The Sunday Currently # 12

So when was the last time I wrote something like this? I can’t remember at all. Urgh! I’ve been busy—or at least my mind was for the past weeks. Yes, I haven’t written a Sunday Currently post for weeks. I don’t want to count because it only irks me. It also reminds me of a lot of things. I couldn’t think properly. A lot had happened and I don’t even want to elaborate that. How did everything goes like this? Honestly speaking, I’ve never felt so useless in my life. It really irks me to the core, yet here I am, I can’t even do anything.

I guess what they said about me was true, after all. Even though I hate to admit it, I really feel that I don’t have the initiative to do something that could really help. I can’t really say that I’m a selfish person since I want to do something that would help my mother in some ways with regards to financial problem we’re facing. But I want to do it using the one thing that really makes me happy, and that’s writing. And yet circumstances don’t even want to help me with it.

In my current situation now, where my father can’t even do anything about fixing my birth certificate’s problem, I really don’t know what to do. I need that fixed birth certificate so I could find a decent job. Most of the companies or even just a simple job these days usually requires birth certicate issued by National Statistics Office (NSO) aside from other requirements. But my birth certificate hasn’t been fixed in a long time. Either my father was really busy or he’d just forgotten about it. I kept reminding him and yet, no results show up. Not all who hires someone for a job would be very understanding about my situation and they would insist on submitting the requirements down to the letter.

So here I am, trying my best to keep writing and submit it to a publishing house to earn. But as you can see, it’s also not that easy. That’s what truly irks me all this time. With so many problems piling up, how am I supposed to help them?

I’d rather not think about that for now. I’d continue writing first before anything else so I could clear my mind for a bit. Hoping that doing so would really help me.

So this Sunday, I’m currently:

READING

English-translated Ghost Hunt light novel. Good thing Baka-Tsuki was able to translate one of my favorite anime’s original light novel. I hope they could translate the third and the last two volumes of the light novel so I could finally read the ending. The anime left a cliffhanger. Or at least that’s what I think.

WRITING

Chapter 4 of my on-going manuscript—the first book of one of the romance series I planned titled “Eirenean Promise” and this book has “You Will Be My Last” as its title. I suffered from SIC3 syndrome (an abbrevation I thought of for “Stuck In Chapter 3”, as I’d like to call it) with this novelette. Not just this one, but also to my other pending manuscripts and it really irks me. Of course, that’s besides writing my 12th entry for Sunday Currently.

LISTENING

To a Chinese song titled “One Persistent Thought” by Hu Ge and Alan Dawa Dolma. Honestly speaking, I’ve been listening to this song nonstop for the past two weeks already. I decided to listen to this while browsing the net and looked at any information with regards to the Chinese drama “Scarlet Heart (Bu Bu Jing Xin)”. I only downloaded it along with other songs in the drama without knowing that one of the singers was Alan. I’m glad it was a ballad song. She became one of my favorite East Asian singers because of listening to “Megumi No Ame (Blessed Rain)” and “Wasurenaide (Don’t Forget)” that she also sang before.

THINKING

Of a way to help. It’s frustrating me and my body won’t even cooperate with me. The same thing goes with my writing.

SMELLING

The cold coffee I’m drinking. I left it to cool again when I was supposed to drink it while it’s still hot.

WISHING

For a good result about the two manuscripts being evaluated by PHR’s editors. I really need the good vibes and good results at this point of time, to be honest.

HOPING

For a miracle to fall into place. But then, if I don’t work on it, I doubt it will ever happen.

WEARING

A black polo shirt that my sister gave to me before and a dark blue velvet pajama.

LOVING

The fact that my mind was truly imaginative to the point where I want to write all of my ideas as soon as I thought about them. Every writer wants that kind of skill, you know. But like I said, I’d rather work on it.

WANTING

To meet Alden and Maine one of these days. I thought about it while watching the old episodes of Kalyeserye. I haven’t watched it in a long time since I decided to get busy with my manuscripts.

NEEDING

A lot of good vibes and energy to write all of the series that I’ve been planning to write for a long time now. And maybe a dose of inspiration? Hehe!

FEELING

Sick. Urgh! This is what I hate when rainy season is about to come. Itchy throat and runny nose for the whole three months? Please don’t let me go through that again.

CLICKING

Through a few episodes of Kalyeserye from Eat Bulaga’s FB page. I really miss watching these guys.

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