So when was the last time I wrote something like this? I can’t remember at all. Urgh! I’ve been busy—or at least my mind was for the past weeks. Yes, I haven’t written a Sunday Currently post for weeks. I don’t want to count because it only irks me. It also reminds me of a lot of things. I couldn’t think properly. A lot had happened and I don’t even want to elaborate that. How did everything goes like this? Honestly speaking, I’ve never felt so useless in my life. It really irks me to the core, yet here I am, I can’t even do anything.
I guess what they said about me was true, after all. Even though I hate to admit it, I really feel that I don’t have the initiative to do something that could really help. I can’t really say that I’m a selfish person since I want to do something that would help my mother in some ways with regards to financial problem we’re facing. But I want to do it using the one thing that really makes me happy, and that’s writing. And yet circumstances don’t even want to help me with it.
In my current situation now, where my father can’t even do anything about fixing my birth certificate’s problem, I really don’t know what to do. I need that fixed birth certificate so I could find a decent job. Most of the companies or even just a simple job these days usually requires birth certicate issued by National Statistics Office (NSO) aside from other requirements. But my birth certificate hasn’t been fixed in a long time. Either my father was really busy or he’d just forgotten about it. I kept reminding him and yet, no results show up. Not all who hires someone for a job would be very understanding about my situation and they would insist on submitting the requirements down to the letter.