journal entry #100

My 100th journal entry! I can't believe I've written this many journal entries within the year. Yes, I know I've missed several days, but still. I can't believe I've written a lot of nonsense rants about how boring my life had been. Of course, there were times that it wasn't just rants, but also stories that I really wanted to talk about. And no, I wasn't just talking about my written stories, but also stories I found on the internet or even social media that I found interesting and intriguing, at the very least. I mean, seriously. Even when I was a student, I've never done that.

And because of that, I couldn't help asking why I've never written journal entries during those times. Yes, I did write some during high school. But not as almost consistent as the ones I did this year. Did I have a lot in my mind now that I decided to blurt it all out here, to write it here so that I could actually release it in some ways? At this point, I can't really provide an answer to that. Maybe the thoughts hovering in my mind were already too much for me to handle that I ended up using my journal notebook as an outlet instead of talking to someone. I wasn't really close to anyone in my family, to be honest. Sure, I could have some fun and have a few heart-to-heart talks with them. But not all the time. I couldn't do it. Yes, I figured that it was a selfish thought. And I'd like to let it stay that way. I'd rather let it all out in my journal.

Anyway, I've finally opened the 4th episode of A3!'s main story, which was about the formation of the Winter Troupe. That means, I've reached Rank 45. I guess I got obssessed with playing the game, huh? This was my 3rd day playing it after the reset and I've reached this far. I still can't believe it. And because of that, my writer mind started conjuring stories to some of the characters in the game. Not like I could actually stop my mind about it, right? But I guess that'd really a part of me. I just hope my future boyfriend (or even future husband) would understand this part of me. That is, if ever I would actually find one.

Who knows? We'll see.

Oh, yeah. One other thing.

I've started writing one part of TLSOTE again. Hopefully, I'd be able to finish writing it tomorrow and post it within the same day. I mean, come on! I really need to finish writing this completely. It will turn five years next month and I haven't even written half of it. Seriously!

Okay, I think this is enough. Man, I can't believe my 100th entry is 3 pages long. Well, I think that's still a good thing. So let's aim for another 100 journal entries. Okay?

Good night. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。。。