journal entry #2014

Last day of the month — and it only made me realize just how fast the days would go by and I don't even notice it. It's something that came to me when I was doing my morning routine or checking my mom's blood sugar and recording it on the notebook.

Ended up uninstalling Zen Color after playing it a bit. Definitely too distracting for me. I don't like it when games like this consumes too much of my supposed productive time.

Went out to buy ingredients for two batches of ice candy — for buko pandan and chocolate.

TP got home early today. And so we were able to finish making the two batches of ice candy. Though I would end up sleeping late because of that. I also ended up washing the dishes later than usual. Not that I can help it.

Still having a hard time deciding on what to do with that story. Not to mention, I'm so itching to write a wereworlf romance story. But of course, without the intense spice — as I'd like to call it. I'm so not used to writing (or even reading) such stuff, to be honest. I just want to see what happens when I actually write and post such a story online, you know.

journal entry #2013

Didn't get to go out again today.

I just felt bored the whole day, for some reason. Also a bit lazy to even do anything at all. What the heck?

I just realized today that the web novel version of Shirohiyo is still ongoing and it was also on its 700+ parts on the site. Yikes! Better need to do more reading, if I can. I mean, there's also the 1,000+ parts of the web novel version of The Weakest Tamer. Well, good luck to me!

Only managed to write a few sentences on HFLM today. I really should be doing more, to be honest. Urgh!

Downloaded Zen Color — which is a paint by number type of app — to try and see what it's like since I've never tried it before. Yup, got addicted again and consumed my whole day. That's a bad thing, to be honest.

journal entry #2012

Tried the game Wool Sort since it's a bit similar to Screw Master. Ended up uninstalling it after a few hours. I mean, it was fun to play. It's just... way too distracting.

This is the reason why I didn't get to write anything at all today. Urgh! Procrastinating at its best, I tell you.

Watched more imagines on Youtube. I should be using more of that time, you know.

Didn't get to go anywhere today — thank goodness.

This gave me an ample time to take a nap.

Is it the start of the rainy season already or the weather was just that weird? It was actually raining in the middle of the supposed hot season. I don't know what to think of it anymore.

journal entry #2011

Once again, I didn't get to write anything to continue Seitenger. I don't know why I couldn't even concentrate in writing for two days already. Honestly, that really felt disappointing to me. But let's see if I could write just a few more after this.

Majority of the day, I just watched videos on Youtube (mostly imagines) and/or would listen to music. I don't know if I'd consider that as being bored or just not in the mood to do what I need to do.

I actually slept around afternoon and I didn't even realize I did. I just woke up feeling sweaty and my youngest sister asking me to buy her the biscuit she wanted but they weren't available here. I don't even know why. But lately, I just keep finding myself sleeping in the afternoon before I could even stop myself. I was just watching/listening to something and the next thing I knew, I fell asleep.

This might be just a weird thought coming over me at the moment. But I really like to write more in my journal. Add more details the best I can so that I could find more things that I'd recall when I read these all back. You know why I thought about that? Among the things that would tend to linger in my imagination, there was one related to losing memories. And because of that, a certain fear in me also started to linger. I could end up losing my memories one day in some unexpected ways. And maybe — just maybe — those journal entries might help me recall them. This certain scene in my imagination would sometimes make me regret that I haven't started journaling earlier than 2019. Yes, I did journal when I was in high school. But whenever people would read its contents, I would throw it away right after. I wish I never did that. Then perhaps I still have a keepsake of my older memories earlier than 2019.

journal entry #2010

We were able to make another batch of ice candy — but we had to do that in the afternoon while TP was at break. We couldn't do it in the morning because TP had to leave early.

Did the laundry tomorrow while the weather was good. At least, it was until around afternoon when it became cloudy and looked like it was about to rain.

How come I never got to write anything today? Why? Urgh! I mean, I didn't go out at all to head to town, you know.

My second brother-in-law went back to La Union since I guess he only asked for permission to stay here until today. Not that I would know the set-up this time, to be honest.

It looks like I won't be able to write a long entry tonight, as well. Then again, there were times that it was like that. And I don't like to pretend that I even have a lot of things to write about when my mind won't even cooperate in concentrating at all.

journal entry #2009

Basically did the same thing.

Went out to head to the market to buy ingredients for a new batch of ice candy. Mango-flavored, since that's the one that's about to be sold out. We might have to do it tomorrow morning.

Watched the same things, same topic that at times, I don't even want to listen anymore because it looked like nothing's registering in my mind.

Managed to write something to continue Seitenger. Of course, as per usual. I only got to do one page. Even when it's considered a progress, it's still not enough for me.

I ended up downloading GCash app and verifying my account on it. I don't know why I finally decided to have that, actually. But maybe I just need to some other way to store and save money, I guess. Of course, I'm not sure if that's my real reason. And that means, I also need to do something to fill this up.

my days don't always go like this

Things got a little busy for me and I think that's a good thing. There were a lot of things going on in my mind around that time. Not sure what to make of that, though. I mean, being busy is great. Sure. But when your mind would add itself to the mix, maybe that's something else to worry about at times.

I was able to watch the 4th episode of "The Too Perfect Saint" and it does align with the sequence presented in the light novel. By the way, I was reading the light novel alongside watching the anime. Prince Julius... He's already a hopeless case and I really think Mia wanted to strangle her for being obvilious and also uncaring towards the welfare of the kingdom. Same goes to the knights who were supposed to be helping Mia. At least, she now knows that her sister Philia was sending her letters and it just wasn't reaching her because of obvious reasons. People were definitely hindering the sisters from communicating and for Mia to know the real reason why her sister was sent off to Parnacorta. Never realized that ninja was actually existing there. At least, I think Himari is somewhat similar to a ninja. Anyway, time for Mia to make a decision.

Now what else?

Honestly, I didn't do much except for continuing to write Seitenger and watching more videos in YT. I mean, I still haven't reached the first fight sequence of the team against another Triske Monster on this episode. They still had to deal with Amuro's crazy idea, you know. And Helen hadn't woken up at this point. I've also been wanting to write imagines because of watching so many videos about it that my mind was swirling with ideas after ideas. Then again, I had to put it to a stop at some point becaus it tends to go astray — away from the original intention, if you know what I mean.

Surprisingly, it rained here. Now the temperature dropped a little, which makes it somehow refreshing. But who knows? Hot season can be really crazy here, even in one of the coldest places in the country. 😁✌️

(episode comment) no. 1 sentai gozyuger episode 9

Well, what do you know? This episode was something else. And I think I find Hoeru even more endearing because of this. That might sound weird, though. 😁😁 In any case, there was something else that bothered me aside from Kuon. The bonds among the team — or I guess I wouldn't call it a proper team at this point for now because of how they were treating Hoeru. Debts? That's a really weird way of convincing someone to come back and fight with them. At least he got a power-up. And I still find it weird for Tega Sword to be somehow fixated in making Hoeru return to the group to fight again. To think he even have to convince Hoeru first to return.

Maybe I'm just being dramatic for writing this. Yes, each of them were interesting. But let's just say it's not enough for me. Then again, we're only on (possibly) the 20% of the total episodes. We still have the 80% remaining. A lot can still happen in that 80%, you know.

At least the interaction/rivalry between Hoeru and Fire Candle was something I found fascinating in this episode. You could say that it saved this episode for me. Here's to hoping to see more of that. Forget Kuon. Let him rot for doing that to Hoeru. Now let's see what kind of shenanigans will happen in the next episode.

journal entry #2006

If I'm being honest, I wanted to change the notebook I'm using for journaling. I really can't settle for one, can I? Weird of me. But I don't want to rewrite everything in that new notebook, if even I did choose to have a new one. And I surely don't want to paste it there or tape it, even. That's already a hassle in itself. So yes, I still have a long way to go before I could even finish filling that whole thing up.

I haven't written anything at all today. Yup, I'm a bad person for not showing up to do what I have to do as I writer. Urgh! But maybe I would do that after this. That is, if I'm not distracted by Youtube or Facebook. I really should do something about my Youtube "addiction" or something. I have to write. Let's see if I'd be able to do just that.

I went out to go to the market — twice. The second one was because of my stupidity and forgetfulness. I wasn't even supposed to go out twice, to be honest. But I ended up doing just that. Oh, well. At least I was able to do my task. I think that's a good thing, right? 😊❤️

My second sister is still in the middle of travel but she would be back by tomorrow, if I'm not mistaken. At least that's what she mentioned before she left on Sunday.

I just noticed something. I haven't eaten rice in about three days. Just biscuits, pizza, burger, and bread. Not really a good thing, if you asked me. But how come I didn't notice that before? That's the one thing that bugged me in a way. Oh, well. Maybe my mind was just elsewhere at the time that I don't even care.

Another thing I noticed. Artists here in the Philippines — especially legendary/veteran ones — were dying one by one. Too close to one another. Pilita Corales, Nora Aunor, and even Hajji Alejandro (whom I only know because of some songs). And then, there's the Pope Francis also passing away. What the heck is going on right now?

Wow... That's one heck of a rant right there. In any case, maybe this should be the real end of my entry for tonight. 😊 

when waiting took a weird turn in my writing productivity

Talk about something incredibly annoying today. I mean, I know I'm a patient person --- at least... most of the time. But such a slow service was seriously shaving off what patience I have in me. Gosh!

To know what I was talking about, I went to town to pay for the electric bill. But my goodness! It took me two hours just waiting for my turn to pay. Yes, there were queue numbers. But the service was just so slow, I thought I was about to sleep there. Urgh! Was it supposed to be this slow only because Holy Week was over?

In any case, at least the waiting somehow helped with my writing productivity. I was continuing to write HFLM by adding the narratives and also Seitenger. Yes, a different story to tackle this week. I might not follow the pattern I made last week that I would just write dialogues since I already have an outline for this particular episode of Seitenger. So I could just continue doing the usual on this story.

The waiting also made me watch the first two episodes of Shirohiyo and the 3rd episodes of both "The Brilliant Healer's New Life in the Shadows" and "The Unaware Atelier Master". So let me put my thoughts on each of the anime here.

Shirohiyo Episodes 1-2: I can't believe Ageha (as a 5 years old) had to deal with something as crappy and hateful as his parents, just because he was the product of an unwanted union and near death. Like what the heck? Blaming it all on a child? I wonder how he will approach the situation now that it finally dawned to him just how much his parents never wanted him, though. Both were selfish people that I wanted to strangle, if I can, to be honest. And now, a half-brother appeared in the scene. The brother that --- according to him --- would kill him in the future. Like, are you freaking kidding me? By the way, how did he know that fact? I guess I'm missing something. But I think things would be better for him in the long run, now that his maid, his tutor, and even the goddess were becoming close to him and becoming his confidante, in a way. Maybe I should read the web novel version for me to know the details since I couldn't find the light novel version.

The Brilliant Healer's New Life in the Shadows Episode 3: Does the three leaders of the slum factions really have to fight for Zenos' attention that way? But of course, he would end up using his healing skills and becoming a mediator, at the least. Crazy way to use your healing abilities to stop a fight that had been going on for a long while. And of course, as expected, Krishna has finally appeared. But did they really have to put the cliffhanger of gunning him down like that? Crazy woman, if you ask me.

The Unaware Atelier Master Episode 3-4: As per usual, Kurt is seriously unaware and very much naive. And I also think very much caught up in his past experience of how he was treated in the party befor getting kicked out. He was using way too much comparison with his past experience. Now, the Atelier is about to form. His skills were checked and confirmed. Yikes! But that ninja from the former party was someone I was worried about. What was her goal, anyway? And now she would head to Kurt's hometown? As much as it was a mystery to me, I really want to question her intentions for doing that. I did notice that the characters appearing on the last sequence of the opening credit were getting added in each episode. Now the new party that Kurt joined to was there, as well.

Woah! I guess I went way ahead about this. But I think I'd rather do this, to be honest. Yup, this is better.