The Shadow Of My Heart

For the past years, I've lived my life in pain

That I couldn't bear so easily and plain

And no matter how much I try to walk away

Memories of you and me are making my path gray

I wanted to have a life that's colorful and new

And fulfill a dream that's shining brightly and true

But how will I suppose to have the life I want

If a dark memory in my mind continues to haunt?

You're the only person that hurt me this much

And it lived in a place that I couldn't bear to watch

I wanted this pain inside of me to fade

That your so-called love for me before had made

The day you left me, everything about you created a shadow

That I can never break; that's why it always follows

And no matter how many years will pass by

Everything about you won't help me reach the sky

Your memories seem to have become a chain

That binds me in a world filled with so much pain

I know that wherever I go, you'll be the shadow of my heart

And I can never find a way to rip it completely apart

If Ever A Love Will Come True

Destiny, true love's kiss, and happy ever after

It's always these words when love matters

A chance is what I only want to have

If ever I have the courage to find my one true love

I've lived a life that's gloomy and cold

In my spacious world with no one to hold

It's dull and no surprises to have at all

My floor and walls are now beginning to fall

I knew I've walked for over a mile or two

But I can't really think of what else to do

Until a savior began to block my way

And have his smile brighten up my day

My world shines brightly when he showed up

And he's helping me reach the mountain top

A mountain full of obstacles and pain

That makes me live my life in vain

And I want to thank you for helping me out

Without a feeling of shame and even doubt

And if ever a miracle called love will come true

I'll make sure pain and suffering will never come to you

Close To Your Love

I've always seen and watched you from afar

Like watching and smiling at the shining star

It's been like this ever since I met you

And you never made my day so dull and blue

A smile and laughter can complete my day

It's like watching the lovely sunset by the bay

I can feel the warmth and see new dreams

Being born inside my heart, flowing like streams

But I think my dream might not become real

When many people want your heart for them to steal

I'll never have the chance to show my true feelings

No matter how much I try to become pleasing

No one around us can be a marionette of love

Or even play like Cupid with bow and arrows to have

And I really can't get a little close to you

Even if I have the courage to make it through

But I want to do everything I can with my skills

Because that would give my life a lot of thrills

And that includes making you notice me one bit

To get close to your love is a one sure hit

To The One I'm Waiting For

A gloomy path is what I'm walking for now

Doesn't even know which road will I go somehow

It's been like this ever since you've been gone

And I can't tell when will all of this be over and gone

My life has been like this for a long period of time

And I can't even hear the clocks that always chime

It's because I don't want to know anything anymore

About the life I'm having now that never happened before

But there is one particular thing that I only know

I never had a chance to notice time that runs so slow

Because my heart only desires for one thing

And that's meeting you again all through everything

No matter how long I wait or even how far

Even if I can't fade away my heart's scar

I will keep standing on the place where you left me

For you to be able to return again and gladly see

A smile of happiness will surely shine

In a place beneath the very green pine

This is to the person I've been waiting for

That I know I have loved like never before

Will Of The Sea

For a long time I'm living near the sea

How I wish someone would love me

A person who will be my protector

And somehow will also be my heart's creator

As the waves of the sea keep on tossing
While the boat of the fisherman began crossing

I hear its will that means something

And it could possibly makes me everything

I don't know if I could be the one

The one that will bring you the sun

To enlighten your gloomy, dark face

And will give you all of love's grace

I know the waves of the sea say something

Whatever it is, it could be anything

To hopefully make you love me for me

I hope that it's really the will of the sea

All I Can Remember

Inside my head, there's a nearly fading memory

Of all the past that once happened to me

It's fading slowly as years came rolling by

Like a little bird that is eager to fly

New memories keep on being created and born

While others had disappeared, being blotted and torn

And no matter how much I wanted to recall

My mind can't go up to where it's started to fall

I want to picture everything in my mind

Every memories and scenes that I could able to find

Happiness and sadness, including laughter and cries

It's always these emotions that no one buys

But as these memories slowly fade away

One keeps on standing out as I start my day

It's your face and smile and the way you treated me

That's what my mind more often wanted to see

It's my day with you, that's all I can remember

Starting January and extending till December

And if the wings of my memories had been blown away

My memories with you will surely cling on and stay