Within A Silent Heart

I've always lived my life the way I wanted to,

but it seems that something's missing in what I do.

There's a missing piece in my life that I need to fill

in order for me to have a life that's complete and real.

Up until now, I've never had a chance to love

no matter how much I try to catch the stars above.

A love that will help me fulfill my greatest dreams

and will give me the strength to cross trials' streams.

As I walk my path, there's an obstacle ahead

and it isn't as easy as a book that I've read.

But you came to my way and crushed it down to bits.

You drove all the obstacles away in scared fleets.

Though you've saved me from the crucial path I walk,

my heart remained silent and couldn't find a way to talk.

It's because of a feeling that you've unknowingly lit

within a silent heart of mine that continuously beat.

I wanted so much to thank you for what you've done.

I even wanted our hearts to unite and become one.

But I'm willing to wait until destiny becomes a part

of a blazing feeling that lies within a silent heart.

An Answered Prayer

Every night, before I go to sleep,

there's one wish that I always keep.

I usually pray for this wish to come true,

but I don't know if I'll see a clue.

How will I know if it was answered?Because every time, I only see things blurred.

So every night, I talk to God through prayer

for me to be able to find an answer.

I only wish you would notice me

even if only for one day for me to see.

To see if you're really a destiny

made for me for eternity.

And one day, I saw you coming near

but I'm not sure if you'll go here.

I'm so shocked that you talked to me.

It's like my prayer had been my key.

God gave me an answered prayer,

but I know I'm just in the first layer.

A layer that connotes to know you more.

As time pass, more layer will open a new door.

Help Me Fall For You

The last time I fell in love,

there was one thing I couldn't have.

It's the courage to say "I love you"

and to prove that I really do.

So now, I'm scared to love again

after years of suffering in pain.

There's no one here to help me through.

So please, help me fall for you.

I'm spending a lot of time

creating letters and poems that rhyme.

I created those to be given to you

when I'm ready to say it to you.

So for now, I'll wait

to readily accept my love life's fate.

I know that as long as I'm with you,

time will come, and I'll fall in love with you.

The Shadow Of My Heart

For the past years, I've lived my life in pain

that I couldn't bear so easily and plain.

No matter how much I try to walk away,

memories of you and me are making my path gray.

I wanted to have a life that's colorful and new

and fulfill a dream that's shining brightly and true.

But how will I suppose to have the life I want

if a dark memory in my mind continues to haunt?

You're the only person that hurt me this much

and it lived in a place that I couldn't bear to watch.

I wanted this pain inside of me to fade

that your so-called love for me before had made.

The day you left me, everything about you created a shadow.

One that I can never break; that's why it always follows.

No matter how many years will pass by,

everything about you won't help me reach the sky.

Your memories seem to have become a chain

that binds me in a world filled with so much pain.

I know that wherever I go, you'll be the shadow of my heart

and I can never find a way to rip it completely apart.

If Ever A Love Will Come True

Destiny, true love's kiss, and happy ever after.

It's always these words when love matters.

A chance is what I only want to have

if ever I have the courage to find my one true love.

I've lived a life that's gloomy and cold

in my spacious world with no one to hold.

It's dull and no surprises to have at all.

My floor and walls are now beginning to fall.

I knew I've walked for over a mile or two,

but I can't really think of what else to do.

Until a savior began to block my way

and have his smile brighten up my day.

My world shines brightly when he showed up

and he's helping me reach the mountain top.

A mountain full of obstacles and pain

that makes me live my life in vain.

I want to thank you for helping me out

without a feeling of shame and even doubt.

If ever a miracle called love will come true,

I'll make sure pain and suffering will never come to you.

Close To Your Love

I've always seen and watched you from afar,

like watching and smiling at the shining star.

It's been like this ever since I met you

and you never made my day so dull and blue.

A smile and laughter can complete my day.

It's like watching the lovely sunset by the bay.

I can feel the warmth and see new dreams

being born inside my heart, flowing like streams.

But I think my dream might not become real

when many people want your heart for them to steal.

I'll never have the chance to show my true feelings

no matter how much I try to become pleasing.

No one around us can be a marionette of love

or even play like Cupid with bow and arrows to have.

I really can't get a little close to you

even if I have the courage to make it through.

But I want to do everything I can with my skills

because that would give my life a lot of thrills.

It includes making you notice me one bit.

To get close to your love is a one sure hit.

To The One I'm Waiting For

A gloomy path is what I'm walking for now.

Doesn't even know which road will I go somehow.

It's been like this ever since you've been gone

and I can't tell when will all of this be over and done.

My life has been like this for a long period of timand I can't even hear the clocks that always chime.

It's because I don't want to know anything anymore

about the life I'm having now that never happened before.

But there is one particular thing that I only know.

I never had a chance to notice time that runs so slow

because my heart only desires for one thing

and that's meeting you again all through everything.

No matter how long I wait or even how far,

even if I can't fade away my heart's scar,

I will keep standing on the place where you left me

for you to be able to return again and gladly see.

A smile of happiness will surely shine

in a place beneath the very green pine.

This is to the person I've been waiting for

that I know I have loved like never before.

Will Of The Sea

For a long time I'm living near the sea,

how I wish someone would love me.

A person who will be my protector

and somehow will also be my heart's creator.

As the waves of the sea keep on tossing

while the boat of the fisherman began crossing,

I hear its will that means something

and it could possibly makes me everything.

I don't know if I could be the one;

the one that will bring you the sun

to enlighten your gloomy, dark face

and will give you all of love's grace.

I know the waves of the sea say something.

Whatever it is, it could be anything.

To hopefully make you love me for me,

I hope that it's really the will of the sea.

All I Can Remember

Inside my head, there's a nearly fading memory

of all the past that once happened to me.

It's fading slowly as years came rolling by,

like a little bird that is eager to fly.

New memories keep on being created and born

while others had disappeared, being blotted and torn.

No matter how much I wanted to recall,

my mind can't go up to where it's started to fall.

I want to picture everything in my mind;

every memories and scenes that I could able to find.

Happiness and sadness, including laughter and cries.

It's always these emotions that no one buys.

But as these memories slowly fade away,

one keeps on standing out as I start my day.

It's your face and smile and the way you treated me.

That's what my mind more often wanted to see.

It's my day with you, that's all I can remember,

starting from January and extending till December.

If the wings of my memories had been blown away,

my memories with you will surely cling on and stay.

The Only Way To Love You

Loving secretly, loving weakly, loving strong,

even if all the things went terribly wrong.

It's always like this when it comes to love.

It's everyone in the world wanted to have.

But one kind of love made someone suffer in pain

and torturing her fragile heart again and again.

It's loving secretly which is a hard thing to do

and no one knows when this love will come true.

Sunny day, rainy day, almost every day,

I stay in a quiet place where I can pray

that somehow, you'll take a glance of me

and talk to me for a while to answer my plea.

Grayish clouds and wind that harshly blows.

It's the kind of world where my life flows.

In your world, it's bright and always keeps on shining

because of the people that keeps you climbing.

But up to now, I'm still waiting in this cold place

where many people can't even recognize my face.

Hiding in your world where I can take a glance of you;

it's the only way I know for me to love you so true.

A Chapter Of My Life

My life is compared to an old, rotten book

that no one dared to take a look.

I remained myself to be kept in the shelf hidden

outside the world where people barely think what's forbidden.

For as long as I can think and remember,

my pages never showed its glow like an ember.

The words and colors began to fade away

until someone like you began to lighten up my day.

Your gentle touch returned my faded colors,

restored the words and opened my closed doors.

Your pen gently swayed on my old, creased paper

like a graceful pirouette done by a ballet dancer.

The day you came, you created a new chapter,

like the one from the novel of an inspired writer.

Every words and details are carefully drawn,

like the dewy grasses of a backyard lawn.

So when my life is over, and I'll be given a chance,

even if it's just a dream that'll easily prance,

if there's a chapter in my book that I would see without strife,

it's when the time you recreated the book of my life.

Out Of The Blue

After a pain, a promise had been made.

For the person you once loved, you'd wish to fade.

But how was it going to happen

if the same feeling had never misshapen?

It's only a little time that had gone by

and somehow, I managed to stop my heart to cry.

But as the sweet, gentle wind began to blow,

a light of hidden love slowly started to glow.

All because I saw a dashing, charming smile

that could surely attract even people in a mile.

A person who showed up from out of the blue

that is ready to charm you so bright and true.

I never thought I would actually meet

a person who I think is never sad for a bit.

A jolly one who just keeps following the flow

of a deep blue water that's running so slow.

His smiles and dimples fade my dark clouds away

whenever he keeps talking to me each coming day.

A feeling sprouted from out of the blue;

hope it will lead to a love that's so true.

A Memory Of December

During the time the cold wind starts blowing,

I couldn't help my tears to stop from falling.

It's not the happy memories that I remember.

Only those that let my heart cry in December.

I couldn't accept that you just left me alone

and I found myself staring at the telephone.

Hoping that you would call me just once

and maybe you'll give me a second chance.

I guess I'm in a deep state of depression

and it's easy to tell with my expression.

Why do I have to suffer this way?

How could you let my fragile heart pay?

My tears are like the falling rain

of pains and aches that are heavy to gain.

I just couldn't let myself suffer

from a battle wherein you're tougher.

So, every time I pick of a memory from December,

I only choose now what are happy to remember.

Because I'll never forget that still, I have friends

who will accompany me till the battle ends.

The Kiss Of New Year

Reunion, laughter, and joyful tears,

even groups who keep drinking beers.

It's a scene everyone wants to look upon

from sunset of New Year's Eve till dawn.

Also, New Year depicts new beginnings,

new hopes, aspirations and yearnings.

Everything's new for the two young hearts

that found each other after years of being apart.

It's their destiny that binds them together

and their hearts that love one another.

Happiness for them is like the beautiful seas

and they want no other for them to be pleased.

As the New Year countdown started with no warning,

they stared at each other with full of meaning.

Because of the times that they had missed,

the lovers welcomed the New Year with a kiss.

For them, that kiss was one of a kind

because love is surely not easy to find.

It's only in your heart where you could be able to see

a love that holds the future's key.

January's Story

It's the month that started the year

and vacation had been drawn near.

A month that will start life again

and have my blessings be poured like rain.

But the story I want to show

is about a love that began to flow.

A love that started by an accidental touching

and destiny that already did its matching.

The field was cold because of the snow

and the time must have moved slow.

But the two of them didn't mind the cold;

didn't even know what destiny has foretold.

Both of them can't say a thing,

not a word until the phone rings.

She realized it was already ten o'clock

and her friend was only waiting for her to knock.

He smiled at her and just said this,

"I'm sorry," then he held her hand and had it kissed.

She was shocked but she managed to smile

because somehow, he made her moment worthwhile.

My Greatest Regret

I know my love from before

helped me open a new door.

A door wherein my wishes were fulfilled

and a new life I'll be able to build.

But time had passed, I don't know why.

Why'd you have to make me cry?

I know I've risked everything for love.

So why'd you let pain I shall have?

Choices for me to pick are already set,

but I didn't know it'll be my greatest regret.

To end our relationship was my last choice

even though I know you were not one of my toys.

I couldn't think of any other way

for me to get rid of this pain away.

I know I've made the wrong decision,

that's why I couldn't think of an acceptable reason.

Is it jealousy? Is it pain?

Why am I standing in the rain?

I can't believe I let myself suffer for long

and I really have to bring it along.

I just can't stand it anymore

and I couldn't take my heart to feel this sore.

Now I feel the rain of aches that makes me wet

because I know the decision I've made was my greatest regret.

Will There Be A Second Chance?

Oh, pain, why can't you let me go?

Why'd you let my heart freeze in the snow?

He's a person I know I should forget

but how come I still feel the regret?

I don't know if there'll be a second time

when you already heard the clock's chime.

Feelings of mine for you that I can't get rid of,

despite the things that you just did.

Each morning, I just want to mourn

ever since this unbearable pain was born.

I'm asking why can't you love me

the way that I really want to be.

I can't say if there will be another chance

to let me be awake from this trance.

I couldn't take the pain anymore

that's slowly devouring my heart's core.

I really want to let my feelings prance

just to be able to have a second chance

because when the day I'd have such a thing,

it's when the day winter turned to spring.

Approved Manuscript # 1: Charming A Silent Heart

Title: Charming A Silent Heart (tentative title)
Date Approved: October 22, 2014

Actually, noong una kong mabasa ang e-mail sa akin about the feedback of this manuscript, hindi ko alam kung paano ko ide-describe ang nararamdaman ko. I was… neutral at the time. Oo, siguro. Napangiti ako. Pero deep inside, hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili ko kung ano ba ang dapat na maramdaman ko. It’s either I felt numb for waiting or I felt numb because I’m too happy and I can’t even release it. Basta, ang gulo.