Good evening!
Well, this is new. Greeting everyone like this. I’m not sure if I could keep up with doing this, though. anyway, I’ll try to do so. But I surely can’t promise anything about this. It’s kind of tough doing it, to be honest. Especially now that things are a little unsure for me that I can’t think of anything worthy for quite a while now.
Wait! Did that even make any sense at all? I have a feeling that it didn’t. Sorry for that.
Seriously, I am not going to ask anymore about the last time I wrote a Sunday Currently entry. ‘Cause honestly, I grew tired of doing that for now. I’ve never actually maintained a blog in my life and by now, I’m sure I’ve already lost what few “readers” I have—if I ever had any. But if there still are readers of this blog, thank you.
From my last post, I said that I would probably talk about the photo edits, the certain retired actor that’s really making me think (until now), or even the currently airing Super Sentai series that I’ve been watching. But now that I’m writing this, I don’t think I could talk any of it. Well, what can I say? This entry is like a summary of what I’ve been doing for the past week. Or maybe not.
Even so, I’d still like to post this since I can’t concentrate on what I was supposed to do tonight. So let’s get on with it, shall we?
Hi! How are you, everyone? Still living a good life, I hope.
I’m not sure if I have readers here but I still want to do this. I just want to write down my thoughts since honestly speaking, I’ve never done that in a long while. I don’t know but it seems that these past months, I’ve been having a hard time incorporating my thoughts to my writings and now, I’m stumped. If you know what I mean.
Just like now. A while back, I was contemplating on writing a blog entry in English or Filipino. See? I couldn’t also decide on what language medium to use for writing. Same goes to me writing my manuscripts. Due to some issues that I won’t be able to discuss properly here, I’ve been in hiatus in writing Filipino romance. And it’s a long while, as well. I guess I’m losing my touch in writing something that I really want to believe, but some things (or should I say circumstances) were trying to destroy it for me.
(In no particular order) tagged by Yasha Red Weasley in my FB account
1. Alden Richards (matagal na, actually)Originally posted in my FB account last October 27, 2014
As tagged by Ayamebunny WP
-masungit sa unang tingin (kaya napagkakamalang suplada)I’m losing my touch. That’s all I’m going to say about this particular day. I don’t know what to do anymore except to mope around and think that maybe I made the wrong decision after all.
It’s not exactly easy to remain optimistic all the time when one negativity after another keeps arriving and surrounding you. I’m trying but I think I’m about to give in and remain moping around with nothing else to do. Especially when I have to deal with another rejection I received just this morning.
This is why I said that I’m losing my touch.
I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing, continuing to pursue the one thing that’s making me sane right now. But despite the negativity and me moping around, I still find myself doing it. I’m still here writing.
This may not be a story that I want to write, but this is still me. This is what I want to do. I don’t think I could ever give this up even though I’ve received more rejections than approvals. No, really. I think I lost count of all the rejections I need to deal with, but here I am.
Pero sa totoo lang, parang mas magaling lang akong magplano kaysa magpatuloy ng mga naiplano ko na. Alam mo `yon. Kung minsan, hindi ko maiwasang ma-disappoint sa sarili ko pagdating sa mga ganitong bagay. Na ang dami kong plano pero hindi ko magawang tapusin lahat kasi nga laging distracted o laging tinatamaan ng katam.
Anyway, heto na nga. Since ayoko namang ma-pending lang sa isang tabi ito at amagin (literally), ise-share ko na lang ang tungkol sa romance series na sinasabi ko. Pero gusto ko lang sabihin na ang pagkakasulat ko ng description ng series na `to ay iyon mismo ang paraan ko ng pagkakasulat n’on noon. Word by word. Kaya kayo na ang humusga ng writing style ko noon kung ikukumpara sa ngayon. Okay?
Okay. Mag-Tagalog naman tayo para maiba. Aba’y pulos English na ang mga pinagsususulat ko nitong mga nakaraang posts ko rito, ah. Nakaka-nosebleed lang, ha? Haha! In fairness, na-miss ko ring magsulat ng mga Filipino posts. Nitong mga nakaraang linggo kasi, nag-focus ako sa pagsusulat ng mga stories na pulos English. Alam mo na, isang paraan rin iyon para maka-connect ka sa mga international readers, lalo na `yong mga fanfiction readers.
`Yan pa. Fanfiction.
Nitong mga nakaraang linggo, ito talaga ang pinagkakaabalahan ko. Nagbalik-loob ako sa pagsusulat ng fanfictions lately. At ang subject ng mga fanfiction na pinagsususulat ko—Super Sentai. Hindi katulad ng karamihan ng co-writers ko na K-Drama ang hilig, mas gusto ko pong manood ng Super Sentai series. Kahit babae ako, ewan ko kung bakit iyon ang mas gusto kong panoorin. Kaya siguro nawawalan na ako ng romansa sa katawan dahil doon. Hehe! Sa ngayon, pinagkakaabalahan kong panoorin ang currently airing na Sentai series—ang Space Squadron Kyuranger (Uchuu Sentai Kyuranger).
Okay. I managed to post this again after... how many days? Seriously, I don't want to count anymore since it's starting to become irritating. But anyway, I don't know if I have so much to say here. Some are just... not containable and can't be put into words for some reason. Dramatic much? Yeah, I know. I also just noticed that.
Anyway, what are the recent updates? I could say nothing much. But it's better if I just enumerate things down, okay?
So there you go. Until the next post!
NP: "I Love You, I Remember You" by I.O.I.Wow! I can't believe it's the third entry already. Well, I can't seem to find my drive to write the stories that needed my attention so I ended up writing this instead. I hate it when I suffer like this, especially those times I wanted to write every story I had in mind but my body won't even cooperate at all.
Or I have a feeling that it was just my excuse to escape, I think.
Anyway, there's a bit of a weird news. Thankfully, I got to finish my first Kyuranger fanfic. And now it's posted on my Wattpad account. It's titled "Staying Silent" and it's a Lucky/Hami/Stinger fanfiction story, featuring two other Sentai characters--Kasumi from Ninninger and Agri from Goseiger. I know, it's a weird addition. I'm just glad it's over and finished. I had fun writing it, honestly speaking and now, I'm planning to write a reversed version of it. But this time, it will feature two different Sentai characters--both are from Go-onger.
For now, I'm a bit pissed with my Wattpad app along with the slow internet connection. And I think that's what added to the reason of me having the hard time finding my writing muse.
So that's it for now.
Till the next entry... whenever that is.
NP: "Only For You" by Six Part Invention
I know I should’ve posted another entry last Sunday. And what day is today? It’s Wednesday. So that means I haven’t posted anything in 3 days and I’m really sorry for that. Besides the fact that I ran out of topics to talk about, I’m also suffering from itchy throat and runny nose for days now, which is extremely irritating. Can’t I just wish for it to go away? And I mean immediately. Urgh! I hate this.
Not much has happened during those days that I didn’t write any entries here. Trust me, that’s how boring my life could be most of the time. During the last entry, I did mention that I created a second Instagram account, right? Well, it’s already filled with 69 posts at the moment. Most of it are my photo edits I did featuring my Kyuranger OTP Stinger and Hami. Ever since I saw some of the edits created by the other IG users featuring that pair, it felt like I got a sudden burst of inspiration to write other stories with those two as my visuals. And of course, I also got inspired to do my own photo edits while still experimenting on how to use Snapseed which is a photo-editing app for Android. This was first suggested to me (and the other #daretoshareIGchallenge participants) along with a visual-planning and scheduling app for Instagram called Planoly. But I only let Snapseed remain in my phone. So here I am.
I’m not sure what will I post and when will I post the next Thoughts At Night entry here. I don’t want to say any particular date that I would end up not doing. That could really be a little disappointing and upsetting.
Until next time!
NP: “Megumi No Ame (Blessed Rain)” by Alan Dawa Dolma
Yes, I know. Today is a Saturday so I should be writing a Saturday Night Thoughts post. But then, I said to myself: “If I have posts here during Saturdays, I think I should also write journal posts on other days, as well.” Why not, right? Just to make things fair.
I know I haven’t posted anything here for, like, a week or so after that last post. I’m not going to give a crappy reason that things had gotten a little hectic, even though it’s the truth. I was preoccupied with so many thoughts lately that I ended up not doing the usual things. And because I got so caught up in those thoughts, I even decided to do some things that I don’t know if I should consider absurd or just… something I really want to do—I just didn’t know it.
Besides writing down this explanation, I can’t think of anymore sensible things to write here tonight. My throat hurts and I think I’m going down with a cold. God! This is what I hate about rainy days. And because of that, I haven’t written anything related to my stories and pending manuscripts. I’m so behind schedule and it’s irritating. So I got busy doing other things:
I should’ve added reading the ARC for “Bucket List of Love” by C.P. Santi, but I didn’t read any book today, sadly. So I didn’t place it. Tomorrow would be the 2nd entry, but as a Sunday Currently post. Okay?
NP: “Panunumpa (The Promise/The Oath)” by Carol Banawa (a Filipino wedding song)
I'm not quoting the movie title here, okay? Heck, I haven't even watched that movie (Lost In Translation) so I have no idea about the story of that film. What I'm talking about here are my stories. Yes, I've started translating two of them in English (finally!).
As some of you might have read on my previous posts, you'll know that I write--a lot. I started with personal journals and a few feature articles when I was in elementary. I was in Grade 6 at the time, if I remember it right. Or maybe even in Grade 5? When I reached first year high school (I'm talking about the previous Philippine educational system, so it's equivalent to first year middle school if you'll follow the educational system in other countries), I started writing poems and short skits (scripts usually used in role-plays). It continued until I reached third year (still equivalent to 3rd year middle school). By the second semester of that school year, I started writing prose. And I mean fiction--romance fiction.
Honestly speaking, when was the last time I posted something like this? Man, I really need to remember that. I can't say that I miss writing a Sunday Currently post. But things are a little messed up for md right now, especially on how my life really had a slow progress over the months. There were changes, but they were not exactly the obvious ones.
But I'm still trying. At least, I know I'm willing to try some things that might give me the progress I need.
Okay, so this would be the third post I have for this day, July 2nd of the year 2017. There are reasons for that, though:
In any case, I've been writing poems and stories way before I discovered Wattpad and I started posting some of my stories there at around 2013-2014 (I guess). I can't remember the exact day but I remember the month. It was the month of May. And yet the feeling of suffocation at the atmosphere of the site that was supposed to give me inspiration to write more made me end up deleting that first Wattpad account I had. Looking back, I still think if I regretted deleting that account where I met a few online friends that I still got to interact with even today. And yet, the answer I came up with was--NO. I never regretted doing that.
Is this a weird post coming from me? For now, I don't want to say anything about the reason why I'm posting this for now. I just want to express my thoughts since I can't concentrate on what I'm writing.
#DoingThisForTheFirstTime
That's the truth. I've been an admirer (not a fan) of many celebrities and idols of a few different races in Asia. In particular, I've been an admirer of some Japanese, Korean, Thai, Chinese, Taiwanese, and of course, Filipino celebrities. But this will be the first time I'm going to greet one of those celebrities a "Happy Birthday" here on my blog. So I'm not surprise if I'm actually nervous about doing this right now.
So, this was a post for Day 4 of the IG challenge. The second to the last day. I had fun posting most of them, even though I know I ended up posting photos with seriously long captions (or not exactly that long). Before any of you would ask, this post's title has something to do with what I read from one of the photos posted for this IG challenge. But we'll get to that later.
Day 3 of #daretoshareIGchallenge... and I was late for posting the morning photo for the first time. I don't know why I felt like that, though. I mean, I never cared about my time in posting photos in Instagram before. Or maybe because I was just that excited to post it, huh?
So the theme for Day 3 photos are BTS. Fun BTS, as Ms. Arriane emphasized it. But seriously, I have to admit that my life is a little boring, considering the fact that I was living an almost hermit-like life. Haha! Just kidding. I'm not a complete hermit. But I really prefer to stay at home and write, think of what to write, and think of ways to have a progress on my writing projects. But we'll get into that later. Okay?
Hey, there! How are you all doing? I hope you're all doing great today. Or if not, try to do something that will make you forget those sad or bad things that had ever happened today. Try to become an inspiration to those who can't think of what to do to get out of that zone of sadness or gloominess.
At least, little by little, as an aspiring writer, I try to.
So what's with the title? It's still about the #daretoshareIGchallenge I joined to. This is the 2nd day of posting photos for that challenge. As usual, two or more photos would be posted at 9-10 am and 9-10 pm.
Honestly speaking, I don't know how to start expressing my thoughts, anything that has something to do with my father. It's been a really long time since then for me. I don't have many memories about my father, with exceptions to class recognitions and graduations that he attended and went to with me and my sisters.
I've given him (and even more to my mom) many disappointments. I guess, until now, I'm still giving him that. But if you're going to ask me, I'm not going to trade my father for anything else. I might not be (quite) devoted to him as I was to my mom. But he's still my one and only father. Sorry will never be enough to compensate for all the bad things we did and said to each other. But I love him. I hope that, even though I don't say it often, it will still reach him.
I love you, Papa! And Happy Fathers' Day, as well!Hey, guys! How are you? Are you all doing well? I really hope you all are. I know today is Fathers' Day, and I should be posting about that. But I'll post something about that later. This one is a different topic.
So yesterday was the start of posting photos in IG for the #daretoshareIGchallenge. I know that it's not going to be easy for me since I just post photos there randomly. Whenever I feel like it. But I want to try things, at least do them one step at a time. So in the next coming days, I might post photos here as well that I posted in my IG account. Maybe that would really help me recall and realize my bigger goals in life.
And trust me, there's a lot of them. Hehe!
WARNING: This is a long post. And I mean really long since umabot lang naman ito ng 2 pages nang i-type ko ito sa MS Word. Font style: Calibri, font size: 11. Haha! Grabe, in-elaborate pa talaga ang ginamit na font style at size, `no?
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Nakakairita! Sa totoo lang. Masyado na bang dumarami ang mga taong walang magawang matino sa mga buhay nila at pati ang nananahimik na buhay ng ibang tao, pinapakialaman at tinatangka pang sirain? Sa mga nakakakilala sa akin, alam nila na hindi ako masyadong nagre-react kapag ako ang pinapakialaman nila o nilalait nila. Hanggang kaya kong manahimik para lang walang gulo, gagawin ko. Ganoon ako. Pero kapag ang nanay ko o ang mga kapatid ko na ang tinira nila, aba! Ibang usapan na ‘yan, ah.
Okay. So since I started posting my Super Sentai story on both my Tumblr and Wattpad accounts, I decided to post this particular fanfiction featuring Seitenger and one of my favorite Super Sentai series, Kyoryuger that's been in my mind (and in my flashdrive) for a long time now. Now, I know I only posted two of the episodes for Seitenger. But what you're about to read here will contain some spoilers on how the series will run, despite the timeline of this particular fanfiction taking place several months after Seitenger's finale.
Here's how the fanfiction goes:
I don't usually post this sort of entry here on my blog. I mean, I'm not really vocal--both in the real world and even in social networks--when it comes to ocassions like this. But this is my mother that I'm talking about. So that means I should make an exception every now and then, right?
It's Mothers' Day today. But I'm just writing this now (8:01 pm) because I focused on writing other things first. Sorry for that, 'Ma. You know how my mind tends to float away very far when I started writing.
Originally posted in Facebook last May 6, 2016
Working Title: Brokenhearted Heroes #2 – Our Turn To Heal This Broken Heart
“Just trying to relish the feeling of being heartbroken.”
Lumalim ang pagkunot ng noo niya. May nangyari ba na hindi niya nalalaman? Her brother looked completely serious when he said that. “Okay. What the heck happened to you while I was away?”
Inilagay ni Riel ang wine glass na pinupunasan nito sa wine glass rack at saka ipinatong ang mga kamay sa counter bago siya tingnan. Sa palagay niya ay bagong hugas lang ang mga wine glass na pinagkakaabalahang punasan ng kapatid niya. Ilang sandali rin niyang hinintay na magsalita ang lalaking ito at sabihin sa kanya ang kung ano mang problema nito.
“Wala na ba akong appeal sa mga babae?”
“Ha?!” halos pasigaw na bulalas niya. Wala na siyang pakialam kung pinagtitinginan siya ng mga customer dahil sa ginawa niyang iyon. “Pambihira ka naman, Kuya. Akala ko naman kung ano na ang pinoproblema mo. Huwag mong sabihing pinairal mo na naman ang pagiging babaero mo habang wala ako rito? Makukutusan talaga kita.” Mukhang tama nga siya. May saltik na sa utak ang kapatid niyang ito.
“Nabasted kasi kaya ganyan siya ngayon,” ani isang tinig mula sa likuran niya.
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Tagged by Yasha Red Weasley, Olivette Phr, and Celeste Cardoso Msv.
Sorry kung ngayon ko lang ginawa ito. Ngayon lang ako nagkaroon ng time. Idagdag mo pa ang topaking internet na talaga namang ayaw makisama, eh talagang tatamarin ako, 'no? Anyway, after a year and more (for real), may approved na akong MS ulit. Spin-off naman ito ng Mirui's Hyacinth: Smile At Me na p-in-ublish ng PHR. For 1st revision ang unang result nito at natagalan bago ko nagawang i-revise ito.
Tatlong teaser ang naipasa ko pero isa lang ang ilalagay ko rito. This is the third teaser na ipinasa ko sa kanila at iba ito doon sa naka-post sa Wattpad account ko:
...and all of them will be written in English. Well, I started with writing my very own and first Super Sentai story in English so it's for the best that I write the second Super Sentai in the same language, right?
Honestly, I didn't really have much of the inspiration to write a new sentai team since I haven't written anything after Record 2 (that's episode 2, by the way) of Seitenger. But because of a fantasy story idea that never wanted to leave my mind since a year ago, here I am, making it even harder for myself.
So while I was walking going to the town (I got bored in waiting for jeepneys here), I ended up imagining scenes for "Operation: Cloudbreak" having a crossover with another Super Sentai story I'm thinking. No clear plot yet about the 2nd Super Sentai story I'm planning. But the sixth ranger of that sentai team definitely has a connection to one of the recruited Cloudbreakers, Elena Chon.
All of these are still in the planning stage right inside my mind. I don't know when will I be able to post it on my story-exclusive Tumblr blog. Then there's also my plan for short stories with Korean and Japanese named characters.
*sighs* What am I doing with my mind, thinking of story plans like this?Sa mga nakabasa na ng “Heidi, The Sky Insight” sa Wattpad account ko (hopefully talaga, meron), sino sa mga characters na ipinakilala ko rito ang gusto n'yong sulatan ko na ng kuwento niya?
Ito ‘yong mga characters na nagpakita, so far:
Tanong ko lang naman. Hindi ko kasi alam kung sino ang isusunod ko, eh. Tapos na ang kuwento ni Heidi at editing na lang ang kulang bago ko ipasa. So ngayon, isip-isip naman ng susunod na isusulat.
I hope makapagbigay kayo ng comments. Please lang po. Alam ko, hindi ako maingay nitong mga nakaraang buwan. Pero susubukan kong mag-ingay ngayon. Tingnan natin kung mapapanindigan. Hehe!Okay. Matagal-tagal na rin pala akong hindi nakakapag-post ng matino-tinong blog post dito. Sorry naman, mas busy ako sa pagsusulat ng manuscripts ko, eh. Yes, with ‘s’. Plural `yan, ah. Ngayon-ngayon lang, tiningnan ko ang FB newsfeed ko. I kept seeing posts about people and their PHR stories that most of the time had changed their lives. So I’ll post mine here instead of my FB wall/timeline. Para kapag hindi ko ito mahanap sa FB timeline ko kapag naisipan ko itong i-post doon, I could always look here.
Gaya ng naunang sinulat ko, nagsusulat ako ng manuscripts (with “s” so that means it’s plural). Noong una, wala talaga akong planong magsulat ng nobela. Masaya na ako sa pagsusulat ng short stories or even short skits para sa school noon. Nagbabasa rin ako ng mga pocketbook noon, mapa-PHR man o sa ibang publication houses. And I don’t consider them cheap at all. Isa ang mga pocketbooks sa nagpa-realize sa akin kung ano talaga ang gusto kong gawin.
Grabe. Medyo depressing ang mood dito sa bahay, ah. Kagaya ng panahon sa labas ngayon. Makulimlim. Moody rin ang mga kasama ko rito sa bahay at kulang na lang, madamay pa ako sa pagiging gloomy. Sorry, iyon dapat ang ginamit kong word. Hindi pala moody. It’s supposed to be gloomy.
Gusto ko talagang magkaroon na ng progress ang buhay ko. Pero kung ganito namang parang wala na akong ganang gawin ang kahit ano, dumarating na ako sa puntong nag-iisip ng maraming “what if’s”.
What if mawala na ako?
What if maglayas ako at lumayo sa kanila?
What if I take my own life?
Weird. Pero hanggang sa isip ko lang ang mga iyon. Lahat ng mga naiisip kong iyon, takot akong gawin. Baliw na talaga ako, ‘no?
Hindi lahat ng mga post ko rito, good vibes. Para ngang walang masyadong post dito sa blog na ito na masasabi kong puwedeng maghatid ng good vibes, eh.
Hay, naku naman po!Haha! Sorry kung dito sa blog ko idadaan ang pagbati. Alam kong medyo maliit ang chance na mabasa ito ng sinuman sa mga staff ng PHR. Ayoko kasing sa FB ko i-post ito, eh. Wala lang. Gusto ko lang.
Kadalasan sa mga post na nakikita ko tungkol dito, nagpo-post sila ng mga naging first book nila doon. Anyway, sa July pa ang book birthday ng first approved manuscript ko sa PHR.
Basta ito lang ang masasabi ko. Kahit talaga namang mabagal akong magsulat at karamihan ay hindi pa naa-approve, thank you pa rin kasi binigyan niyo ako ng pagkakataong tuparin ang isa sa mga pangarap ko. Sana hindi pa ito ang huli.My head is being filled with ideas right now. Lots and lots of writing ideas which I don’t know if I would be able to write at all. Seriously, this is what happens when I try something for the first time and get inspirations from it in the end. Should I be happy with that? Or should I just groan?
I really don’t know.I’ve seen a certain ‘call for submission’ ng stories for Red Room. According to what I’ve read, para iyon sa isang anthology. Habang nagba-browse ako sa FB newsfeed ko, may mga nakita na akong published writers (both indie and traditional) na naalarma at nag-react tungkol dito, especially with regards to copyright.
Ang masasabi ko lang… Mabuti na lang pala at wala akong planong magsulat ng erotica. Mapa-short story man iyan o nobela. Siguro, wala pa akong plano sa ngayon. Hindi pa siguro ito ang time. But to completely take the copyright without even making a credit…
Seriously, wala na akong idea sa sinasabi kong ito. I’ll just mind my WIP. May mapapala pa ako.