What I Read In June 2021

I know I don't usually do this. But because I subscribed to a few Booktube channels on Youtube, for some reason, I ended up deciding to do this instead of a video. Reason? First and foremost, it'll be easier for me since I'm not exactly into recording myself in a video, anyway. I was never confident in doing that. Second, I just want to compile all my book comments for this month into one single blog post, even though I don't have a lot of books to feature here, anyway. And third, maybe this will motivate me to read more once again.

Honestly speaking, I love reading and it's what motivated me to write stories when I was in high school. My writing endeavors actually started when I was in 6th grade, but my inspiration at the time were my dreams (like, literal dreams from my sleep) and a bunch of anime I've watched. And possibly my crush at the time, as well. Did I actually add that particular fact? I'm laughing inside as I wrote that particular part. Maybe one time, I'll mention him here, regardless of the fact that he would be able to read it or not.

Okay, I think my introduction here turned out to be longer than I intend it to be. But I guess that's okay, right? Nothing wrong with that. I have to say that this month is a good start for me in terms of reading books since I haven't been able to do so in a long while, even when the quarantine started hitting us hard, big time. I bought a few more books even with all the chaos going on around. And yet, they just remained on my shelf. Bad idea, I know.

In any case, here are the books I was able to read this month. A classic English children's book (no judging, please), a Tagalog pocketbook, and the first volume of a light novel I read online. So what do I think about them? I think I should do it in order of the time I got to finish reading them. Just a reminder: My book comments aren't exactly that as deep as those you'd find in Booktube community or even on other book bloggers. I write what I think about them ~ no matter how limited it might be. I just don't want to force myself to writing pretty stuff when trying to explain myself, if you know what I mean.

The Sunday Currently | 32 |

Late night writing this, but it's okay. So this entry will make me reach my SC entry quota for this month. Yehey! Sorry for that. I'm just glad that I reached my quota, even with the lack of proper devices to use in order for me to post entries like this here in my blog. I know that not many (if not, no one at all) read my blog. But I still like to post things here. The same way that no one reads my journal except for me, and yet I still write a lot of stuff in it. Rantings, frustrations, dreams... Things like that.

So today is the last Sunday of the month. Then again, it doesn't really make any difference to me, for some reason. Or maybe because I was still frustrated about some other stuff today that made me feel that way. In any case, let's start jotting down things for this SC entry.

Here we go!

So for this Sunday, I'm currently:

The lyrics which moves you most are...

I don't know why, but I'm deciding to write about 7-10 lyrics that answers this prompt. I listen to a lot of songs -- most of which were ballads -- and there are indeed a lot of those lyrics that move or affect me a lot. I'm going to write here the lyrics and a few (possibly short) explanation as why these lyrics would move me.

The Sunday Currently | 31 |

What a rainy Sunday night we have. Then again, since it was kind of hot during the day, this rain helped dropped the temperature a bit. I'm glad about that, by the way. It's a little crazy that I had the urge to actually write on this SC entry even though at one part of my mind, I don't really feel like it. Just like what happened last month. But I do intend to do majority of my goals for this month. Though it's going to be tough, I just want to finish doing this.

So let's get on with it, right?

This Sunday, I'm currently:

List 10 things you hope to be remembered for.

Honestly speaking, I still have no idea how to answer this one. But I'd like to try doing so.

1. A person who's creative and loves what I do.

2. A person who could read through another person's heart (though this is something I'd like to acquire ― like an empath of some sort)

3. Someone who never gave up on writing to reach to people.

4. Someone who'd do anything (good things) for the sake of the one I love.

5. Always there to rely on, not just for errands and chores.

6. Someone whose words can truly touch people's hearts, regardless of the language barrier.

7. A person who would do my best in a subtle way.

8. A person who people would love so much and is willing to help to the best of my abilities.

9. Someone who loves eating marshmallows as a way to de-stress.

10. A hopeless romantic person, and still someone logical enough about giving out the love that's meant for the person I choose to be with.

I know that some of my answers here might not make any sense. But this is me ― at least for now. And this is how I think at the moment. It might make sense to me now and would reflect my and my way of thinking. But it might not be the same in the next coming days or years. The pandemic changed my way of thinking drastically ― at least, a little drastic for my taste. So I guess it also affected how my thoughts flowed at this point.

Anyway, we'll still see what would happen in the near future, right? And it would also depend on my choices today.

The Sunday Currently | 30 |

I didn't get to fulfill my goal last month of writing at least 2 SC entries. So let's try this month, okay? I'm still eating a late dinner as I write this. And I'd rather finish this first before writing on my journal later. Let's get on with it!

So this Sunday, I'm currently:

If This Goodbye

I actually came up with this while thinking of the plot for another planned story featuring a gay ghost and his two friends who never even knew he died a long time ago. In any case, this was supposed to be lyrics for a song during the parting scene. But since I don't know how to write lyrics, let alone compose a song, I chose to do it like this instead -- the format that, at least, I'm quite familiar with.

This is a free verse poem, by the way. I'll mention about that story once again once I have it started.

If this goodbye
is so hard to even speak of
How will I erase this lingering pain
that is about you?

We had this chance again
to live in our memories
Once buried in our resentments
and misunderstandings
Despite that, reality will continue
to tell me the painful truth

So if this goodbye
is what's needed
to set us free
No matter how much
it will hurt
Regardless of the tears
that will flow
Then I'll say it to you
with conviction

In hopes that in one
of our lifetimes,
The one path we once
walked on together
Will shine once more
To allow us to continue
our pending story

So that this time,
fate won't separate us
ever again
Until then, let me live
in this hurt that stays
Ever since I realized
that this life
will never bring you
back to me anymore...