What time do you enjoy the most around people?

At least... when I truly want to share my excitement to people. Other than that, I'm pretty much a closed off person.

Yup, I know. Definitely boring.

But I truly enjoy being with people when I'm comfortable with them. That means I have to get to know them first before anything else. And it doesn't even happen that much.

I'm not the most sociable person you'll meet. So the only time I enjoy the most around people is when I want to hang out with them and feel comfortable and free in some sense.

At times, communicating with someone ー even with a stranger ー can make me feel that way, even though that feels a little weird.

So since posting my thoughts about Encantadia being my inspiration to write in fantasy genre and about @animefics569's Shining Star being her passion project, I recalled the stories I've written since college that I would consider my passion project. But I only recalled three—all of which remained unfinished since real life interfered.

⚜️RAINBOW KNIGHTS was actually formed when I was watching Pretear, Magic Knights Rayearth, Wedding Peach, Sailor Moon (heavily inspired to this), Magical Girl Lyrical Nanoha, Cosmopolitan Prayers, & Cardcaptor Sakura. Yes, all magical girl/mahou shoujo themed animes that I've watched since I was a child. Oh, right. I should also add the comics I've read titled W.I.T.C.H. I haven't actually mentioned even on my blog but this story was actually one of the basis of my MMORPG conceptualization which was my project in college. I was able to write this story until the third Rainbow Knight was awakened. But I lost the handwritten copy of the story, so I wasn't able to continue writing this.

⚜️A LOVE WORTH AN ETERNITY was the longer (& possibly more romantic) version of two Filipino romance stories I wrote when I was in college titled "Till Beyond Eternity" and "I'll Hold On To You". And yes, the story was something I ended up writing as I was thinking of my unrequited first love when I was in high school. So this story was one of those I really consider to be the closest to my heart.

⚜️FLOWER HEARTS CHRONICLES wasn't really the title of this story largely inspired by my favorite TV "fantaserye" (fantasy series) titled "Encantadia". Now that I recalled it, it doesn't even have a proper title—just the story & the plot. In fact, I recalled that I wrote this story in narrative form—just narration, no dialogues at all. For real. I decided to revive this story after watching episodes of Encantadia (both the 2005 & the 2016 versions) on Youtube. This time, the characters finally have visual inspirations. The big difference of this story from the original version, however, is that the names of the characters & the places will be East Asian-inspired, mainly Japanese & slightly Korean & Chinese.

Write a letter to your favorite internet friend.

To Sharmyn (@slightstories on Instagram),

Okay. You're the first person I thought of as soon as this prompt came out. Only because you're the first internet friend that I have. A lot of things changed in my life as soon as we met online, believe it or not. Or at least, some things about me had changed. If I'm going to be honest, I wasn't at all confident with all the stories I post online, especially in Wattpad. Until now, it still feels that way. But ever since getting to know you online, being friends with you on Wattpad and Facebook, I've started feeling that I'm on the right track when it comes to my writings. It's embarrassing to say that I can't recall the first time we've started communicating online. Nevertheless, I'm still glad that I got to know you. I'm still inclined on doing that long planned collaboration with you and if fate would actually allow it to happen, I truly wanted to meet you in person. Who knows, right?

I may not be active on Wattpad and Facebook these days (or months). But please know that I still haven't forgotten you. We might not be communicating too much right now, but realize that I'm still here. I'm currently in the midst of a "deep contemplation" on what I truly want to do with my life right now ー aside from writing, of course. I hope you realize a lot of your life purpose, too. I truly pray that for you.

Thank you for being a good friend, regardless of our geographical distance.

Your online friend,

Florence Joyce

🔅🔅🔅

Update: 9/21/20

Here are the exchange of comments (in Tagalog, of course) between me and that particular online friendafter she read this.

Describe one of the best days of your life.

You mean, besides graduating?

Having my manuscripts get approved and published.

It feels like everything fell into place after a long time of praying and waiting and wishing and wanting it to happen and all that. That's basically the main feeling.

The crying thing I did the moment they all happened still flashed in my mind as I recall them now. It was crazy. But I love the feeling of seeing something special gets fulfilled right in front of me. And I want to feel that again.

I am doing my best to relive that feeling once again. For now, the steps I'm taking are quite small. At times, I couldn't take any step at all. And yet, I aim to do more and that's what I'm going to do.

Relationship Described: Raisaki Amuro and Tennouji Helen

The act of saving someone's life could go a long way, at least on this case. But it wasn't just for that reason alone that Amuro made an oath to be there for Helen and be her combat partner. He made it his duty to protect her that at times, Shuichi found it quite unbelievable. That sense of duty strengthened over time when a certain truth revealed itself that concerned his partner and his rival/friend. He wanted to help her fulfill her mission till the very end and he was willing to risk his life in order to do so. Whatever it takes, he would be willing to show to her, to himself, and everyone else that he has the power to stop the tragic fate awating Helen.

What's the best dream you can remember?

Best dream? Wow, this is going to be hard. I don't usually recall my dreams. Those that I do remember turned out to be scary and weird, for the lack of a better word. I posted about those "weird" dreams before on my blog and until now, I still can't figure out their meanings.

I would say seeing celebrities in my dreams can be considered as best for me. I rarely dream of celebrities, so yeah. I guess this is my reason to consider it as best. And by far, I've only dreamed of celebrities twice ー at least those that I can recall even after I woke up.

I've actually dreamed of Japanese actors Nakao Masaki and Tateishi Haruka actually getting married. I saw a wedding with them in it on a meadow with a big boulder, for some weird reason.

And then there's Jungkook and Jin from BTS on a different dream this time. I couldn't recall the scenario in which these two appeared, but there was an eclipse there and a wild west sort of setting there. I'm not sure why I dreamed of them with that setting, though.

Weird... but I would truly say that they are some of the best dreams I've had in a long while. And yes, these are two of the dreams that I got to record on my dream journal because I want to figure out their meanings.

Maybe in time, I will.

3 things which have made you jump for joy.

I'm going to rake my mind to actually find some definite answers for this one. Though I'm known to be someone who's easy to please (at least, most of the time), I can't remember a lot of things that would actually make me jump for joy. But I'm pretty sure there are things related to this. I just need to truly give it more thinking than I ever did before.

Three things, huh? Let's see...

⚜️I do remember getting ecstatic during the time I had my first approved manuscript. It was a dream come true for me. I even remember crying tears of joy because of that. At the time, I said, "Is this for real?" All those times I truly adored writing, crafting words to form stories, it all paid off. Of course, I knew I still have a long way to go. But I achieved one special thing. I felt joyful knowing that.

⚜️Books. Well, at the moment, I'm a book hoarder ー at least, before the quarantine started. It makes me happy being able to buy books, especially those that I like and on sale at the same time. Yes, I read them ー but only when I truly want to relax my brain from any other thoughts that bother me too much. Seeing those books on my shelf gives me a sense of calmness that, at the moment, I can't explain.

⚜️Walking? Yes, I guess I could add this here as one of the three things that made me joyful. Especially when it's windy or the weather is cool, I really love that. It brings me to a calm state just by doing that. Like I'm free, for some reason. You know, walking aimlessly and just let my feet lead the way... I love that and the process of just walking does bring me joy (even though I don't jump for joy since that would feel weird).

What's so hard about dating you?

Dating? Are you kidding me? For someone who's NBSB (no boyfriend since birth), dating is the last thing that would enter my mind. Now tell me why in the world did I get this question? I could've just groaned and throw this question away as soon as I saw it. It's a frustrating question to get and to answer on my part, to be honest. Then again, I chose this and I have to do my best to answer this. No other way. Weird as it may sound, I'll just get on with it.

I'm a person that's sort of kept to myself. Not to mention, I hide the fact that I get jealous easily, though it's not obvious. As much as possible, I'd like to keep it to myself. On my end, that's a bad thing. It happens when I'm still with my family. I have this feeling that it's going to happen to my future significant other. And it scares me in a certain level that it's going to happen for real. Another would be the feeling of being clingy. I don't know why I have that feeling. Third would be the knowledge that because I haven't dated anyone before, I might be truly clueless about what to do. And it might end up boring or completely meaningless.

As of now, I can only think of those reasons. I could come up with more, but I don't want that to affect me in any other way in the future.

The people you admire and why.

Why can't I come up with a solid answer on this one? It's kind of frustrating me, if I'm going to be honest. I know I admire a lot of people ー celebrities, even. But now that I'm thinking about it, why can't I place their names here? I don't know if I should be glad or frustrated with that thought.

Okay, let me do some thinking for a moment...

...and I'm done. Weird.

One of those people I admire would be Alden Richards.

True, he caught my attention because of his good looks first. But only when I started watching Kalyeserye that I got to know more about him and his personality. Crazy enough, even when the AlDub pairing sort of drifted away from each other, I still admire him in so many ways.

The second and possibly the last (for now) on the list would be BTS.

Wait, should I have stated it as second to eighth in the list? 😝 Sorry. But yeah, I do admire these guys even though I've only done so quite late. Not to mention, my youngest sister was the one who suggested them and their songs to me. Specifically, I've only done so this year. I couldn't list all the reasons why I admire these guys, but they gave me a lot of inspiration. One day, I'd do what I can to actually meet them. Who knows? We'll see.

I could've put myself in the list. But at the moment, I'm in the process of finding myself. Discovering more about the things that I'm capable of doing and the traits that I didn't know I have. Probably soon...

Relationship Described: Hoshiyama Itsuki and Tennouji Helen

Since the first day Helen arrived at the Mizuhashi mansion, Itsuki woud openly show his distaste towards her that his sister couldn't help noticing. He didn't know the reason why he was like that to her at first. But Itsuki was aware it wasn't something close to hate. That is, until he finally awakened his own Elemental Guide and earned its trust that he got to figure out the answer that had eluded him. As for Helen, she was playing it cool even when Itsuki would blatantly point out his distaste towards her. But even so, there were hints that she was somehow connected to something related to the Vessel of the Heavenly Land Spirit Guardian's Powers. That connection became even apparent because of the truth revealed with regards to their common point ー Hoshiyama Erika.