journal entry #81

Yup. I'm still up and I know I missed another day of writing here. Things got really busy yesterday because of food preparations for my mother's birthday celebration. Yes, it was my mother's birthday yesterday. And I got tired to even write anything when night came, so I ended up sleeping instead.

Right now, as I write this, I'm up because it's Sunday. And this day of the week, I would always had to stay up late to finish a task. So yes, I'll try my best to stay up until it's done.

Other things that happened today:

• Still watched other episodes of George To The Rescue.
• I finally found a subbed version of an episode of I Can See Your Voice S5 — the Korean version of the show, by the way. The episode I was talking about was when Sefy Francisco participated in the contest.
• Currently typing down the 44th chapter of a Yu Yu Hakusho fanfic so I could proceed to finally completing the whole story. I think it's about time.
• My first sister had actually made her own milk tea. Here in our house. I liked the taste when I had some. It's not that sweet, unlike those that I had previously. But I'm still not a lover of milk teas.

So there you go. It's a bit disappointing that I might be able to keep my streak in all of my language learning apps. But I'll keep up. For now, I'll end this entry right here.

Good night. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。。。

journal entry #80

Don't make me say something that's not even going to come out as sincere as you want it to be.

So what is this sentence for? A little note to the people who wanted me to apologize. I know. It doesn't sound too good, but I don't want to utter words I couldn't even let out from my mouth. I might have appeared here with this words as a prideful person. But sorry, it's better that I don't say it.

Why am I writing this for?

It happened again. People scolding me for acting not so good and then... they brought it up again. They brought out the fact that I've been nothing but a failure to them. Jobless, dreamless... and useless to all of them. To be honest, I don't even know where my life is heading now that I've turned 28. And perhaps, the realization was the reason why the tears won't stop falling when she was scolding me earlier. I don't have any idea where I am standing at and which path I should take from that spot.

It hurts, you know? It hurts so much that I only noticed that I've somehow gone cold while doing my chores earlier. Lifeless, for the lack of a better word. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if I find myself losing interest in life and living entirely. And you know where that leads, right?

Let's hope it won't actually come to that point at all. Even though those once passing thoughts jad started to enter my mind a lot more frequent because of what happened earlier, let's wish that I won't reach that edge and just jump because nothing ever goes right.

Anyway, it'll be my mother's birthday tomorrow and I don't know what will happen. But I'm truly wishing that it will proceed well for all of us. You can make it happen, right, Lord?

So now, I'll say good night. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。。。

the last sky of the earth 90 - knight's scene: valley

Kung nakikita lang siguro siya ngayon ni Chizue, baka isang malakas na sapak ang inabot niya sa babaeng iyon. Pero sa mga sandaling iyon, hindi na inisip iyon ni Raiden.

Maraming tanong ang patuloy na nagsusulputan sa isip ni Raiden habang patagong pinagmamasdan ang magkasamang sina Rin at Seiichi. May mahigit dalawang oras din niyang sinubaybayan ang dalawang iyon mula nang makita niya ang mga ito na sabay lumabas ng campus grounds.

Mukhang tama nga si Chizue sa maraming bagay, lalo na kung tungkol sa dalawang taong sinusundan niya. Seiichi and Rin's connection to each other was something he could not yet fathom at the moment. The same way that Rin's life and Seiichi's reasons for approaching her became unfathomable for him.

"Ano ba 'tong kalokohan na naman ang naisipan kong gawin ngayon?" tanging nasabi ni Raiden sa kanyang sarili at huminga nang malalim.

journal entry #78

>> Weird... I'm starting to have dreams these past few nights. And some on an afternoon nap that I don't usually get since I was busy doing something else. I don't usually dream that much — except daydreaming. I do that a lot.

>> The only reason I got to go out of the house and go to town was for me to buy two kilos of lansones for my mom who was really addicted to it. Seriously, I can't believe she could finish eating that much lansones in one sitting.

>> Most of my afternoon was spent watching episodes of a home renovation show called George To The Rescue. A lot of them had really inspiring stories — and really surprising renovation results. But I couldn't help thinking that it will suffer the same fate as that of the people that another home renovation show I've watched a long time ago. I'm not sure if the fact was right when I read it, though. But let's just hope not.

So that's how my day has been so far. And I think I'll do this kind of journal writing starting tonight.

おやすみなさい。。。😊❤️

Here's another one, this time combining two prompts that I missed.

Day 22: Two truths and a lie - Spoiler version → Which is which? I'll let the readers figure it out.

1. Ralnor finally gaining the power of the Four Colored Flames that no one in his faction had ever achieved.
2. Renna will end up unintentionally killing someone close to her because of her rage over the deaths of her family.
3. Elyon inheriting one of the five mystical blades created by the ancient Power Casters who were now figures of worship in the Cloud Dimension.

Day 23: National Bisexuality Day - any

representation in your WIP? → Now this part, I'm still trying to figure it out since, as I mentioned, I haven't reached half of the story. But I guess we'll get there.

journal entry #76

The sun came out! Finally — after a few days of non-stop rain. I only have the storm to blame for that. Anyway, I still couldn't stop my hand from shaking ever slightly. I think it hit the floor from when my mom and I fell because I was trying to remain holding her and supporting her weight when she wasn't feeling well and was about to faint. In the end, my hand couldn't support her weight and we both fell on the floor.

At the moment, she was slightly feeling better. At least, I think she was feeling better. That was a really scary moment, seriously. Until now, as I was writing this, my hand was still feeling strained and tired from what happened.

I got up early today — or at least they made me to. But that was because I had to go to the market to buy ingredients for the food to be prepared for a birthday celebration. And yes, there was a cake. I thought that was the end of it, until my sister bought a gallon and a pint of ice cream. But maybe I'll get to eat sweets by tomorrow. Let's see.

Anyway, it's later and I have to sleep now since muscle strain is really getting to me and my eyes still hurts from all the crying I did for watching the watching the videos of FOX5 Surprise Squad. Seriously, I had no idea what made me decide to watch those videos all of a sudden.

So... good night. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。。。

journal entry #75

Missed one day again. I was supposed to write on my journal yesterday but I never got to, even though I stayed up late watching more documentaries about mummies. I don't know why I've been watching such documentaries, though. Oh, right. I also stayed up late because of a usual biweekly night task.

I haven't posted anything for both the 18th and the 19th day of the Instagram writing challenges I've participated to. Well, I've actually skipped some of them, only because I don't know what to post to those prompts. And there's also procrastination to blame for that.

It rained the whole day — again. And they said it's because of another storm. I mean, seriously? It's already halfway in September. Rainy season was supposed to be over. Then again, there's climate change — something that people really need to pay close attention to.

Alright. At the moment, I need to think of a tagline for Francis' story, which I'm not really good at. But I'll try since it's one of the prompts for the IG writing challenges I've joined to.

So I guess I should end this entry here for now. Time for me to say good night. おやすみなさい。。。😊❤️

the last sky of the earth 89 - sunset moment

Gusto nang isisi ni Kourin sa dami ng mga iniisip niya ang dahilan kung bakit natagpuan na naman niya ang sarili na naglalakad na tila walang tiyak na direksyon ng mga sandaling iyon. Pero hindi naman siya nag-aalala na baka mapahamak dahil alam niyang may ilan silang mga tauhan na sumusunod sa kanya, kahit na hindi naman madaling makita kung nasaan ang mga ito.

Until she found herself heading towards the park kung saan unang beses niyang nakita si Seiichi after two years. Sa lugar kung saan nagtama ang kanilang mga mata. Napangiti siya nang mapakla nang maalala iyon. Kung tulad pa siguro noon ang sitwasyon at walang pag-atakeng naganap para mabago ang buhay niya, matutuwa siya nang husto sa pagdating nito at walang pasubaling yayakapin niya nang mahigpit ang binata. It wasn't like her to be able to think of such things, but her feelings would surely dictate her to do so.

Bata man siyang maituturing two years ago, pero hindi nangangahulugang hindi niya alam kung ano ang tunay na nararamdaman niya. Panahon at pagkakataon lang ang nagsilbing sagabal sa kanya kaya hindi niya nagawang sabihin ang totoo kay Seiichi.

Pero ngayon, kasama na ang naging desisyon niya na baguhin ang kanyang pangalan sa mga sagabal para maiparating sa binata ang totoong damdamin niya. Hindi niya napigilang mapaiyak sa mga isiping iyon. Hindi na nga siguro niya magagawang palayain ang nararamdaman niya para kay Seiichi. Lumalala na ang labang kinahaharap nilang mga miyembro ng Shrouded Flowers. Hindi na niya maigagarantiya ang kaligtasan nito kapag nanatili pa ito sa tabi niya, kahit na ibang katauhan na ang gamit niya.

WIP's most likely to succeed

Elred and Lyra were both aiming to reach one thing—to end the curse that could kill them in an instant. When the others discovered this, they made it a part of their great mission to help these two in their quest. With that, and their desire to live longer than what the curse in their bodies had intended them to live, more or less, they'll find it really fulfilling if the goal they wanted to reach for a long time would be finally within their reach.

WIP's most artistic.

Arasne, despite being an android, had proven herself to be such an artistic being. Even if most of her daydreams and thoughts spawned from her creator's unfulfilled dreams, she used it to conjure ideas after ideas that helped her and her Cloudbreaker teammates in their endeavours.

WIP's class clown.

Navarre wasn't the trickster of the recruited Cloudbreakers just for the heck of it. He would make everyone smile and laugh as best as he could, soon earning him their affection despite their differences. But at one point, someone from the team actually noticed that this powerful mechanical lifeform was trying his best to make everyone happy in order to hide the frustration he had been dealing with because of his own faction forbidding him to fully use his true powers as a Power Caster.

Contemplations Not Written On Journal # 1

So instead of writing an entry on my journal like the usual, I decided to do it here since my head is aching and I can't write anything at this point. Not to mention that I'm already sleepy and typing this down will be my last task for the night (or midnight since it's 12:02 AM here already).

Though I have to be honest, I have no idea what to type down here. I'm basically clueless since nothing much had happened today—at least if it's about my day. Or should I consider going out of the house and heading to town for the first time in a while as something different? Well, considering the weeks of rainfall even though it's September already, going out of the house after a while of not doing so is indeed something different.

At the moment, my head and my arm is aching while listening to a Japanese songs playlist. In particular, it's titled 『恵みの雨』 by Alan Dawa Dolma. And speaking of Japanese, I'm not sure if it's a good idea installing 4 language learning apps on my phone. But for some reason, I really want to up my game in learning the Japanese language. Well, let's see if it will pay off, as long as I keep practicing using these apps.

What else? Oh, at the moment, I'm thinking of which story between Hope From Love's Memories and Shrouded Flowers should I focus on writing next. And I mean I have to stick to that story until it's finished.

Hmm...

Anyway, I'll end this entry here for now since my head really aches and that means it's time for me to sleep. Good night...

おやすみなさい。。。

잘 자요...

Mid-month check in.

I'm still forming more scenarios that I post here in a form of photo edits between two characters. But it's just that. Scenarios. I haven't used any of the scenarios in the story the time I started writing this story on paper and haven't had a chance to post it online just yet. But I want to proceed pass through that and I'll do my best for that to happen. By the way, this photo edit would be added as one of the scenarios for the story, possibly about one of the battles that Miho and Hatsue would encounter in Cloud Dimension.

Friday the 13th! Does your MCs have any bad luck?

Yup, I know. I deliberately missed Day 12. But I have my reasons. For now, here's my Day 13 post and it's about bad luck. If I were to base it on Hatsue and Miho's expressions here, they still don't know if they have one, anyway. Sure, they had some miss on getting their own streak of luck from time to time, but there wasn't any worse ones. Both of them are positive people and it reflected on their beliefs and actions. And they both knew that having faith and hope can do its wonders to counter bad luck.

journal entry #71

I don't know what to write in my journal, other than the fact that I'm already sleepy. But then again, I don't want to miss another day of writing here. And I think it's going to be a short entry, since I don't have any idea on what to talk about.

I'm still continuing to participate in several writing-related hashtag challenge on IG. But just like in my journal, I'm sure I'm going to miss some days since I couldn't think of what to post.

I'm really sleepy, so I'll end this entry here. Good night. 😊❤️

the last sky of the earth 88 - other one who knew

ISA lang talaga ang masasabi ni Kourin.

Hindi na siya patatahimikin pa ng mga nakita niya sa genealogy book ng Shinomiya clan. Iyon pa naman ang 'di maganda kapag talagang umiral ang curiosity niya. Bakit nga ba ngayon lang niya nagawang pagtuunan ng pansin ang anumang sikretong meron ang pamilya niya?

Ngayon ay unti-unting nakikita ni Kourin ang klase ng proteksyong ibinigay sa kanya ni Hitoshi sa loob ng mahabang panahon. She really was a pampered princess. But that was back then.

Iba na ang Kourin na bumungad sa lahat pagkatapos ng mga nangyari.

Military in your WIP!

The closest we'll ever get for the Cloud Dimension's military force would be the 12 Cloudbreakers recruited and personally handpicked by Zelross in an attempt to finally end the dispute of all 12 Power Caster factions. Upon the arrival of Miho and Hatsue as the prophecied Daughters of Light, this team will be the dimension's final hope to achieve peace.

#MoodboardMonday!

My Monday was filled with nothing but rain—for real. It didn't even stop falling for a minute or so. They just kept on falling. Anyway, with that, I ended up thinking of scenes about rain involving Miho and Hatsue with their respective significant others that they inadvertently left on Earth because of them being chosen to save the Cloud Dimension.

Favorite dark and mysterious characters?

I'm choosing two for this one, both of which had tried to kill Miho and Hatsue in several occasions. But both girls noticed something peculiar about these warriors that tried to kill them. Anyway, I'm choosing Arcail (Itou Asahi) and Yaron (Ozawa Ryota) as my favorites. The peculiarity that the Daughters of Light noticed about these two is actually one reason why they are my favorite mysterious characters. Not entirely dark, but the fact that they were after Miho and Hatsune was what made them dangerous in more ways than one. But each of them seemed to have been holding an item, each were representing something important from the past they've chosen to forget all this time.

Character Q & A Day One

What are your initial thoughts upon realizing that you two were prophecied to become the savior of a world you never knew existing?

🦋HATSUE: My head is still spinning from all the information I received upon arriving to this... place. But knowing that I actually possess a power that they say could save this world, it makes me want to ask my parents about the truth behind it. From the start, I had this inkling that they were hiding something from me. And now, I think it has something to do with me being a so-called Daughter of Light.

🦋MIHO: I'm trying to think as rationally as I can. But every feeling I've had since arriving here only made me realize that this is real. Deadly real. And if Hatsue and I are not going to be careful, even if we're the ones they call "The Daughters of Light", then we'll end up losing our lives here before we could even do something to help the Power Casters liberate their world.

Last book that ripped your heart out.

Most of the books I've read recently were light-hearted or heart-stopping, to say the least. But not enough to make me feel as if my heart was ripped out. And by far, the only book that I remember doing this to me was the classic Nicholas Sparks novel—"A Walk To Remember". And with that, I had a feeling that I'd be incorporating a particular tear-jerker scene from this book to the story of Renna and her involvement with two skilled Power Casters Garion and Elorshin who knew about her deadly mission and her tragic fate.

Insert yourself into your WIP. Where do you fit?

I could see myself in the story of DCG as a wanderer, a traveler in the Cloud Dimension proficient in archery. And this wanderer will remain nameless throughout the story. But even so, she will have an influence to the prophecied girls' choices with regards to their destiny as the savior of the Power Casters to end the war.

(National Wildlife Day) Wild things in your WIP.

I'm late for Day 4 but I'm still posting this. The creatures in the Cloud Dimension are pretty much the same as that on Earth, with a few differences, of course. The notable ones were:

⚜️DRAGON - one of the rarest creatures found in the Dimension together with phoenixes. This creature was most commonly associated with the last Purple Sound Caster, the dragon-like Zelross.

⚜️ARMORED BEAR - only a few of this creature remained loyal to serving the Power Casters truly dedicated to their duties. One of those few had sworn allegiance to one of the deadliest Power Casters, Renna.

⚜️GRIFFIN - Most of them lived in the mountains, in which one was the place where Elyon trained his swordsmanship skills. During his training, he was able to befriend some of them and one even decided to serve Elyon in his battles.

⚜️PEGASUS - One of possibly the gentlest creatures of the wild that stayed out of everyone's sight for a long time. But once someone proved his/her worth to be its companion, its loyalty will remain to that person in its lifetime. By far, only the aphonic Power Caster Neia was able to do so after her brother's murder.

⚜️WOLF - Commonly called the creatures of the moon, this designation was one of the reasons why they follow orders and requests from Power Casters given the power to manipulate one of the mystical powers of this dimension. And being a wolf-man, Goren was able to do so easily.

MCs' favorite book/story

Though Japanese, both Hatsue and Miho aren't that ignorant in some of the international books/novels published in their times. In particular, Hatsue has a penchant for angel/demon-themed stories. Her favorite would have been "The Mortal Instruments" series. As for Miho, her interest in History subject has influenced her choices of novels to read. Thus, her favorite would have been "The Great Library" series.

(Back to school) MCs' favorite subject

In "Dimensional Cloud Guardians", I originally wanted to write the story from multiple POVs if I were to base it on the scenarios I posted here. That is, until I decided to add two characters from another world—specifically, the mortal world where these girls reside. So to cut the story short, the story will only be told in Miho and Hatsue's POVs. Still thinking if I should do it in 1st or 3rd person POV.

Anyway, Miho Takahata had always been fascinated in History while Hatsue Funai wouldn't mind having longer classes when it comes to Literature. Not knowing that their fascination in these subjects would provide help for their journey when they ended up in Cloud Dimension all of a sudden.

Goals for the month?

Drafting the plot for DCG is something I've been doing for about a year and a half already. So with this challenge, I want to actually start writing this and get done with at least half of the story just before the month ends.

This collage is something I wanted to show about the characters that will appear on the first chapter of the story. Two were human girls prophecied to change the fate of a world in a brink of another devastating war and the other two were beings called the Power Casters residing in a realm called the Cloud Dimension.