So what is this sentence for? A little note to the people who wanted me to apologize. I know. It doesn't sound too good, but I don't want to utter words I couldn't even let out from my mouth. I might have appeared here with this words as a prideful person. But sorry, it's better that I don't say it.
Why am I writing this for?
It happened again. People scolding me for acting not so good and then... they brought it up again. They brought out the fact that I've been nothing but a failure to them. Jobless, dreamless... and useless to all of them. To be honest, I don't even know where my life is heading now that I've turned 28. And perhaps, the realization was the reason why the tears won't stop falling when she was scolding me earlier. I don't have any idea where I am standing at and which path I should take from that spot.
It hurts, you know? It hurts so much that I only noticed that I've somehow gone cold while doing my chores earlier. Lifeless, for the lack of a better word. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if I find myself losing interest in life and living entirely. And you know where that leads, right?
Let's hope it won't actually come to that point at all. Even though those once passing thoughts jad started to enter my mind a lot more frequent because of what happened earlier, let's wish that I won't reach that edge and just jump because nothing ever goes right.
Anyway, it'll be my mother's birthday tomorrow and I don't know what will happen. But I'm truly wishing that it will proceed well for all of us. You can make it happen, right, Lord?
So now, I'll say good night. đ❤️
ăăăăżăȘăă。。。
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