted to look for you, but I could never find you.

I wanted to dream of you, but they never make me see you there

I could chase after you, but I don't know how.

It seems like it's already over for me, even before it begins.

It's hard to think about you, and never knew what the future holds for us.

It's hard to desire to be close to you, when there's a massive distance separating us and our hearts.

Let's meet at some point, even when we don't have any idea if it will come true.

Let our paths cross one day and never let each other go ever again.

(poem) To Be Good Enough For Someone

Have I been good enough to become special to the one meant for me?

I really want all the effort I put to become worthwhile

Or will everything remain as a wish that could never come to be?

All this time, I keep thinking that I know I have to be ready

Have I been wishing for you to come into my life all the while?

Have I been good enough to become special to the one meant for me?

But you're just like the wind that I can never come to see

Why have I never found the chance to even come close to your smile?

Or will everything remain as a wish that could never come to be?

You're still so far away, out of reach like the star that I'd look longingly

As my heart sings of songs that are romantic and heartbreaking in style

Have I been good enough to become special to the one meant for me?

I could only cry as I think of what else is lingering there silently

Will I be able to traverse our distance that's more than a mile?

Or will everything remain as a wish that could never come to be?

I still remain here as I keep on wishing for this heart to be happy

And I won't stop dreaming that one day, we'd walk together down the aisle

Have I been good enough to become special to the one meant for me?

Or will everything remain as a wish that could never come to be?

...and here are the 18 guys that formed the Imperial Sky, the all-male sub-group of Alexandrite University's SGS. Though not as widely known as the ladies of Imperial Flowers—possibly due to the number of members, they still captured the hearts of everyone in the university with their charms and talents. Well, they wouldn't be chosen to be a part of one of the prestigious clubs in AU if they weren't, right? But just like their all-female group counterpart, each of them will soon find their match in the university that changed their lives for good.

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Now that this was finalized, I should be going back and continue writing the rest of the Imperial Flowers' stories so I could start this one soon. 😁😁

(poem) Destination and Ending

Are you the true destination I need to reach right from the start

Before I lose sight of the hope that my life that remained cold 

Or are you the ending that's never meant for my heart?

Like the bull's eye I hit while playing the dart

You've captured my attention and slowly awakened my sleeping world

Are you the true destination I need to reach right from the start?

Most of the time, love would dull the mind that was once smart

Making me do things for you that are both reckless and bold

But are you the ending that's never meant for my heart?

I never want to hate the day that we might be fated to part

One thay will make me cry so much from pain and let me fold

Are you the true destination I need to reach right from the start?

Each smile you give me, I see the dreams you want to impart.

But why did each of the pain from the past would put them on hold

Or are you the ending that's never meant for my heart?

I've always wanted to feel a love like an undying work of art

A love from you, more precious than any treasures or even gold

Are you the true destination I need to reach right from the start?

Or are you the ending that's never meant for my heart?

These 12 ladies formed the all-female sub-group of Alexandrite University's Spiritual Garden Society or SGS for short, a school club with members excelling in arts and music (and sometimes sports, as well). I've only written stories of the three of the members so far—with one already published (Mirui), the second was to be published (Guia) though I still have to idea when and the third was for revision (Yuna).

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Note: I'm posting these because I started reading @heartyngrid's St. Catherine High series and I thought of actually writing romance stories about the members of the all-male sub-group of SGS. 😁✌️😁✌️

At Least We Have Forever 51 - We're In This Together

"So I guess I'll have to hand to you the position of a leader, huh?" Yusuke said that confused Riya.

"I don't understand..."

"For now—- just until this battle ends—- I'll let you lead us. You're the mistress of the Legendary Weapon Wielders, after all. And right now, you're the only one who has the power to counter Erithea's powers. We'll entrust our victory to you, Riya."

Riya was surprised to hear that from Yusuke. To think the whole team would actually allow her to do something like that—- to entrust their victory onto their hands. But then she realized that—- among those who fought Erithea before—- she has the only weapon to eradicate the said evil being once and for all. She might have failed to eradicate her before since she used up her life force. But not this time.

journal entry #181

I was thinking of not writing anything in my journal. But that'll ruin the routine, right? Anyway, a lot of the tarot reading I see on YT for Virgo tells about one thing, for some reason. And that's about someone from the past coming back or trying to communicate. But if I'm going to be honest, I don't think there's any reason for any of those people from my past to communicate with me. For real. And still, the reading would truly make you curious if it will resonate, huh?

Okay, I'm already yawning wide here.

Good night. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。