Kirari couldn't help but to feel worried about Hiroto. Well, even though he's mean to him sometimes, that doesn't mean that she should not worry about him. After all, he's one of the people who helped him throughout when she entered the entertainment world and became an idol.
"Will he be alright, Seiji-kun?" he asked the blond-haired boy who was also staring at the door where Hiroto left.
Seiji smiled at her, as if assuring her. She didn't get a response from him, though. But she felt that somehow, his smile was enough to know that Hiroto's all right.
She sat on the sofa and took the paper on the table. That paper has her schedule written there for the rest of the day. But somehow, she couldn't concentrate as he was too worried for Hiroto at that moment, in which she found weird.
But then, she tried to shrug it off. She'll worry about him later.
But still, a part of her mind couldn't stop thinking about the guy, even if she's art work. Though she was sure of it now, she couldn't tell him the truth. She couldn't admit him the very feeling that she has for him.
And it's what making it hard for her.
It will always be hard for her if she couldn't admit that she has now fallen in love with him. But what made it hard for her even more was the fact that Hiroto still thinks that she likes Seiji.
It's true, she liked him… but only as a friend now. Her feelings for Hiroto was even deeper than what she had felt for Seiji before. And whether she admits it or not, Hiroto might never ever know what she felt for him because he's insisting that she should be with Seiji.
Was that guy really became oblivious of her feelings for him?
She sighed heavily, which was so unlike her.
Will I be able to let him know my feelings for him?
At that point, her pet Naa-san couldn't help but to worry for his master… and also his best friend ever.
One week later…
Hiroto was still busy practicing along with Seiji. The practice was going well, as usual.
But what really bothered him was the fact that he couldn't decide what song would he sing solo at the night of the concert. He still has one more week to decide before the formal concert but even so, he couldn't decide.
And it what really made him frustrated and hopeless.
During break, he decided to go to the rooftop again to calm his confused mind and think of what song he should sing. He took the MP3 player out of his pocket and he began listening to the songs once again.
He only has to choose one out of 37 songs that he downloaded three weeks ago. He kept on listening to it for the past three weeks but still, he couldn't decide what song he will sing.
As he continued to listen, he never expected someone would come to the rooftop and approached him. He only noticed that person's presence when he was tapped on the shoulder, and in some way, it surprised him.
But he was even more surprised to see the person who did that.
"Kirari! You surprised me. What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be rehearsing for the concert?"
Kirari only smiled at him and then he sat beside him. He was indeed surprised to see Kirari there.
For a minute or so, no one spoke. Both of them somehow just wanted to… be with each other… feel each other's presence. As if it would be enough for them to be beside each other until everything's over.
And he couldn't help but to look at her. But it surprised him to see Kirari's sad face, in which he was not used of. He missed that smile of hers even though she just smiled at him a few minutes ago.
And he couldn't help himself but to ask what troubles her.
"Hey, Kirari… are you alright? You look sad."
Kirari was somehow startled at his question so she put on a forced smile. But he could tell what's a true smile and what's not. And then he saw her nodded as a response to his question. Even though he knew that she's not, he just let her be. It might be something that she doesn't want to talk about.
A few minutes more had passed and no conversation happened between them. He just continued listening to the songs while she just kept quiet, in which Hiroto found out that it was unlikely her.
And after that, Kirari asked him a question.
"Say, Hiroto-kun…" she started.
"Hmm…?"
He heard her sigh and then she continued. "Have you… ever fallen in love with someone?"
He was astounded with that question of hers. And then he looked at her but he saw that her face was buried to her knees.
"What made you asked that question to me, anyway?" And with that, he slapped himself mentally for not answering her question directly. Instead, he asked her a question in return. And it made him a little pissed.
It took a moment before Kirari said something. "It's just out of curiosity." And then she took a deep breath after that. "It's okay if you don't want to answer that. I figured it's something personal to talk about anyway," she said, not looking at him.
He sighed and looked at the blue sky. Somehow, he felt that looking at it gave him a calming effect. At that time, he never knew that Kirari was looking at his face, as if yearning for something from him.
I really couldn't tell him… And then she looked away. But I really wanted to know if he had fallen in love with someone… I guess I'll never be able to know, after all. But despite that, she heard him say something.
"Yeah, I have fallen in love with someone," Hiroto said silently. And Kirari widened her eyes when he said that. But then she held her breath when Hiroto said another as a continuation to what he said. "But that person already loves someone… And I can't beat him for that."
She detected sadness and disappointment in his voice when he said that. She couldn't help but to feel sad, as well.
So he already loves someone, huh? I guess it's already hopeless…
"Say, Kirari—" he paused and then looked to the ground. "—can I ask you something? I-it's kind of important…"
She didn't say anything. She just looked at him intently and somehow, this was felt by Hiroto. And unknowingly, he blushed at the sight of Kirari looking at him like that. Unfortunately, though she saw Hiroto blush, she's kind of oblivious about what was in Hiroto's mind at that time.
"It's okay… I guess…" she answered and looked at the sky after that.
Hiroto said the same thing before he asked her his question.
"If you really love someone, how exactly are you going to let him know that you love him?" Though he was a little surprised at his question, he couldn't take it back. And besides, he wanted to know the answer to it in her perception, as well as his.
For a moment or two, she didn't say anything. Anything at all. And it really made him worried because he thought that he might have said something bad.
He sighed and then he was about to say something when he heard Kirari finally spoke.
"I… I don't know about that. I mean, I do love someone… But that person was somewhat oblivious about it. I don't want to trouble him with that selfish feelings of mine. Even though I really love him… More than I love myself…" Kirari answered in a serious and yet a sad tone. Hiroto could only look at her intently.
She really felt the same way as he is right now. And he never thought that Kirari could bear that feelings up until now. And of course, the same way he was.
He then looked down to the ground. "I see."
Anyway, it's the only thing he could say for now. That's the only thing he could do.
"But still, I won't give up because of that," Kirari then said in a determined tone, cleching her fist as she looked at him.
He was stunned and dumbfounded, to be honest. He continued to look at her. Really, this girl never failed to amaze him. But what she said after that made him even more amazed.
"One way or another, I'll do everything that I can do to make him open his eyes and realize that someone was loving him completely but secretly all this time, even though he never knew that. I want him to realize that someone loves him more than I love myself. I want to open his eyes to the love that's right by his side all along. I wanted him to know that… All of that…" she said in a determined tone then slowly her voice softened when she's saying the last two sentences.
Make him open his eyes… huh? And then he saw Kirari stood up and left him, after she said that she has to continue practicing.
He could only stare at her as she left that place. And after Kirari left completely, he remembered something that she said that struck him.
"I want to open his eyes to the love that's right by his side all along…" And then he happily stood up and jumped. That's it! Now I know what I'm going to sing for the concert!
Without delay, he immediately searched on the music files on his MP3 player. He smiled when he found the song that he was looking for.
This is it! This is what I'm going to sing! Then he looked at the clear blue sky with such a calm and happy face. And after that, he sighed. I hope this will open your eyes, Kirari…
For the next chapter, Hiroto will finally sing the song that he hoped will open Kirari's eyes and most especially, her heart to his love. But how will it end for the two of them? Can he have the love from the girl who changed his life?
Up Next—The Last Chapter: CHAPTER THREE – The Night of Confession
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