journal entry #92

For some reason, my muscles ache more than usual today. Okay, I know I walked from home to town (which is a usual thing for me to do). But my aching muscles today wasn't something I'd usually feel, if I say so myself.

Anyway, I'll be listing boring things (or perhaps even complaints) once again here. Bear with me, okay?

• Went out to see my father. A usual once a week thing to do, by the way, ever since my parents separated. We didn't eat outside since my sister and I already ate rice for breakfast that time and I guess my father didn't want to eat anything for some reason. What we did next? Head to the grocery.
• There was something about that grocery part that made me down again. I admit I forgot to get laundry soap, Zonrox, and fabric conditioner because my mind was a mess at that time. And I'm not even sure if I'm allowed to get any, considering the fact that my sisters were already getting their own stuffs to buy (and some were expensive, at that). And then here comes my mom, reprimanding me for actually forgetting it. The way she actually said it was condescending for me and I didn't like it at all. It gave me more negative thoughts and feelings than I could actually handle. In fact, I tweeted about it just as I was contemplating on it. It's better that I let it out that way, right? Or not.
• My sister wasn't sleeping here in our house tonight. My second sister, to be exact. Well, she kept on saying that she's an adult already so I had nothing to say about that. As for me, I'm an adult whose mind is either regressing or possibly heading to Alzheimer's. I don't know. I just had that feeling.
• Finally! I finished typing down that 4th chapter of the fanfic and now I'm trying to finish writing the second half of the 4th chapter of Francis and Ilsie's story.

Got bored already? Don't worry. It's always like that. My life has always been like that. And seriously, I have no idea what to do anymore about that.

For now, I think it's time for me to say good night. 😊❤️

おやすみなさい。。。