Our Memory Of The Dawn 11 - Just Like This

One thing led to another and the next time Amy finally realized what had just happened, both Narnians and Telmarines were in harmony. That day, the Narnians were celebrating the victory of the war. Not long after, Caspian was crowned as the king.

All the way, Amy decided to just watch everything unfold in front of her as she continued to remain in the background. Then again, not many people liked what she was doing. And to think she had contributed to a lot of things that led to the victory of the Narnians. Especially in terms of medical assistance.

At least, Caspian had told her that when the celebration finally died down.

【silent vlog】a rather busy day

Okay, so this video almost reached 2 minutes. But I guess it's still within the range. So I guess that's okay.

【silent vlog】productive writing day even when busy

I thought I won't be able to upload this today. Thank goodness I did. I should really do more writing vlogs, to be honest.

【silent vlog】just me losing my "way"

Just my little worries about doing these little vlogs in my 30s. 😕😢

【silent vlog】opening of gifts, christmas sunset 🎄🎁

How my Christmas Day went since the morning. Merry Christmas, everyone! And oh! I also tried doing 1 second video compilation about my day here.

【silent vlog】christmas eve "chaos" 😁✌️🎄

It's not much, but I guess every household has their own set of chaos whenever christmas eve is here. I hope you all have a good christmas celebration today. Merry christmas, everyone!

【silent vlog】one more week before the year ends

I actually wanted to post one video a day as a trial. But I don't like it too long (if you call five minutes to be too long). They're like... mini vlog/video journal for me. So now let's start with this.

【silent vlog】having colds, learning more, finding a reason

It's okay if you're shaking, just look straight ahead... ~ Brave Phoenix, Mizuki Nana

This is the 2nd video of the week. You know, I might do these vlogs one day with me doing some voiceovers and stuff. But I have to practice more voicing it out there, I guess. ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ You know what I mean.

【silent vlog】musings on chances, family time, notebook

Random footages I compiled from Sunday to Tuesday. So if I do this type of posting on Youtube, I might be able to upload two videos in a week. Of course, that also includes writing letters to... whoever would be a "Sunrise" to me. That could be various people, you know. 🥰✌️

【silent vlog】a little change

I decided to do something different in my silent vlog, all while dedicating it to "Sunrise". Hence, the main title of the video. Maybe the idea itself of writing a letter (or in this case, making a video letter: vlog style) to someone hadn't left me since I thought of the concept I had for a pending story I've been writing called "Letters To Sunrise" a few years ago. ☺️✌️

i'll hold on to you 123 - call about the danger

[Relaina]

I kept finding myself in the murky waters of my thoughts, for some reason. Pero ayokong makaapekto  nang husto iyon sa akin, lalo na sa tuwing magkasama kami ni Brent. That guy already had enough of dealing with so many problems related to what happened to me before.

At sa tingin ko, mukhang hindi pa rin tapos iyon hanggang sa mga sandaling iyon. In my opinion, it was crazy. Pero hindi naman talaga laging madali ang paghahanap ng hustisya. Kahit siguro saan ka magpunta, may pagkakataon na pahirapan pang hanapin iyon.

It was a weekend that day. Another week had gone by focusing on school and doing my best to spend time with Brent in between. Before I knew it, dalawang buwan na pala kaming magkasintahan ng sira-ulong iyon.

Hindi ko na naiwasang matawa sa pagtawag kong iyon sa lalaking iyon. Bad habit ko na nga yata talaga iyon, 'no? Ang asarin kahit sa isipan ko ang lalaking mahal na mahal ko kahit na kami na. Would that be weird? O baka naman komportable lang talaga akong gawin iyon dahil... mahal ko ito.

【silent vlog】a week in life, language learning progress, updating that story

This is mainly about what happened to me this week and various little achievements I decided to celebrate as the last month of this year is nearing its end. But seriously, I have to up my game in consistent writing. 😁✌️

i'll hold on to you 122 - being affectionate

[Brent]

Hanggang tingin lang ang ginagawa ko sa paghampas ng alon sa dalampasigan at pati na rin sa mga malalaking bato sa bahagi ng cove. Nang mga sandaling iyon ay naroon ako sa ilalim ng Promise Tree at nakasandal lang ang likod ko sa malaking katawan niyon habang nagpapahinga.

Well, hindi lang naman ako ang naroon at the moment. When I looked down, I could only smile at the sight of Relaina's peaceful sleeping face. Nakaunan ang ulo nito sa dibdib ko na para bang isa iyon sa pinakanatural na bagay na ginagawa nito. Siyempre naman, masaya ako na natural na nitong ginagawa iyon. There wasn't any awkwardness lingering anymore dahil hindi kami at wala akong karapatang magpakita ng kakaibang lambing sa babaeng ito noon.

Iba na sa mga sandaling iyon.

Just how many weeks has it been since she officially became my girlfriend? Mahigit isang buwan na pala. Five weeks? Six weeks already?

【silent vlog】one usual sunday in my life and talking about what i write

This has definitely turned into a writing vlog at some point. But I don't mind. Maybe I should do more of that next time. And then there's the talk about a poem... 🤨🤨

Our Memory Of The Dawn 10 - Live And Return

"You sure know how to hide well, little lady."

Amy could only stare wide-eyed at the Telmarine soldier pointing a sword to her face. What in the world? How did they manage to find her there?

But she knew she didn't have to show to the soldier in front of her and also to the other two who were restraining her horse that she was starting to panic. There was no reason for them to know that.

"Good for you for finding me. Not many idiots can do that."

Okay. It might have been a bad idea to rile the soldiers up like that. But she really wanted to get out of there and head to where Edmund and the rest of the Narnians were. She didn't have any time to deal with even more nonsense than this battle.

i'll hold on to you 121 - first date

[Relaina]

Ilang linggo pa ang lumipas pero kahit papaano ay nasa normal pa rin naman ang takbo ng mga buhay namin. Yes, there was still that lingering fear dahil hindi pa rin naman nahahanap ang mastermind sa nangyaring aksidente sa akin. Pero... ayokong tuluyang makaapekto iyon sa akin.

Sa amin ni Brent.

With that thought, napatingin na lang ako sa lalaking kasalukuyang nakaunan sa hita ko at nagpapahinga. Or at least, that was what he claimed. Pero alam ko namang naghahanap lang ito ng paraan para tsansingan ako, eh.

Okay, that was a joke. But it still made me smile somehow.

【silent vlog】writing stories, journaling, and more walking

This time around, I'm letting you see my writing "habits", "routine", and also my journaling routine. Of course, here's to more clips of me outside and walking about. 😁✌️

Our Memory Of The Dawn 9 - Will Be Alright

Even when Amy knew she left the How earlier than planned, she still wasn't sure if she was safe and no one was following her. This could be a good thing, but it didn't mean that she should be complacent about the whole thing.

Because of that thought, she urged the horse to gallop faster for her to reach her destination. It would still be a challenge for her to look for the exact location since the land must have changed dramatically over the thousand years that the Kings and Queens had disappeared. Then again, she had to trust her instinct.

The very same instinct that Grandfire had seen in her when she became the Dawn Queen.

i'll hold on to you 120 - between two brothers

[Brent]

Hanggang tingin lang ang ginawa ko sa report na nasa kamay ko ng mga sandaling iyon habang nakaupo sa harap ng study table ko. Ilang araw na rin akong ganito pero hindi ko sinasabi iyon kay Relaina dahil ayokong mag-alala ito sa akin.

Gusto kong lagi ko lang itong makitang masaya habang magkasama kami. Ang hirap, sa totoo lang. Ang hirap na laging makaramdam ng takot at kaba para sa kaligtasan ng taong mahal ko.

Lalo na sa kaso ni Relaina na muntik nang mapatay ng kung sinong sira-ulong iyon noon.

Hindi ako nagbibiro sa babaeng mahal ko nang sabihin ko rito ang tungkol sa pagkakahuli sa taong gumawa n'on kay Relaina. Pinilit kong tingnan kung ano ang nararamdaman nito pagkatapos kong sabihin iyon.

【silent vlog】more walking, story ideas, fgo

It didn't immediately come to me that today is Saturday -- which is my schedule for posting. It was a good thing I was able to realize that before it's too late. I think this video has spanned 3-4 days of my week (on different days). It's just me walking, taking videos of trees (weird of me) and my writer-ish habit.

i'll hold on to you 119 - future he holds on to

[Relaina]

To be honest, the rest of the week went crazy for me. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ganoon ang pakiramdam ko. Or... was I supposed to word it like that? Should I have stated it as... a whirlwind or something?

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ide-describe ang buong linggo ko pagkatapos ng lahat ng mga kaganapan. Parang hindi pa rin magsi-sink in nang matino sa utak ko ang lahat. Pero isa lang ang alam ko.

Wala nang makakapigil pa kay Brent Allen Montreal na ipakita sa madla na... kami na.

Why did I say that?

【silent vlog】being friendless, language learning story

Every day for me is still a journey, even if it's non-aesthetic and mundane to most people. Ordinary days that passed by are still steps that could move you closer or farther from your goal. It all boils down to the choices we make in the present.

【silent vlog】i just need to start

 

Since this has been nagging my brain for a long while, I think it's about time I get to "finally" do this... even if it's still not perfect in my eyes. 🥰✌️

i'll hold onto you 118 - my new promise

[Relaina]

It was our first day as a couple, Brent and I. Pero... natural ba talaga na makaramdam ako ng 'di maipaliwanag na kaba dahil lang kami na? Ang weird ng pakiramdam ko ng mga sandaling iyon.

Wala naman akong dapat na ikabahala, 'di ba? Magkikita lang naman kami ni Brent.

I really had this strong urge na makita ito. At alam kong hindi lang iyon dahil magkasintahan na kami. There was more to that, I knew it.

Napatingin ako sa paligid kung saan ko sinabing magkikita kami. Well, doon lang naman sa malaking bato malapit sa paboritong treehouse nito. At least sa lugar na iyon, mahangin. Alam kong mas makakahinga ako nang maluwag.

i'll hold on to you 117 - similar dreams, same fear

[Brent]

Magkaganoon man, hindi pa rin ako umalis ng mansyon ng araw na iyon sa ibang dahilan. I still have to think things through. Ayokong harapin si Relaina na magulo ang utak ko. Gusto ko na okay ang takbo ng utak ko kapag nagpunta ako sa girlfriend ko.

Ang hirap nga lang ng sitwasyon ko dahil nararamdaman ko talaga na parang hindi ako lubusang masaya, for some reason. Pag-aalala at takot ang kinakalaban ko mula nang magtapat ako ng nararamdaman ko para kay Relaina at tanggapin na nito iyon sa wakas.

Not going to lie, it was enough to drive me crazy. Pero kaya ko pang lumaban basta alam kong kaya ko pa. At alam kong may magagawa pa ako lalo na sa mga sandaling iyon.

Napatigil ako sa pag-iisip nang marinig kong tumunog ang cellphone ko. It was definite an Incoming Call alert.

i'll hold on to you 116 - morning worries

[Brent]

The day after that most amazing moment of my life. Or was I exaggerating on that? Wala naman sigurong masama kung mag-exaggerate ako, 'di ba? Masaya lang naman ako dahil sa nangyaring iyon.

Alas-nuwebe na ng umaga. Pero nandito pa rin ako sa kama ko at ayoko pang tumayo. To be honest, it was unusual. Hindi ako ang tipo ng taong nagtatagal sa kama kapag nagising na ako.

Kaya lang, iba ang pakiramdam ko ng mga sandaling iyon. Basta, ang hirap ipaliwanag. Magaan, masaya, parang nananaginip pa ako kahit alam kong hindi naman. This was the first time I've felt something like this before.

I didn't think I'd feel this bliss now that it finally came true. I didn't realize that I'd feel so much the moment Relaina had said yes that day.

i'll hold on to you 115 - the day after

[Relaina]

It was definitely a memorable experience in my life, as weird as it sounded.

Pero sino ba naman kasi ang hindi mag-iisip nang ganoon? Parang pakiramdam ko, nananaginip pa ako. Ang daming nangyari na hindi ko alam kung alin sa mga iyon ang totoo at hindi. Nakailang kurot na nga ako sa sarili ko para lang magising ako. Pero ganoon pa rin.

Nandito pa rin ako sa katotohanang... kami na nga ni Brent. Yes, official na. Magkasintahan na nga kami. Hindi na iyon isang haka-haka lang na madalas kong marinig sa Oceanside mula pa noon.

"Aahhh!" Hindi ko na napigilang isigaw —-- pero ginawa ko iyon habang nakatakip ang unan ko sa mukha ko.

i'll hold on to you 114 - this time it's real

[Relaina]

Napatingin na lang ako kay Brent matapos ang tanong nitong iyon.

Was it something I should consider a million dollar question? I’d definitely call it a life-changing one, if you ask me. A question that could make or break everything that Brent and I had built, so far.

And this time, alam kong wala nang halong biro ang lahat. He wanted the truth. He wanted answers --- and real one, too.

Grabe naman kung magbigay ng pressure ang lalaking ito sa akin. Pero... mukhang matagal na rin nitong gustong magkaroon ng kasagutan ang tanong nitong iyon. Iyon ang nasa isip ko nang makita ko ang antisipasyon sa mukha ni Brent habang hinihintay nito ang sagot ko.

(one-shot) These Memories To Keep

 

"What in the world are we doing out here again? Kinaladkad mo na naman ako rito para sa wala, Mei?"

Pero isang buntong-hininga ang naging tugon ng kaibigang si Mei sa litanya ng tanong na iyon ni Stacy. Siyempre pa, inasahan na niya iyon kung ikokonsidera niya ang ugali nito na laging gustong laging nasusunod ang mga trip nito sa buhay. Lalo na kapag may naisipan itong gawin.

"Stacy, ginagawa ko ito para sa iyo, okay? Aba, wala ka nang ibang ginawa sa apartment mo kundi magkulong, ah. Mula nang bumalik ka sa kabihasnan 3 months ago, nag-iba ka na."

"Ano'ng gusto mong gawin ko? Magsaya na may isang nilalang somewhere out there na talagang nagpahalaga sa akin for once in my life na nag-aagaw-buhay ngayon dahil sa akin? Mei, hindi pa ako ganoon ka-heartless. Kung sa ex-boyfriend ko siguro nangyari iyon, baka nga talagang ikatutuwa ko pa, eh."

i'll hold on to you 113 - confession for real

[Relaina]

Hindi ko hilig ang mag-walk out, sa totoo lang. Wala iyon sa bokabularyo ko, lalo na kung alam kong kaya ko namang harapin ang laban. Basta alam kong kaya ko.

But this was the kind of a fight na hindi ko alam kung kaya kong harapin na ako lang. Lalo na't involved dito ang lalaking source ng lahat ng stress at confusion na naranasan ko mula nang magbalik ako rito sa Altiera.

At ito lang yata ang lalaking kaharap ko na nag-walk out ako dahil hindi ko na kayang pakiharapan ang taong iyon. Well, I guess I should include Oliver on the list, as well. Pero... minsan ko lang namang ginawa iyon kay Oliver. Ibang usapan naman pagdating kay Brent.

At dahil sa ginawa ng lalaking iyon, hindi ko na alam kung paano ko pa ito pakikiharapan.

i'll hold on to you 112 - duet

[Relaina]

Singing in front of so many people… Parang napakalaking bagay na talaga iyon para sa akin. Hindi ko talaga akalaing magagawa ko iyon dahil lang sa request ng taong hindi ko naman masyado pang kilala… pero alam ko pa ring mahalaga sa taong katabi ko ng mga sandaling iyon sa stage.

Yes, heto na! Another dreaded day… Naalala ko na naman 'yong dance practicum namin sa dance club noon. Parang bumalik ako sa mga panahong iyon, sa totoo lang.

Only this time, hindi na ito isang pormal na bagay na kailangang gawin kasi may kapalit. I was doing this because…

"Everyone, hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari sa kapatid ko para hilingin na mag-perform kami ni Relaina sa harap ninyong lahat ngayon," umpisa ni Brent habang hawak ang mic.

i'll hold on to you 111 - birthday party

[Relaina]

Isang malalim na paghinga… na nadagdagan pa ng isa. At isa pa. Pero hindi pa rin naging sapat iyon para kumalma ako. Ang lakas pa rin ng pintig ng puso ko habang nakatayo sa labas ng gate ng ancestral house kung saan nakatira ang pamilya ni Brent. Doon din ginaganap ng mga sandaling iyon ang birthday celebration ng bunsong kapatid ng magkakambal na Montreal. Hindi ko talaga mapigilang kabahan kahit na ano'ng gawin ko.

Nakakapagtaka nga, eh. Minsan ko naman nang nakita at nakausap ang Mama ni Brent. Ganoon din naman ang birthday celebrant na si Andz. Kasundo ko naman si Neilson, maging sina Tita Marie at Miette.

Oo nga't hindi ko pa nakakausap ni minsan ang Papa ni Brent, bagaman minsan ko nang nakita ito sa abandonadong building kung saan ko naabutan noon si Brent. Dahil kaya roon kaya ako kinakabahan nang ganito? Bukod pa sa pagdating ng iba pang mga kamag-anak ni Brent na paniguradong magtatanong ng tungkol sa akin.

"They're not going to eat you alive, Laine. Kalma lang."

i'll hold on to you 110 - just do it

[Relaina]

In my opinion, this was one of the craziest ideas that I have ever heard in my life. Okay, alam kong exaggeration ko lang iyon. Pero ganoon pa rin ang epekto n’on sa akin.

Ano naman kasing masamang hangin ang nalanghap ng bunsong kapatid ni Brent para maisipan nitong i-suggest na kumanta kami ng kuya nito? At duet pa talaga, ‘no? Hindi ko tuloy mapigilang isipan na nasisiraan na talaga ng bait ang batang iyon.

Hawak ko na sa mga sandaling iyon ang invitation card na nagpapatunay na iniimbitahan nga ako ni Carl sa birthday party nito. Kasama ng invitation card na iyon ang isang maliit na note.

‘Ate Relaina, huwag mo pong kalilimutan ang request ko sa inyo ni Kuya Brent. Salamat po. :)’

i'll hold on to you 109 - nightmare continues

[Brent]

I could only look at her. Sa mga sandaling iyon, iyon lang ang gusto kong gawin kay Relaina. Naabutan ko na siyang nakatulog sa sofa nang balikan ko ito pagkatapos kong maghugas ng pinagkainan namin kanina.

Mabuti na lang talaga at naisipan kong mag-stock ng mga condiments at ingredients sa maliit kong refrigerator na naroon sa treehouse. Iyon ang isang dahilan kung bakit nagtungo ako roon. Isa pa ay gusto ko ring mag-isip na walang iistorbo sa akin.

Kailangan kong gawin iyon dahil wala pa akong planong masiraan ng bait. Kahit sabihin pang si Relaina ang dahilan, ayoko pang mangyari iyon. Gusto ko pang manatili ng mahabang panahon sa tabi ng espesyal na babaeng ito sa buhay ko.

"Urgh! Why did I end up thinking that way?" hindi ko na napigilang komento sa sarili ko bago ako napailing.

Nagi (Ninninger)/Amu (Zyuohger): My Heart's Way

 

Both of them had written so many letters for each other already since they first met on an online site. It wasn't something she'd normally do, to be honest. But she found it interesting, especially when she got to talk to him via chat and — as you guessed it — letters.

Handwritten letters. They both found it exciting to do it that way instead of the modernized and technological version of it. Regardless of the response time, the long wait would always feel worth it for both of them.

They would reply eagerly whenever one would arrive. And yes, they would both do it by hand.

Sousuke/Saki (Go-Onger): Irreplacable Memory

 

From among those innocent days which are so irreplaceable, one memory floods out... — Kimi No Zutto, YuYu

xxxxxx

"You're pouting again."

"And you got a problem with that?" Okay. Maybe it was a bad idea for Saki to answer like that as she was sulking.

Then again, she couldn't help it. That jerk didn't come to their appointed date — again. How many times has this happened already?

Yes, she knew that Sousuke remained busy with his car racing career ever since their duties as Go-ongers began dwindling a little. But at least that guy should consider other priorities at hand.

One was supposed to be about making sure his girlfriend — a.k.a Ryouyama Saki — was taken care of.

However, at the moment, Saki didn't feel that way. And it was annoying her.

Chase (KR Drive)/Kasumi (Ninninger): To Have Your Heart Again

 

I'll do what it takes to bring you back to me and it doesn't matter even if I have to deal with Death itself... — Florence Joyce

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Whether anyone would admit it or not, seeing someone from your past could be scary. In this case, two people were still trying to figure out where everything had gone wrong a long time ago for them to be separated like that.

For Kasumi to meet Chase again after four years since their separation, she didn't really know what to expect. And yet, here she was. Smiling at him like she was only meeting an old friend whom she hadn't seen in so long.

"I never thought I'd see you in a place like this," Chase said, initiating the conversation.

i'll hold on to you 108 - sweet realization

[Relaina]

Kung hindi nga naman ako minamalas… Bakit naman kasi ngayon pa ako inabutan ng ulan? Hindi ba puwedeng pinauwi muna ako bago bumagsak ang ulan na iyon?

Then again, wala naman na akong magagawa kundi ang hintaying tumila iyon. That is… kung titila nga talaga sa araw na iyon. Pero mukhang hindi ako kinakasihan ng tadhana ng mga sandaling iyon. Bakit ko naisip iyon?

Binuksan kasi ni Brent ang radyo sa lugar na iyon. Doon ko narinig na may bagyong dumating at mukhang buong magdamag na bubuhos ang ulan at mag-iingay ang langit dahil sa posibleng kulog at kidlat. Idagdag mo pa ang malakas na pag-ihip ng hangin.

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang plano ng langit sa akin ng mga sandaling iyon. But… I guess at some point, I was glad that Brent was there to help me.

Sento (KR Build)/Hammie (Kyuranger): Because Of You

 

Because of you, my world feels different to me... — You Are, GOT7

xxxxxx

Normally, there was no reason for Sento to feel attached to anyone as exuberant as this young woman in front of him. He was a scientist, after all. A brilliant one, at that. He would usually have no time dealing with something so trivial as entertaining a young woman in high spirits and currently enjoying her well-earned vacation.

For him, that was the normal life he knew and was aware of. But things could change in an instant. In a heartbeat. In a blink of an eye. At least, that was what he realized when he once saved her from near death because of an unidentified monster attack.

Sento had no idea about the circumstances leading to that attack. But even with the chaos and also the headache that the case had brought to him, he couldn't deny the fact that he was glad about one thing.

Nagi/Fuuka (Ninninger): The Brightest Star

 

Counting the days had never been so fun, especially when one was waiting for something important or possibly life-changing, at some point. But for Nagi, he was finding it to be hard to do. At least, he knew he had to count in order for him to realize how many days he had to endure waiting before that certain day would finally arrive.

It was a crazy thing to endure, if he was going to be honest. Then again, he just had to do that, no matter how hard.

One more week…

Koh (Ryusoulger)/Umika (Lupinranger VS Patranger): Though We Took The Long Way

 

When we met, everything was awkward. And though we took the long way, we made it, didn’t we? — Dearest, Hamasaki Ayumi

xxxxxx

“Oh, come on! He’s late again?”

Umika would’ve kept puffing her cheeks in annoyance. But of course, she knew that the one she was supposed to meet that day made a last minute call mentioning about being late due to an emergency errand. She didn’t intend to cancel her appointment that day as she’d been anticipating this for days, if she was going to be honest.

But for her to wait for 30 minutes already? Just what kind of errand did that guy end up doing for her to wait that long for him to arrive, anyway?

Banjou (KR Build)/Hammie (Kyuranger): In My Heart

 

One day, I'd be able to let you go. In my heart, it's a wish that I can only believe untl a miracle replaces the pain you have placed there... — Florence Joyce

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The farewell letter he left behind explained everything she never wanted to know.

But even with that, Hammie couldn’t understand why she still kept that letter. It broke her heart over and over every time she would read it. And yet her heart would still linger even to that pain just to tell herself that everything that had happened between her and that man was real.

In their case, however, it was an event in her life that never stayed real for long. Perhaps both of them didn’t do anything to solidify that once formed between them.

Once again, she sighed ever so raggedly. Damn it… Her tears were about to fall again. How many times does this have to happen, anyway? When would she learn to let it all go?

Koh/Asuna (Ryusoulger): I'm By Your Side

 

I can smile because I am by your side. I pray again that you will be my person… — All With You, Taeyeon (SNSD)

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It was already an everyday thing for Koh to watch Asuna eat her fill of snacks — usual ones and even new ones — especially when things around them were peaceful and no enemies would dare disrupt their usual days. On that particular day, however, there was something strange about the way he would observe his childhood friend doing the usual thing.

He shook his head and turned around for the meantime, not noticing that Asuna soon turned his way, thus stopping her from eating her snacks.

“Are you okay, Asuna?”

i'll hold on to you 107 - sudden rain

[Relaina]

Wala naman talaga akong planong lumabas ng bahay ng Linggo na iyon. Pero dahil hindi pa rin nawawala sa utak ko ang pinatunguhan ng pinag-usapan namin nina Ate Katrina, Mayu, at Vivian ilang araw na ang nakakaraan, kailangan kong mag-unwind. Hindi ko naman kailangang pumunta sa malayong lugar para gawin iyon.

Kailangan ko lang talagang mag-isip nang maayos at walang istorbo. But even with that plan, I had a feeling that it would head nowhere somehow. I hated that, to be honest. Ayokong maging ganoon ang end result ng gagawin kong pag-iisip ng araw na iyon.

Even so, I knew I had to do something.

Wala akong specific na lugar na gustong puntahan. Hahayaan ko na lang muna ang mga paa ko na dalhin ako kung saan posible akong makapag-isip nang matino. Iilan lang ang napuntahan ko nang umagang iyon.

i'll hold on to you 106 - girls' talk

[Relaina]

I wasn't sure if I would consider this a good thing or a bad one. Oo nga't may hinala na ako na may kinalaman si Brent sa petals from the balcony phenomenon na nangyari last year. Pero hindi ko naman inakala na may makukuha akong kumpirmasyon tungkol doon.

Seriously, that was unexpected...

And for who knows how many times that day, bumuntong-hininga na naman ako.

"Seryosong usapan, Relaina. Ilang beses kang bubuntong-hininga sa buong araw, ha? Wala ka nang ibang ginawa tuwing break time kundi ganyan, ah," narinig kong sabi ni Ate Katrina na nasa harap ko lang ng mga sandaling iyon at abalang kinakain ang baon nito.

i'll hold on to you 105 - about the falling petals

[Relaina]

Matapos ang pag-uusap namin ni Tita Marie sa porch ay nagpaalam na ito na aalis dahil may kailangan pa itong asikasuhin sa bayan. Nagpasalamat naman ako rito sa pagtanggap sa akin at sa mga naikuwento na nito sa akin.

"Huwag kang mahihiyang bumisita rito palagi, ha? Para naman hindi nabo-bored ang anak ko na walang ibang babaeng nakakausap na hindi related sa farm," sabi nito na tinanguan ko na lang at gumanti ng ngiti bilang sagot.

Titingnan ko muna kung magagawa ko nga ba ang gusto nitong mangyari. Pero kung pagbisita rin lang naman ang pag-uusapan, wala naman sigurong magiging problema.

"Mukhang nag-enjoy kang makipagkuwentuhan kay Tita Marie, ah," umpisa ni Brent bilang pagbasag na rin sa katahimikang nakapaligid sa aming dalawa ng mga sandaling iyon.

Lucky (Ryusoulger)/Fuuka (Ninninger): No Matter What

 

No matter what happens to us now, I'll never turn my back on you or to the memories we made together... ~ Florence Joyce

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Returning to the alternate Earth was arguably an ardurous journey for Lucky. Wormholes don't usually work the way people -- humans and non-humans alike -- would have wanted to. There were slim chances of ever going or even arriving to the intended location.

But as he had always done, he took on those chances. No matter how small, he knew he had to take it. He had to go bck there. He made a promise to someone important, after all. All this time since he and the others returned to their home universe, he had never forgotten that promise.

Life Updates Since My Last Post

Hi, guys! Welcome back to my blog!

It’s a mess… My weeks recently have been such a mess that it actually ruined my concentration in writing more often than I intended to. I’ve been having a writing rut during those days (maybe even weeks) that I haven’t updated. The more I force myself, the words that would come out would feel like crap to me.

Many people would say that it’s okay, that things would get better. And honestly, I believe that. But at the back of my mind, everything feels like crap. It only gave me more dissatisfaction. After that, it would frustrate the heck out of me. It’s crazy!

In any case, let’s go back to the topic of life update:

i'll hold on to you 104 - what the future holds

[Relaina]

The lunch proceeded well, kung ako ang tatanungin. Pero sa totoo lang, hindi pa rin ako nakaka-recover sa mga nangyari nang makilala na ako ni Tita Marie. Hanggang sa mga sandaling iyon ay nararamdaman ko pa rin ang mahigpit na yakap sa akin nito at pati na rin ang panginginig nito habang ginagawa iyon. Nasa isip ko rin ang panginginig sa boses ni Tita habang nagpapasalamat sa akin tungkol sa nagawa ko para kay Brent.

Sa palagay ko nga, hindi pa tuluyang nagre-register sa utak ko ang lahat ng mga iyon. Pero ano naman kasi ang dapat kong asahan? Biglaan naman ang mga nangyaring iyon. But it did prove one thing for me.

Malaking bagay para sa kanila na nagawa nang makakawala ni Brent sa pait ng nakaraang hindi nito magawang kalimutan. Brent coming out of that darkness was something that made it all too important and special for them.

"Relaina, huwag kang mahihiyang magtanong kung may kailangan ka, ha? Kung may gusto ka pang kainin, sabihin mo sa akin," sabi ni Tita Marie habang nasa dining table kami at salu-salong kumakain.

i'll hold on to you 103 - gratitude

[Relaina]

Hindi ko maintindihan ang mga nagiging drama ni Brent ever since I had that accident. Wait… I shouldn’t really call that an accident kung napag-alaman naman na talagang sinadya iyon. Si Andz na rin ang kumumpirma n’on sa akin.

Sa totoo lang, hanggang sa mga sandaling iyon ay kinikilabutan pa rin ako sa tuwing naiisip ko iyon. But perhaps I would tackle that some other time.

Sa ngayon, iba ang dapat kong pagtuunan ng pansin. At iyon ay ang pakikipagkita sa Tita ni Brent na —- according to him —- excited na makilala na ako sa wakas.

Should I actually be glad about that? I mean… grabeng pressure lang ang binibigay n’on sa akin, kung alam lang ng lalaking ito. But then, as if I could actually say that straight to his face at the moment. Matindi na ang kabang nararamdaman ko para mag-react o magkomento pa sa kahit na ano sa harap ko ng mga sandaling iyon.

i'll hold on to you 102 - blurting out

[Relaina]

May isang oras din ang itinagal bago pa idineklara ni Miette mula sa loob ng bahay na okay na raw ang paghahanda ng mga ito. Sinamantala naman ni Brent ang isang oras na iyon para maipasyal ako sa loob ng property ng Tita Marie nito.

Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala hanggang sa mga sandaling iyon na may ganoon kagandang flower farm sa Altiera. At hindi rin ako makapaniwala na maraming bulaklak ang naitanim at naaalagaan doon. Mga bulaklak na ginagamit ni Brent para iparating nito sa akin ang ilang mahahalagang mensaheng gusto nitong sabihin sa akin sa ibang paraan.

And seriously, it was one heck of a way to relay messages to me. Epecially the kind that… sounded romantic in more ways than one.

“‘Buti, hindi ka pa itinataboy ng Tita mo dahil sa pagtangay mo sa mga bulaklak na itinatanim niya rito,” biro ko bilang pagbasag na rin sa katahimikang nakapalibot sa aming dalawa.

Where To Start

Hi, guys! I'm Florence and welcome back to my page.

(Still in the feeling of imagining what it's actually like to greet people in front of the camera, even when I'm camera-shy IRL.)

This is a strange introduction for a blog post, I know. And I also know that I haven't posted in two scheduled dates, only because I have no idea what to post at the time. Things had been stressful for me during those days and I don't want to put pressure on myself when writing something for this page. So I decided not to post anything in those two days.

Honestly, I have no idea what to post here even as I'm writing this. Okay, maybe that was a bit of a lie. I have lots of things and ideas to talk about here. Things that I've been wanting to discuss with someone. Things that bothered me a lot that I wanted to bring out and maybe it would lead to something.

Am I just imagining things here? Am I just overthinking and hopelessly wishing that someone would understand them? That there would be strangers who would understand them? Can I be a 'relatable' person that people would listen to, read about, or watch to at some point?

i'll hold on to you 101 - day of the meeting

[Relaina]

The day of the meeting with Brent's maternal aunt in the flower farm… It finally came.

Pero ako, hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang dapat kong maramdaman dahil sa nangyayari ng mga sandaling iyon. It was Sunday. Gaya ng napag-usapan namin ni Brent a few days ago, ito na ang dreaded day.

Alamko namang hindi ako mapapahamak sa lugar na ito. The woman that I was about to meet was Brent's aunt. Mabait daw ito, sabi ng lalaking iyon. But it still remained to be seen. Hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano ba ang dapat kong asahan sa pakikipagkita ko sa Tita ni Brent.

Hopefully, wala namang masamang mangyari.

i'll hold on to you 100 - final realization

[Relaina]

Okay. So this was the first time I’ve heard about this information. Hindi ko yata ma-imagine na magkukrus ang landas nina Oliver at Vivian in any way possible. Then again, marami pa ring maaaring mangyari na wala sa hinagap ko.

Oh, great! Now I was being dramatic with all these thoughts going on in my mind at the moment because of what I heard from Vivian. 

“Oo, siya nga. But… wait, do you know him?”

“You could say that. Pero… medyo iwas siya pagdating sa akin, eh.”

Journaling Gap: 2009 and 2010

Hi, guys! Welcome back to my page.

I know I didn't provide an update last Monday. But that's because I'm still trying to navigate what to write about and what to post on that day. Even when I said that I would make my Sundays #SundayStories and thoughts-related entries on #ThursdayThoughts, like this one.

Sunday Stories (originally planned to be posted on Mondays) will be a segment about the stories I wrote, currently writing, and will write sometime soon or in the future. So yes, I'd also be posting stories here that I never posted in any writing platforms I signed up to.

I'm still in the middle of debating if I want to actually keep up with doing that.

Anyways...

i'll hold on to you 99 - rooftop discussions

[Relaina]

Okay. I might have accepted Brent’s invitation for me na pumunta sa bahay ng Tita Marie nito para makilala ito. Pero hindi naman nangangahulugan na kalmado na ako sa lahat ng ito. In fact, it was already 2 AM in the morning. But here I wasn’t, still wide awake.

And I hated it a lot. Urgh!

Pero kahit naman siguro magreklamo ako nang ganito ay hindi pa rin sapat iyon para kumalma ako. Oo nga at may pasok pa ako mamayang umaga. Kaya lang, hirap talaga akong pilitin ang sarili ko na makatulog na.

Ayaw yata akong patahimikin ng isip ko, eh.

What is this "journaling gap"?

What happened within the decade of my journaling gap?

Yes, it's a weird intro. I couldn't think of a simpler one at the moment. Or maybe I should call this entry "My Journaling Gap" instead to make it more ambiguous. And possibly even make it sound... mysterious? Okay, that's a weird way to put it.

For those who are new to this page, welcome. Hi, my name is Florence Joyce. That's my full given name, in case you're curious. Or maybe not. You may probably find it strange that I wrote my entry this way as if I'm talking to a bunch of strangers outside. Or it could even look like as if I was talking in front of a camera. You know, like in a vlog. Though I like the idea a lot, I was never the person who liked doing either of them. An INFP-T here, by the way. The letter "I" gives you the idea of what is my personality already.

i'll hold on to you 98 - excitement

[Brent]

I knew it was a bit of a bad idea. Pero matagal nang gustong makilala ni Tita Marie si Relaina. Matagal na rin akong inaasar at tinutukso ni Tita pagdating sa progress ng ginagawa kong “panliligaw” kay Relaina.

Though if I were going to be honest, hindi ko alam kung tama bang sabihin na panliligaw nga ang ginagawa ko pagdating kay Relaina. I would definitely call that crazy, you know.

Pagkatapos kong ihatid si Relaina sa bahay nito ay agad na akong dumiretso pauwi. But instead of heading to the ancestral house, naisipan ko na lang na magtungo sa flower farm ni Tita Marie.

Kaya lang, nagpunta pala sa kabilang bayan si Tita dahil may kailangan daw itong kausapin. Pero nagtungo pa rin ako sa loob ng bahay nito dahil pagod na rin ako at gusto kong magpahinga kahit na pansamantala lang.

Souji (Kyoryuger)/Fuuka (Ninninger): Always Be Here

 

Even when everything seems hopeless for both of us, never forget that I'll always be there when you need me... ~ Florence Joyce

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Things had settled in -- at least for a little. But Fuuka was aware that the danger of that monster that attacked her and the other Super Sentai members was still there. They knew they had to do something to put a stop to it once and for all. However, there had been some problems.

Nishiori Sakura, a member of the Boukenger as Bouken Pink, informed her and Souji that it wasn't just one monster who made it an agenda to take down Super Sentai members. It turned out that there were five of them. By far, they've encountered two of them.

At the moment, Fuuka was outside the room inside the Yuuzuki mansion where she was staying at in the meantime as she was trying to recover. Her injuries didn't hurt that much anymore, but Souji suggested that she should continue resting just to make sure her injuries would heal properly. Not that she should do more to actually help anyone in her situation at the moment.

i'll hold on to you 97 - walking home

[Relaina]

Kahit na anong pangungulit sa akin ni Brent, hindi ko sinabi rito ang totoong dahilan kung bakit wala ako sa sarili ko nitong mga nakaraang araw. As if I could easily blurt out the fact that he was the reason for me to feel that way. Hindi pa ako nasisiraan ng bait, 'no?

Isa pa, mahal ko pa ang puso ko. Tama na ang pagpapahirap na ginagawa ng lalaking iyon sa puso ko kahit na tinitingnan ko lang ito.

"Salamat nga pala sa paghatid mo sa akin hanggang dito sa bahay," umpisa ko para lang maputol ang katahimikang nakapalibot sa aming dalawa the whole time na naglalakad lang kami.

Siyempre pa, walang pasubaling hinawakan ni Brent ang libreng kamay ko. Nasa isang kamay ko naman ang white carnation bouquet na ibinigay nito sa akin.

i'll hold on to you 96 - while having lunch

[Relaina]

Nakita ko na lang ang sarili ko na sinasamahan si Brent sa restaurant na katabi lang ng coffee shop na madalas kong puntahan. I could understand why he wanted the two of us to eat here. Hindi man ako madalas magpunta rito para kumain pero alam ko kung gaano kasarap ang mga pagkaing inihahain dito.

But I also knew another reason why he wanted us to go there.

This place had the most amazing view even at noon and at its peak hours. And apparently, it was Brent’s priority at the time he decided that we had lunch in this place.

“Galit ka lang ba sa akin at ganyan karaming pagkain ang gusto mong ipakain sa akin ngayon, ha?” salubong ko kay Brent na may dalang dalawang tray sa magkabila nitong kamay.

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 25 - Keeping You Safe

The question has been lingering in Sari’s mind since the day Lim Inhyuk gave him Professor Park's last letter and old notes remained even after two weeks had passed. Only Sejin knew about the old notes for now, but the others already knew about the letter. It was a given that Seoha and Riyoung were shocked to find out that Sari’s father and Professor Park had some beef in the past. Whatever the reason for the falling out was, though, they still had no idea what.

She was in her apartment once again, reading more about the serial killer that terrorized Huijin in the past and also the recent reported killings of that presumably same killer. She still couldn't understand how her mother's death got linked to that person somehow. There was something she missed about the whole thing and she knew that. The murderer had been so elusive for too long. They just weren't catching up to him or his accomplices. If she could catch the culprits before any further murders occurred, then she would be able to put an end to this all at once.

"Yeah, right. As if I could do that. I'm already having a hard time trying to find my dad. And now I want to find a guy who's been out for blood for so long?" Something strange was going on in her mind that she ended up wanting to know more about the serial killer.

He had to have a story behind his actions, didn't he? It couldn't be so coincidental if it happened during her childhood. So why did she never think about finding out about him until recently? It wasn't something Sarina liked to dwell upon too much.

i'll hold on to you 95 - small talk

[Relaina]

I never thought I would be seen in such a state. Hindi ko naman inaasahan na magpupunta roon sa treehouse si Brent. Pero agad ko ring naalala ang sinabi ni Manong Sorbetero noong unang beses kaming kumain ng ice cream ni Brent na madalas na tumambay sa cliffside at sa treehouse ang lalaking iyon kahit noong bata pa ito.

But I couldn't help wondering if he was doing that to clear his mind. Gaya ng ginagawa ko ng mga sandaling iyon na pagtambay sa cove malapit sa cliffside para mag-isip. It would be fun to think about if it was like that.

At the end of that unexpected phone call, sinabi ni Brent na hintayin ko raw ito sa kinapupuwestuhan ko at pupuntahan daw ako nito. Honestly, I had the urge to run away from them the moment he said that.

Pero hindi ko ginawa. Wala naman akong dahilan para tumakas mula rito, eh. Ang sarili ko lang ang kinakalaban ko at niloloko ko kapag ginawa ko nga iyon.

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 24 - Visitor

Both Sari and Sejin didn't know what to think when they saw a man standing in front of her apartment. But perhaps the most shocking thing to realize was that the man was none other than Professor Park's assistant.

Then again, what was he doing here?

"I'm sorry for barging in all of a sudden," he started and bowed.

"It's alright. It's true that it was sudden, but we don't mind," Sari said.

i'll hold on to you 94 - mulling over

[Relaina]

Hindi ko naman talaga ugali ang magmuni-muni nang ganito katagal pagdating sa ibang bagay, sa totoo lang. Pero wala na talaga akong ibang pagpipilian kundi ang lumayo muna sa ibang tao at mag-isip-isip. Hindi ko na nga alam kung paano pa ako naka-survive ng isa pang linggo na hindi nasisiraan ng bait, eh.

At least, the school week went well. Hindi ko na nga masyadong pinagtuunan ng pansin ang nangyari noong unang araw ng pasukan, eh. No thanks to that Marjie. Thank goodness na hindi na ako tinangkang guluhin ng bruhang babaeng iyon.

Oo na. Manlalait na ako rito. Tutal, hindi naman ako maririnig n’on. She nearly made my first day worse. Kung hindi dahil kay Brent at kay Ate Katrina, baka hindi na ako nakapagpigil at binasag ko na ang mukha ng sira-ulong babaeng iyon. Mabuti na lang talaga at may dumating na milagrong nagpigil sa akin na maging bayolente.

Linggo ng araw na iyon. Wala naman akong mga assignment na kailangang asikasuhin pa dahil nagawa ko namang tapusin iyon kagabi. Sinadya ko talagang gawing libre ang araw na iyon para makapag-isip. I didn’t care if I had to do it all day.

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 23 - To Help You

Sari covered her face with her palms as she exhaled. She was at the park that morning and had just finished her morning run. But it seemed that even jogging wasn't enough to clear her mind from all the thoughts that bothered her over the past few days.

And now the photos that Professor Geunhee gave her the other day began occupying her mind, as well. She hadn't talked to anyone about what she had just seen that day. She felt that, at the moment, she didn't have the need to tell them anything. Not when everything was beginning to get confusing for her.

"You're out here again."

She raised her head to the source of that voice, only to be surprised to see Professor Soohoon approaching her. He seemed to be doing his own morning run, as well.

i'll hold on to you 93 - don't give up on her

[Brent]

Okay. Here was my question. Did I go too far when I said that to her? Alam kong hindi ko dapat kinukuwestiyon ang mga nasabi ko na kay Relaina dahil kahit saan man tingnan, totoo ang mga sinabi ko rito.

Gagawin ko ang lahat para patunayan sa amasonang babaeng iyon na hindi ako nagbibiro sa mga nasabi ko na rito tungkol sa nararamdaman ko. Oo, maituturing pa ring biglaan iyon kahit sabihin pang matagal na rin kaming malapit ni Relaina. Pero napilitan akong sabihin ang mga iyon, eh.

And to think I ended up saying those feelings of mine para lang tigilan na ng sira-ulong Marjie na iyon si Relaina. Kung bakit ba naman kasi ako lapitin ng mga baliw at sira-ulong mga babae. At this point, naiisip kong may kahalong sumpa yata ang charm ng mga Rialande na namana ko sa mga ito.

‘Oy, Mr. Brent Allen Montreal. Dahan-dahan lang sa pagiging hambog. Kaya ka nasusuntok ni Relaina dahil sa hangin ng utak mo, eh,’ banat ng isang bahagi ng isip ko na ikinatawa ko na lang.

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 22 - Similarities

When Sari decided to go to Detective Seo to ask for his help and also his opinion about the pictures she unexpectedly found a few days after the confrontation she had with Professor Park and the three girls, she never thought she'd discover something unexpected.

Her father had long been aware of Professor Soohoon's past life. She didn't know how he realized that, but it seemed that he mentioned about her finding Kang Chulsoo. That man was Professor Soohoon and Professor Geunhee's father.

And to think that man — the person jokingly referred to by her friends as old man Kang — was the one who helped him with the issue about Professor Park and created that engagement lie just so she would use that as an excuse to see Professor Soohoon more often.

True, she hadn't intended to prolong the meeting and extend it to more than just acquaintances. But fate seemed to have other plans for her and the young professor.

i'll hold on to you 92 - staying consistent

[Relaina]

I’d really like to think that this guy was spouting nonsense again. Pero hindi iyon ang nakikita ko sa mga kilos ni Brent ng mga sandaling iyon. Hindi rin iyon ang nakikita ko sa mga mata nito. I knew this guy when he was serious.

At ng mga sandaling iyon, iba ang kaseryosohang nakita ko rito.

“So ang gusto mong sabihin sa akin ngayon, kay Relaina mo lang sinabi ang mga salitang iyon, ha?” naghihinakit na tanong ni Marjie.

Kung hindi pa ito nagsalita ay hindi pa magbabalik sa realidad ang isip ko.

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 21 - Notes On The Photos

Sari’s mind was still running about even as she had a good night's sleep and was able to finish taking notes with regards to her job and other things related to her father. However, what she found the other night was stirring her mind with thoughts and speculations.

'How did Dad come in possession of those pictures, anyway?' Then again, it was something she could only ask herself as the person who should be giving her those answers wasn't here at all.

And so she went to the only place who might have the answer to some of her questions. To the precinct where the only officer she knew was stationed.

Detective Seo Jinho — Sejin’s fiance.

Aruto (KR Zero-One)/Asuna (Ryusoulger): While Waiting For The Fireworks

 

My heart still yearns to have a glimpse of you... ~ Florence Joyce

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The fireworks display was supposed to happen on that day. Asuna had been waiting for it for days. Well, she had reasons. Unfortunately, those reasons remained unsaid even as her friends kept pressuring her to blurt it out.

She sighed and looked at the sky. The colors were vibrant and the air smelled sweet with a few hints of burning wood and oil. As always, the atmosphere was filled with an excitement. There seemed to be no end to it -- nothing that couldn't be achieved through fire.

But the sigh she released actually meant something different. One that concealed the longing she felt ever since leaving the place that changed her life before. It was a secret that she never ever mentioned to her friends, and it was something she could never tell.

A Home In You Pt. 2

Standard disclaimer applies. Enjoy reading!

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He was planning to make love to her on the wall of that small space. And he didn't mind. Not that he cared as this was the first time after a long while since they last made love that he was planning on taking her like this again.

"You really miss me, huh? You miss being inside of me..." she teased as she enjoyed his deep kisses on her. He nodded slightly and pulled back from their kiss.

Towa (Ryusoulger)/Hammie (Kyuranger): Back To That Day

 

I really want to go back to that day. I really want to meet you once again... ~ From the Japanese song "Yozora (Night Sky)" by miwa ft. Hazzie

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When one would look up to the sky, a lot of things would often run in their minds. They could be good things, happy things, sometimes bad things, sad things... Not many people would easily put a stop to those thoughts, especially if they lingered in their minds long enough that it carved itself a place there to live into.

But for Towa, the sky held the memories of the girl he didn't even expect to meet in one of his travels. Then again, it was unlike him to meet a lot of them anywhere as he was dedicated to his duties as a Ryusoulger. As a Knight.

But the world sure held a lot of surprises that even he couldn't fathom despite living so long. A lot of them had given him happy memories to remember, even with that girl was nowhere to be seen now.

i'll hold on to you 91 - first day of school... again

[Relaina]

“Sigurado ka bang okay ka na? Wala ka na bang nakalimutan?”

Kulang na lang talaga ay bumuga na ako ng pagkalakas-lakas na hangin dahil sa kakulitan lang naman ng lalaking nasa tabi ko ng mga sandaling iyon.

It was finally the first day of school for that semester. It was supposed to be my second year now. Pero dahil nga nagpalit ako ng kurso, irregular 1st year college student na ako. May mga ilang subjects kasi akong kinuha last year na sakop ng kursong kinukuha ko ngayon. Kaya sa ngayon, karamihan ng mga subjects ko ay maikokonsidera ko nang major subjects. Hindi na muna ako kumuha ng minor subjects dahil ayokong bigyan ng pressure ang sarili ko.

Mabuti na lang talaga at wala nang problema sa katawan ko pagkatapos ng lahat ng mga nangyari. At sa mga sandaling ito, wala na akong magiging problema sa pagpasok sa university.

🔅REPOSTED🔅

This is how I illustrated Miyuzaki Kana several years back from the Prince of Tennis (Oishi/OC focused) fanfic I wrote titled "Promised Love In Autumn". This was the third of the season-inspired romance fanfiction series "Seasons of Chances and Love". Yes, this character was the basis of another TLSOTE character with the same name. In the story, Kana has always been known as Oishi's childhood friend. But deep inside for a long time, she couldn't help wishing for something much more between them. You can read it on my Wattpad and FanFiction.Net accounts (both use dreamcoloredgift as its username).

🔅REPOSTED🔅

This is how I illustrated Yumemiya Miyako several years back from the Prince of Tennis (Fuji/OC focused) fanfic I wrote titled "Perfect Love In Summer". This was the second of the season-inspired romance fanfiction series "Seasons of Chances and Love". Yes, this character was the basis of a Shrouded Flowers character with the same name. In the story, Miyako is a famous singer in Seigaku and unknowingly, the famous author Aino Nadeshiko. Her quiet and secretive nature had, of course, long caught the attention of the tensai of the Seigaku Regulars. But her past and a tragic event from two years ago prevented her from fully acknowledging his intentions for her. You can read it on my Wattpad and FanFiction.Net accounts (both use dreamcoloredgift as its username).

🔅REPOSTED🔅

This is how I illustrated Hondou Kazumi several years back from the Prince of Tennis (Tezuka/OC focused) fanfic I wrote titled "Classic Love In Spring". This was the first of the season-inspired romance fanfiction series "Seasons of Chances and Love". In the story, Kazumi came from a family of musicians who came back to Seigaku after two years of staying in Vienna. But upon her return, it was also expected that shd would cross paths with someone from her past that she unwillingly left behind. You can read it on my Wattpad and FanFiction.Net accounts (both use dreamcoloredgift as its username).

Best friends in your WIP

This may be late, but I'll do my best to catch up. This aesthetic is about the childhood friends Hoshiyama Erika and Tennouji Helen of Reiyouki Sentai Seitenger. Yes, it was later learned that both actually hold the power to manipulate light. And it was one reason why they become even closer as friends and comrades and bonded even stronger than how they were when they first met in their childhood.

i'll hold on to you 90 - both grateful

[Relaina]

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko talaga alam kung ano na ang dapat kong isipin. I just met Brent’s little brother for the first time. He was the one who approached me all of a sudden, by the way. Here was the catch, though.

Ito pa talaga ang nag-invite sa akin na pumunta kami sa coffee shop at doon mag-usap tungkol sa anumang pag-aalalang nararamdaman ko para kay Brent. If I were going to be honest, I really needed that talk. Hindi ko muna ginustong istorbuhin si Mayu dahil alam kong may mga kailangan din itong asikasuhin sa bahay nito.

Tama na ang panggugulong nagawa ko rito nang maaksidente ako.

Pareho na kaming nakapag-order ng choice of coffee namin at pati na rin ng pastries na available sa shop nang araw na iyon. Si Andz na ang hinayaan kong mamili ng mauupuan namin sa second floor. Wala raw magiging istorbo roon kapag doon kami pansamantalang tumambay habang inuubos namin ang mga inorder naming kape.

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 20 - News Of The Murder

"That's a joke, right?"

But Sari just sighed and slumped on the chair she sat in that cafe, as if feeling deflated with all the events that had happened that day. When the ordeal was dealt with, she immediately called her friends and asked them to meet up with her somewhere.

"I really wish it was just a joke or some prank. But that's what happened there," Sari said in response to Riyoung's comment after telling them the events that had occurred in the principal's office.

"I know old man Kang was someone cunning, but not to this point, though," Sejin commented and looked at Sari. "By the way, how are you feeling after that?"

Our Memory Of The Dawn 8 - Make It Work Out

It has been a while since the rest of the Narnians saw what Amy and Edmund had seen while they were at the top of the How. Edmund even had to go back inside to call on his brother and inform him of the Telmarines' arrival near the How. Numbers alone, they were clearly outnumbered. Not to mention, the weapons they brought to the site that would surely put the rest of them to a disadvantage.

But this was clearly not the time for them to falter. They've made it this far. This was a war that they clearly had to win to finally free the Narnians once and for all.

After watching that display of arrival, the Narnians — with Peter's permission — decided to send out an envoy to deliver a message to King Miraz with regards to a proposed duel with the High King Peter himself. The whole time, Amy had only listened to the discussion and didn't voice out any of her thoughts about the proposal. But she knew that this was the only way they could acquire what they wanted personally. If worse comes to worst, of course, they had to prepare themselves for an all-out war.

i'll hold on to you 89 - the little brother

 [Relaina]

The day before the first day of school for that semester.

Huminga ako nang malalim nang makalabas na ako sa hospital building kung saan naroon ang opisina ni Dra. Fate. Nagpunta ako roon para magpa-check up dahil gusto kong siguraduhin na okay na ako kapag pumasok na ako sa university kinabukasan. Isa pa, isa iyon sa ibinilin sa akin ni Doktora bago ako na-discharged.

Mabuti na lang at wala na silang nakitang anumang problema sa akin. Laking-pasalamat ko talaga na wala na akong aalalahanin pa kapag pumasok na ako. Makakakilos na ako ulit nang maayos.

Pero kahit naman sabihin ko sa sarili ko na wala na akong aalalahanin, may isa pa ring sumisingit sa utak ko. Dapat ko pa bang sabihin kung sino?

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 19 - Announcement

The question that Sari dropped all of a sudden made Professor Park glared at her hard. But she didn't faze. In fact, she looked at him hard ㅡ the same way her father would've done to those who would question him.

She remembered that her father used to mention a certain friend whom he parted ways with because of their clashing priorities and beliefs. But she was still young when her father mentioned it to her. And she recalled that a lot of people would always say that she looked a lot like her father.

"What are you talking about? And what made you say that I know your father?"

Sari took a deep breath before speaking. "First and foremost, you avoided my gaze when I mentioned my father's name before you glared at me. Second, there was never a time since I started working here as Professor Kang Geunhee's assistant that you wouldn't approach me and tell me things like 'you don't belong here' or 'you'd better quit your job if you know what's good for you'. And third, I don't recall ever doing something bad to you to get such a treatment."

【open letter】Dear Future Me

I know I wrote something about this the last time. Not sure what year. Pero... sana kapag nabasa mo 'to, regardless of the amount of time that passed since I wrote this, marami ka nang na-achieve. May mga nakasama ka nang mga kaibigan na talaga namang tumulong at tumutulong sa 'yo na maayos ang buhay mo, gaya ng madalas mong sabihin sa sarili mo.

Grabe... May boyfriend ka na kaya kapag nabasa mo 'to? O 'di kaya maayos na trabaho? Iyong may steady income para magawa mong bilhin ang mga gusto mo. Iyon kasi ang isang dahilan kung bakit wala pa rin akong nagagawang matino para sa sarili ko. Sana kapag nabasa mo ito some time in the future, may nabago na kahit papaano sa buhay mo.

Sana... makilala mo na yung taong handa kang makasama at mahalin kahit na anong mangyari. Yung kaya kang suportahan sa mga pangarap mo. Sa kagustuhan mong maging writer at sikat na author. Oo, madalas kong sabihin noon sa sarili ko na sakit lang sa ulo ang pag-ibig at magkaka-boyfriend lang ako kapag nagawa ko nang ayusin ang buhay ko. Pero sana... mawala na yung mindset na iyon one day. Naniniwala pa rin naman ako sa right love na darating. I hope ganoon ka rin.

Wishing you a good life ahead,

31-year-old Florence Joyce

i'll hold on to you 88 - contemplation as he sleeps

[Relaina]

“Can I sleep on your lap?”

Okay. That question definitely threw me off guard, to be honest. Ilang sandali rin akong hindi nakapag-react nang maayos sa narinig ko. Oo, alam kong inaantok na ang lokong ito. Pero, hello! He was seriously asking that?

“Hoy, Mr. Montreal! Ano na namang klaseng masamang hangin ang pumasok sa utak mo at naisipan mong itanong iyan, ha?” hindi ko tuloy napigilang itanong dito.

Hawak pa rin nito ang kamay ko. I didn’t mind that, though. I did love the warmth of his hand on mine, after all. Kahit na wala akong planong sabihin iyon dito. Pero tiningnan lang ako ni Brent at mukhang hinihintay ang isasagot ko sa tanong nito.

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 18 - Confrontation

"From the look on your face, this seems to be the first time you've seen this, huh?"

Sari looked at Professor Soohoon who was still flipping to some of the pages with her and would see similar sketches to that of the professor's. It was indeed confusing that something like this had happened. But each of the pages had her father's signature and the date that they were finished.

So she knew that this wasn't a hoax.

The fact that her father would draw something so detailed but not show it to her made her curious as well. But there was no way she'd ask him about it because he was still missing. She had to figure out the answer alone.

i'll hold on to you 87 - laughter

[Relaina]

Hindi ko alam kung may dapat ba akong katakutan sa paraan ng pagtatanong sa akin ni Brent tungkol sa half-brother ko. Then again, if it was out of curiosity, perhaps I could give him a decent answer. Ang problema ko lang, paano ko ipapaliwanag sa lalaking ito ang sitwasyon ng pamilya ko?

Ilang sandali rin akong nag-alangan kung paano ko ba uumpisahan ang magiging kuwento ko. Napakamot pa ako ng ulo dahil magulo ang takbo ng utak ko sa kaiisip ng gagawin para maumpisahan na ang usapan. Pero nang makapagdesisyon naman na ako —-

“Sorry…” Brent said and approached me, much to my surprise. Ipinatong nito ang isang kamay nito sa ulo ko makalipas ang ilang sandaling pagtitig sa akin.

Ipinagtaka ko iyon. Pero hanggang tingin lang ang ginawa ko rito bago ako nagsalita. “Bakit ka nagso-sorry?”

Lives Beyond Those Eyes 17 - Sketchbooks

"What are you doing here, Professor?" Sari could only ask that as she was still surprised to see Professor Soohoon inside Gangbeodeul University and within the office of his sister, at that.

Professor Soohoon sighed as he put down the letter that he was reading and soon approached her and Professor Geunhee.

"It looks like the news has reached you so fast, huh?" Professor Geunhee commented.

"Since this morning. And we all know who's behind this just to get back at me and use this to make sure the principal would lose face."

i'll hold on to you 86 - missing the presence

[Relaina]

Two days had passed since I was discharged from the hospital. Kahit papaano ay nakakakilos na ako nang normal at wala na akong masyadong iniindang sakit sa katawan dala ng mga nasirang buto sa akin. Though Dra. Fate said that they were able to fix the broken bones I sustained because of the incident, I still had to be very careful about my movements.

Hindi pa ako masyadong pinapayagan nina Mama at Papa na lumabas ng bahay maliban na lang kung sa garden lang. Siyempre pa, bored ako dahil wala akong masyadong ginagawa rito sa bahay. Then again, kailangan kong sumunod sa utos ng doktor para na rin sa ikagagaling ko.

Hindi masyadong tumatambay si Mayu rito sa amin dahil kinailangan nitong mag-stay sa mga magulang nito at samahan ang mga ito bago umalis ulit at bumalik sa trabaho. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan kung bakit hindi na lang magpa-transfer sina Tito at Tita rito sa Altiera para hindi na nalalayo ang mga ito sa anak.

But it seemed that Mayu didn't mind the distance. At mukhang ganoon din ang mga magulang nito dahil confident ang mga ito na may nag-aasikaso sa anak ng mga ito. Pero sana, maisip naman ng mga ito na kailangan din sila ni Mayu.