Life Updates Since My Last Post

Hi, guys! Welcome back to my blog!

It’s a mess… My weeks recently have been such a mess that it actually ruined my concentration in writing more often than I intended to. I know I haven’t posted here for many days and to be honest, I have no proper excuse for that. It’s either I was lazy, I forgot or I couldn’t force myself to write anything at all.

Lame excuses to some. But I’ve been having a writing rut during those days (maybe even weeks that I haven’t updated. The more I force myself, the words that would come out would feel like crap to me.

Many people would say that it’s okay, that things would get better. And honestly, I believe that. But at the back of my mind, everything feels like crap. It only gave me more dissatisfaction. After that, it would frustrate the heck out of me. It’s crazy!

In any case, let’s go back to the topic of life update:

Where To Start

Hi, guys! I'm Florence and welcome back to my page.

(Still in the feeling of imagining what it's actually like to greet people in front of the camera, even when I'm camera-shy IRL.)

This is a strange introduction for a blog post, I know. And I also know that I haven't posted in two scheduled dates, only because I have no idea what to post at the time. Things had been stressful for me during those days and I don't want to put pressure on myself when writing something for this page. So I decided not to post anything in those two days.

Honestly, I have no idea what to post here even as I'm writing this. Okay, maybe that was a bit of a lie. I have lots of things and ideas to talk about here. Things that I've been wanting to discuss with someone. Things that bothered me a lot that I wanted to bring out and maybe it would lead to something.

Am I just imagining things here? Am I just overthinking and hopelessly wishing that someone would understand them? That there would be strangers who would understand them? Can I be a 'relatable' person that people would listen to, read about, or watch to at some point?

Journaling Gap: 2009 and 2010

Hi, guys! Welcome back to my page.

I know I didn't provide an update last Monday. But that's because I'm still trying to navigate what to write about and what to post on that day. Even when I said that I would make my Sundays #SundayStories and thoughts-related entries on #ThursdayThoughts, like this one.

Sunday Stories (originally planned to be posted on Mondays) will be a segment about the stories I wrote, currently writing, and will write sometime soon or in the future. So yes, I'd also be posting stories here that I never posted in any writing platforms I signed up to.

I'm still in the middle of debating if I want to actually keep up with doing that.

Anyways...

What is this "journaling gap"?

What happened within the decade of my journaling gap?

Yes, it's a weird intro. I couldn't think of a simpler one at the moment. Or maybe I should call this entry "My Journaling Gap" instead to make it more ambiguous. And possibly even make it sound... mysterious? Okay, that's a weird way to put it.

For those who are new to this page, welcome. Hi, my name is Florence Joyce. That's my full given name, in case you're curious. Or maybe not. You may probably find it strange that I wrote my entry this way as if I'm talking to a bunch of strangers outside. Or it could even look like as if I was talking in front of a camera. You know, like in a vlog. Though I like the idea a lot, I was never the person who liked doing either of them. An INFP-T here, by the way. The letter "I" gives you the idea of what is my personality already.

Dear Future Me

I know I wrote something about this the last time. Not sure what year. Pero... sana kapag nabasa mo 'to, regardless of the amount of time that passed since I wrote this, marami ka nang na-achieve. May mga nakasama ka nang mga kaibigan na talaga namang tumulong at tumutulong sa 'yo na maayos ang buhay mo, gaya ng madalas mong sabihin sa sarili mo.

Grabe... May boyfriend ka na kaya kapag nabasa mo 'to? O 'di kaya maayos na trabaho? Iyong may steady income para magawa mong bilhin ang mga gusto mo. Iyon kasi ang isang dahilan kung bakit wala pa rin akong nagagawang matino para sa sarili ko. Sana kapag nabasa mo ito some time in the future, may nabago na kahit papaano sa buhay mo.

Sana... makilala mo na yung taong handa kang makasama at mahalin kahit na anong mangyari. Yung kaya kang suportahan sa mga pangarap mo. Sa kagustuhan mong maging writer at sikat na author. Oo, madalas kong sabihin noon sa sarili ko na sakit lang sa ulo ang pag-ibig at magkaka-boyfriend lang ako kapag nagawa ko nang ayusin ang buhay ko. Pero sana... mawala na yung mindset na iyon one day. Naniniwala pa rin naman ako sa right love na darating. I hope ganoon ka rin.

Wishing you a good life ahead,

31-year-old Florence Joyce

So I'm 31... And Had Just Reached Another Journaling Milestone

Hi, everyone. Welcome to my blog.

Okay, this turned out to be weird with that introduction. Why am I writing this as if I'm imagining myself saying this in a video or something. Or maybe that's just me.

In any case, as you can see by the picture I included here, it is my 900th day of daily journaling! And yes, this post was 3 days late, basing it on the date I placed on the picture. But it's better late than never, right? So here I am.

So I'm 31... And This Is The Real Me

When someone posts to their social media accounts, we all want it to be perfect. To show the best part of ourselves that we want to show to the world. To stand out for just a little bit more than the rest of us. So we make our posts.

We post our stories about how happy we are in every picture we send on the internet. We even take photos and put them up with hashtags and tags and everything else that makes us famous for who we are. Okay, maybe the word 'recognized' would be the most appropriate word for that.

Anyway, we show them that part of ourselves to the point that... we end up lying to ourselves that this should just be the 'us' that people know. That's when the lies come. The lies start spreading like wildfire through social media until they become something that people don't care about as much as they once thought. And because there aren't any people who really know us at first, there aren't very many people who are interested in our story at all. 

So I'm 31... and I'm giving an update after a long while

It's a weird title, I know. But I've been planning to create a series of blog posts here with the starting title "So I'm 31..." somehow.

Happy New Year, everyone! How is it going? I hope you greeted the new year with big hope and lovely smiles. Well, we still don't know what the year holds for us. But even so, this is the time that we can do something to make a change to ourselves.

At least, that's what I did even before the year started. To be specific, I made a goal around the second week of December. That's why I couldn't post anything here.

That's one of the reasons, at least. The other reason is that I couldn't think of a good content to post here. It might be a lame excuse, but my mind is definitely somewhere else and I focused more on setting up my goal for this year and other things.

Let's break it down, shall we?