Tuesday, March 10, 2020

journal entry #195

Another day, another chance, another batch of surprises for me. I'm trying to be positive but it still gets me. So sorry if this entry might come out short again. I just don't want to fill my journal with too much negativity as much as I can.

Anyway, my bank account closed. My fault because I haven't deposited anything there in, I think, 3 months. For someone who doesn't even work to have a stable source of income, I guess it's inevitable that it was closed. The only thing that bothers me until now is that I might hear an earful from my father about this. I don't need any scolding that can affect me negatively, that's why I'm doing the best I can to remove any negative thoughts relating to that from my head. I have to.

But you know what? I realized something while I was doing my nightly ritual earlier. This year, it seems that I've lost things that has my father's involvement in it. The smartphone that I lost was something my father bought. And now, my bank account that closed was something that I requested him to help me with before.

So my question now is... Why?

I think I'll end this entry here. I could continue with the imaginative story I placed on my journal next time. For now, it's time to say good night. 😊❤️

おやすみăȘさい。

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