Thursday, June 8, 2023

Journaling Gap: 2009 and 2010

Hi, guys! Welcome back to my page.

I know I didn't provide an update last Monday. But that's because I'm still trying to navigate what to write about and what to post on that day. Even when I said that I would make my Sundays #SundayStories and thoughts-related entries on #ThursdayThoughts, like this one.

Sunday Stories (originally planned to be posted on Mondays) will be a segment about the stories I wrote, currently writing, and will write sometime soon or in the future. So yes, I'd also be posting stories here that I never posted in any writing platforms I signed up to.

I'm still in the middle of debating if I want to actually keep up with doing that.

Anyways...

The last time, I posted about journaling gap that I had and it's pretty fascinating to think about events with regards to those gaps, to be honest. They were memories that I never got to write. So it's truly going to be a challenge for me to recall the events surrounding the years that I had the gap.

Nonetheless, they are still memories. It could take me a while to recall all of them. But you know, that could help me in coming up with new entries to post here. 😁✌️

It's crazy to think that I decided to do this little challenge to myself. Then again, it's something I decided to do just for me to be able to recall stuff that I never thought I'd recall in the course of this challenge.

So let's get on with this, shall we?

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The start of my journaling gap started after my last journal entry, which was April 7 of 2009. Here's the catch to that, however.

I only wrote four entries in that year. All of them were written during the first week of April. They were all rants about my day, which was usually the content of my journal entries back then. Of course, it doesn't mean I don't rant anymore in my current entries.

But you know what I like about the way I write my entries back then? They were more emotional. Not the dramatic kind of emotional. But they were more... in tune with what I strongly feel at the moment. And I felt that my days back then, even though they were simple and ordinary -- in my standards, were... rose-colored, in my opinion. I'm not sure if that was the most apt description for that. And yet it seems I couldn't find any better word as a description.

Honestly, I don't look at my days like that anymore. Which is sad. Then again, there were certain events within that journaling gap that I know have contributed to that and had changed my perception on how I view my days and my life after.

And trust me, there were a lot of those events. But we'll get to them soon.

Anyway, we'll start with the first year -- April of 2009 to April of 2010. Then again, I'm not sure if I'd be able to determine the exact month, or even days for those events. But yeah, we'll see.

I graduated high school on April of 2009. So this year was the turning point of my life as a student as I was about to go to college. I went to a technical college, by the way, with a ladderized system which allows students to graduate within two years upon meeting certain conditions.

One of them was taking an NC2 test within that certain course/field of study. As for me, I took Information Technology which was a four-year course. Looking at it now, I never got to use much of what I learned there.

Do I have regrets? Yes. I'm not denying that.

But the most important thing for me and my family at the time was to finish studying, regardless of actually liking the course or not. At the time, we couldn't afford to go to a different college that actually offers the course I wanted to study (Journalism/Mass Communication). Financial reasons. So I had to take a different course.

I also recalled that year 2009 was when I started posting stories online. Otherwise called as fanfiction. It was my first multi-chaptered story featuring a crossover between Detective Conan and Prince of Tennis. I read a lot of fanfiction when I was in fourth year high school. So you could say I was influenced by that. But there was nothing at the time that influenced me to write a story featuring these two fandoms. So you could say that I based it more on my fangirl mode to those anime.

After that, the numbers of stories I'd post on FanFiction.Net slowly increased. I don't have a computer of my own back then so it was gradual. It wasn't a consistent thing as well. I would continue the habit of writing them on paper first before typing them down and posting them online. Then again, I still have that habit so I think I was able to be consistent on that one thing.

Year 2010 was my second year of college. And I think this was the year when they started introducing Programming subject to 2nd years, only in its introductory part. If my memory serves me right, of course. I also started becoming active in writing around that time. An activity that would, later on, became a path for me to be a part of the newspaper club. But we'll get to that some other time.

Of course, now that I recalled it, I think this was also the time that I stopped for one semester because of financial reason. And yes, I'm not going to lie. At the time, I did resent my father because of that decision. But I couldn't do anything. Money can be a really annoying enemy and obstacle at times, huh? I think this was why I became active in writing, as a way for me to kill time.

Unfortunately, I don't recall many events of my life from that year other than the mundane ones. But at least there's something, right? After all, it was still a part of my life. It's not like I can remove it or something.

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Okay, that's it for today, I guess. It's really hard to do this when your mind won't even cooperate with you in terms of recalling things. You know, I still kept on wondering why I stopped journaling at the time. And I can't come up with a plausible answer -- at least the one that I can recall. Now that this part is done, I decided to do this series encompassing 2 years in each entry. That way, I can make it longer.

I might post a different topic next Thursday or a continuation on this. But for now, thank you for reaching this far. Give this page some love and I hope I'll see you in the next entry. Bye!

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