29 turning 30 years... That's how long it's been, huh? That's how long you've been such an amazing mother to me. I know I can be really annoying, irritating, frustrating, hardheaded (at least sometimes). Not that I'm proud of that. But it seems that I grew up learning things on my own most of the time. At some point, I know I let my pride rule over me to not ask for your guidance or help unless I deem it necessary. It's a really weird mindset of mine that, until now, I can't seem to remove.
And yet, even with that, I still want to thank you.
Thank you for still listening to my selfish wishes. Thank you for being there for me, regardless of the fact that I rarely come to you to ask for anything. Thank you for a lot of advice that, most of the time, I tend not to listen to them. I don't who or what to blame for that part, though. Even still, thank you for so many things I learned from you.
I'm sorry... for being a hard person to deal with sometimes. I'm sorry for being a stubborn woman who can't seem to make a firm decision since the time I noticed how my life is falling apart in front of me, even with your presence. I'm sorry for being a continuous disappointment because of my decisions. I'm trying . I'm doing what I can. But several negative thoughts that had haunted me for so many years would always do its best to cripple me. I was never proud of myself. And yet here you are, still saying that you are to me.
I don't know what will happen in the next years. But let's have faith. At least, I'd like to have one for myself that something will change this year. You've always have one for me and I'll always be thankful for that.
I love you, and thank you. I'm always thanking the heavens that you're my mother all those years.
Happy Mother's Day!
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